I opened my eyes and looked outside, No not again. Why did I wake up? I don't want to wake up at all, I want sleep 24/7 and never wake up.
Just like no one care if I live or die, I just want to sleep.I got up and dressed for the office and left my house. Metros are as busy like other day but I am not interested. I reached the office and started my work, but I am not interested in it. My colleagues are talking and laughing in lunch break but I am not interested. Someone got promotion and other is getting retired but I am not interested.
All this time, since I woke up I am looking at clock, when will this day end? and I can sleep. All I want is to sleep......only sleep.I looked at clock and it's time to go home. Everyone left the office and my colleague invited me for group dinner but I politely rejected the offer.
I went home lie down on my bed. I looked at the celling of my room.....this is my favourite place from all, no one will judge me, no one blame me, no one harm me....and just like that closed my eyes and went in the world of my dreams.
There were beautiful flowers, sky was so beautiful..... beautiful colour of blue...and I am in the park, wearing a cotton light pink dress...so beautiful.
And a familiar voice came from my behind.
"So you came back Lia"
I immediately turned back and hugged him.
"I missed you soo much"
"I missed you too Lia, I was waiting for you to come, so I could show you this beautiful park,Did you like it?"
I broke the hug and gave him a big smile,"A lot"
I looked at his face......I know what I am seeing now but I will forget his face the moment I woke up and I don't want to....I don't want to forget what he looks like, I don't want to stay away from him, I tried to remember every time what he looks like but couldn't, no matter how hard I try.
All I could remember a faceless man.
And that's the reason I want to sleep all day and night and never wake up.
I remember the first time I met him. I was in torn clothes, there were dirt on me, I was a mess and hiding in my old house were my parents live.
Dad was hitting Mom and I was hiding in my closet with hands on my ears.
I heard the Sound of foot steps and it's dad, I guess he is done with Mom and is coming for me.
I pushed back myself so I could hide better and closed my eyes.
Someone touched my hands and bring it infront of me and I opened my eyes
And he was there his brows were together.
He held my hand and brought me out from there and we both runaway from there.
From that moment, we meet in every dream and when I had another dream about something it makes me upset.
He always calm me and listen to all of my bu*shit. He cares for me, he understands me.
He both held hands and move around the park.
"I have something for you", he said.
"What is it?"
"Close your eyes"
And I did, I felt something on head,I opened eyes.
There was a crown made of flowers.
I looked at him suprised,"Did you like it?"
"Love it", I exaggerated and gave him a kiss on cheek.
He holds my face in his hands and I could feel the warmth in them,"Good to hear that", I saw warmth in his eyes for me.
We roam around the park and saw beautiful things , there were other peoples but my eyes only search for him.
He brought some flowers for me which made me smile more or should I say that I smile only in my dreams with him only.
My smile slowly fades away,"I want to be with you"
"ME TOO"
"I am serious"
"Me too"
And I felt pain in my chest.....and I know what it was.
Suddenly he holds my hand began to run.
"What happened?"
"I want to show you something"
And after few minutes we stopped and I saw there were sawns in lake.
They were so beautiful.....such a mesmerizing view.
I looked at him and hold his hand,"I don't want to wake up, I want to be with you forever"
"Me too, but it can't be, you have to wake up everyday so we can meet again"
And that brought tears in my eyes, I been seeing him from 1 month and got addicted to him so much.........that I never been with someone.
"What is your name?", I asked finally......cuz he never tell me.
He gave me sad smile,"It doesn't matter?"
I am confused,"Why?"
"Cuz you won't remember it", there was pain in his voice.It means he knows that I don't remember anything when I woke up.
I panicked,"No I will, what is your name?"
"R~..."
"What?", it's like I can't hear it.
"R...."
"I can't hear you", and suddenly sky began to grow brighter slowly slowly.We both looked up.
"Please what is it?"
He gave me a kiss on forehead and there was a smile on his face and he began to fade away and I woke up.
I remain still like that for a minute and a tear roll down from my cheek.
Why? Just why this always happens with me, just why?
And he was right cuz I didn't remember him
I only remember his brows, lips, his warmth, his voice.
It's like always.
I was feeling so empty, it's like someone took out my heart and crushed it. It's so painful, I cried so hard that it was painful to even breath.
Why God? The only person I wanted the most, I cannot have him. Just why?
I began my daily routine and at evening when I came back my nightmare were there.
My Mom and my Dad.
And I know why they are here.... for money.
And I was right, when we sat on dining table they didn't wait for the food to finish.
I fought with them and got hit by my father and after all humiliation I had to surender him.
And they left, but it's fine cuz they are like this from the beginning.
I remember when I was 10 year old my mother throw me in the tank of water so I just die there.
I guess it was god who saved me.
Acoording to my Mom I am the reason Dad hates her, she says that before me Dad use to love her a lot.....so she hates me.
According to Dad I am the reason my mother hates him, cuz I am not a boy and my mother always wanted a boy, after my birth she couldn't become mother again anymore so that traumatized her.
whenever I am near they always fought eachother that whose fault is it and each one of them take there anger out on me.
I don't have friends cuz whenever they see my house problems they slides away from me cuz my mother tried to harm one of my friend and after that I stopped talking to people and making friends.
But they cannot harm my faceless Man, and sometimes I feel happy that he comes in my dreams and not a real person, otherwise he would have also runway.
I lie down on my bed, feeling excited to see him again and tell him all about my day.
But it didn't go as I expected, he didn't came to meet me.
I waited for him on the bench all time but he didn't came.
I thought it's fine I will meet him next day but no he didn't came for next 4 days what made me depressed.
Why I can't see him anymore? What happened?
And the very next day when I was in my dream waiting for him on the same bench, I saw him standing next to a tree.
I run to him and hugged him tightly, after a moment we broke.
"Where were you?"
"I don't know", he looked at the bench were I was sitting,"Maybe lost"
"Lost?"
He didn't replied and hold my hand and we walk away from there.
You know I missed you soo much "
"Me too Lia"
"I want to tell you lots of things"
"And I am excited to listen "
I told him everything and suddenly I had urge to say this,"you know, you are the beautiful thing that ever happened to me"
"And.....you are going to be my wonderful experience"
And this got me,"what do you mean?"
He take my face in his hand,"See Lia I guess I won't be able to see you again."
"What?", I Hold his hand tightly."Don't say this"
"But if this happens promise me that you will takecare of yourself"
"But why?", and at this my voice broke and a tear roll down from my cheek.
"I know my Lia can do this, my every moment with was magical Lia"
"NOOOOOO", and sky began to trun white and my eyes wide opened.
I remember I cried whole day and after that I didn't see him again. I just wanted to end myself but My faceless man words stopped me and I followed his words. Just like that 2 months went and I got busy with my life.
But it didn't kept me away from thinking about him.
Until one day, when I was in Z City in a museum for a event.
I was checking and admiring the art when I saw a man. Same buit as faceless man, hairs like him and my heart stopped.
I tried to reach him but failed as it was very rushed. I ran out and looked for him in the park as I saw him going there but no one was there until I heard a voice.
"Lia?"
I turned around immediately and it was.....my faceless Man. I knew it just with his voice that it's him and I could see him. I pinch myself that it's not a dream and it's not. His face was not blurr, it was clear those black eyes were so beautiful.
I ran and hugged him and cried eyes out and he held me close.
I broke the hug,"You are real"
"So you", and gave him wide smile."I do knew that you are a real person I just had to find you and I did, I searched for you a lots of places and finally I got you Lia"
"Yeah, what is your name my faceless Man"
He laughed,............"Ryan"
And it's like I can't look away for him, and if I did he will disappear again.
"I will never leave you again", he holds my hand tightly,"Will you be my life partner Lia"
I got surprise with his confession,"Ye-yes I will"
And we kissed.
"I love you Lia"
"I love you Ryan"
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