I'm tired and I need some rest but in my case I want it to become permanent
I'm tired of their expectations for me and their will to make me do what I don't wanna do
I'm tired of their glare that they gave me like I'm some kind of lazy parasite although to be honest I rather to become one instead of being human.
I'm tired to pretend that I'm alright even though I'm destroyed mentally and my soul become an empty void.
I'm tired of the fake smile that I have to show even though I want to cry out loud let everything out cause once I do that it's either I get reprimanded or they laugh at me for being weak.
I want to rest, I want to end everything they said that I'm so lazy that most of the day I was asleep but they didn't know that was my way of testing if this is death feels like.
I don't know if I can keep going, I don't know if I can keep continuing that story, I just... I just don't know anymore.
I want all of this to end just like this flat line
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