i have never thought "the friendship" will turn into "love" but what I'm willing to do is love him in every stage . the thing i don't know is - why him ?
but today he saw me with his diamond eyes . do he feel something ? or it was just normal thing for him. I'm thinking to tell him that I love him .but I'm scared ............what if he disappointed or start avoiding me . even it is hard to love him in this situation. why I make him my friend.
why i didn't feel anything before.
these all things started with hate.
yes.........I hated him before. because my bestie used to like him actually she is my ex bestie. cause she said I'm her only bestfriend but then I found she said these words to everyone. however.....leave it. the main thing is that why I hated him. why!?
his behaviour wasn't good to my ex bestie. because he never liked her. and i start to hate him for that bitch. she make my joke in front of others. now I'm not going to focus on some bitches the important thing is he............
it's been 3 years being friendly with him. but now I don't feel friend word for him. the rumars about us !
his friends said he like me. i was so happy but I act like - what a stupid thing. after i know it that he don't like me his bestfriend have a crush on me. it was a joke or a reality..............that he like me.
however I can't stand like this.........
his brown eyes , his pink lips , curly hairs , his height (5.11ft.) his wight colour , a soft scin , he has a charming face but i didn't liked him for his body. I liked him........
.......i...........i.did.it........i don't have words. i don't have reason to like him. i can't feel that thing for someone else except him. why so real ?
i don't have courage to tell him my feeling. what I can do is like him until he is single. i wish - he have same feeling towards me.
shall i tell him....................
