"I love you Hon"
"I love you too always, my wife"
We were so happy. We were living a happy life like those fairy tales I've read. These are the moments in my life that will instill in my memories 'till death.
That time, it was vague, my body move itself and I was hugging my husband. I could feel his tears flowing into my cheeks but I smiled into him. I look at him and thought that, "Oh God, how perfect this man could be". The thing that, God answers your prayer for those sleepless nights. He may not be the perfect one to others but he is to me. He was so much better like hindi ko na maiwasan minsan to think na, "He deserve so much better, so why me?" God took time making him and sculpted him so perfectly for me.
"It will be alright Hon" I said.
He was crying so much and I could see his anger in his eyes but I was trying to calm him down by patting his head with a genuine smile. And he seems so. I think haha.
I felt hot in my back and front, and is wet. I knew what it was and so is him. It was blood. I was stabbed. But I am paying all my attention to him. To calm him down.
I will never regret doing this. Only this time. He was serving me all the time we were together. So only this time. I will not fail.
"Are you fine Hon? Did you get hurt?" I asked.
"How could you? Why did you? You could have-" he asked unstoppable and crying.
"Because I loved you a lot."
"But-"
"Please stop crying, okay? I'm alright"
He was still crying.
"Please hold on, the rescue will come"
I could feel my body weakening. I know my body more than anybody. I will not last tonight. I know that it hits the vital part of my body. Why does it have to be night?
"Hon my love?"
"Yes?" He answered.
"I love you"
He was crying again. Hagulgol ang buang.
"I love you so much as well"
"Enough crying okay?"
"Please love our daughter more than you love me from now on-"
"Stop it Hana! You will be fine okay? Just hang on!"
"Just listen to me. I never regret this. I just love you so much. I am so happy being with you."
He was crying so much. I smiled.
"I'm sorry for being stubborn and pasaway sayo. For understanding me and loving me unconditionally."
"Please be happy with our daughter. Find another woman that will-"
"No one can replace you!" He said.
"It's just that I want you to be happy. Live a life with our daughter. Understand her just as how you do it with me. Live a life without regrets. Everything has a purpose, always remember that."
I could not longer lift my hand touching his face.
"Do you understand me? You know that I'll always be watching you."
I know he wants to say more to me but chose not to. I LOVE HIM.
"I am. I love you so much and will always be, my wife." He said.
"I know... I know that. I love you too."
"Can I sleep Hon? I'm sleepy."
He was crying unstoppable and hugging me tightly but I could not feel any. My body was numb.
"You can. Have a good sleep honey"
"Thank you. I love you, hon." I said as I smiled at him and kiss him, then closed my eyes.
Life is so short but not the love. We may fail sometimes in love but it still lingers and win. We may not realize those but still, love always last. May be not in this person, but how about next? How about the person God has given you?
The dreams I always have: finding a man who will be with me, job, marriage, have a baby, growing old with you, and such.
May be not this time but in next. I'll be with you forever in next life. I'll be waiting here, hon. Of course, I'll be watching you two as well. I love you two so much. You are the greatest gift God gave me. I treasured you two both the most. I LOVE YOU.
Fairy tales are not always ended with a happily ever after. It sometimes goes a round the opposite. Yet, we still stick and believe that everything will go happily ever after in this hectic and miserable reality.
