It all started when you danced my favorite k-pop Idol's song. Out of love and shock cuz someone danced their song, I yelled almost broke my voice. My heart flutter and my boring time was liven up by you. I knew you from the start but never care, however that moment I started to get to know you for real. We often bump and crossed eyed each other. I don't know if fate is bringing us closer, funny yes, but let me described it as that. I thought you're a fan too and my doubts become true when I heard you sing along what I was playing back then. Certainly, you're one of us, so freaking happy that I finally met a fan guy. Then from that moment, I begun to notice you more and always here you play the songs of my favorite k-pop Idol since our classroom is just a wall splitting us. A long time passed, you were always the talk of me and my cousin's. I really thought I only treat you as a fanboy. You tranferred schools and I begun to forget you. But when I saw you way back December, suddenly all things flashback. He's back, yes but only for a vacation. I suddenly felt curious about him, what was he doing all this time? Really, curiousity kills a cat. I stalked his account and find out that he's asking someone out, wow I knew he is his best friend. But the more I saw the pictures I realized how close they are and maybe there is something going on with them. Especially, I hate how close he is to girls. Sigh. It was fatally my mistake thinking like that but fine, that moment I gave up though I didn't know what I'm giving up. Because my aunt and their house are neighbor we often bump again but if I was just calm back then, I turned serious the moment we eyed each other and I was the one who looked away first when we did it at the same time back then. I stopped thinking of him and it go furthers when he like the fandoms rival. Years flew so quickly that I never thought of him but then as soon as I saw him again, his grew up appearance I was struck inside but just calmly looked away like nothing. That was December again for freaking sake. My self got curious once again and stalk him, again, curiousity kills. He had a girlfriend but now he became single again I guess that was a year ago. When there's always a vacation we are always accidentally bumping. Now he is so busy in his studies and activities that he may not want to go home. But I just now discover, only now that I actually like him. Now that he's far away, far from my level. Hays... I wanted to confess, I always reacted 3 hearts in his story if he posted his picture for the first time I find it out. What would he think? I planned to confess to him this December...I think I can but... Maybe I cant. I thought I would not mind if he rejected me but I know I would still be hurt.
-should I just confess and bear the pain even if I knew there's no fruition to it? My pride and feelings are at stake. 10 billion percent that he will surely reject me. Just why the heck..
*Sigh*
