Today, I am feeling too low. I am very sad. I felt very hurt today.
My brother has started a new routine. He generally sleeps at around 9 at night and wakes up at around 3 to study.
So when he is sleeping, I go to another room to study, where he was studying before, so that he could sleep, without any disturbance and light could also be switched off.
But the problem is that he keeps his books as such and does not close them, so that he can continue the next day, from where he left the previous day. I have no problem with it, and I understand it.
So when I have to study, I pick up one or two of his books, and keep them elsewhere, on a chair to make some space so that I can study.
Later, after studying, I return them to their original position.
But from two to three days, we are fighting over it.
Why?
Because, he says that I cannot study in the room where he is sleeping because he needs light off.
I cannot study in his room, because he says I would keep my books on his books, or you would change it to some other page, and so on, even though I do nothing like it.
So where should I study, I don’t know.
The thing which hurt me the most was that when mom came upstairs, listening to our fight, she blamed, obviously, like every time.
What is my fault in it, I don’t understand.
He wants to sleep early, okay, then sleep, I don’t have any problem with it, but then I have to go to another room to study, because there is only one bedroom upstairs, and we both share, and as now he is sleeping, I cannot turn on the light, ok I go to another room, but there also he has problem, why because according to him I cannot touch his things, then where should I study, nobody cares, but everybody is ready to blame me for everything.
He says that, I have no problem if you want to switch on the light, but the whole day you are not studying, and at this time only you have to study.
But the problem is that I come home at around 6 from University, after that I have milk, some rest, then dinner, then only would I study, but he is not ready to understand it.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
The most hilarious thing, all my notes are mostly on my phone or laptop. In this also he has a problem.
According to him I am secretly using the phone, and doing something else, but this does not happen.
Whenever I have to use my phone, or play something else, I openly do it in front of them, never hide it, still I don’t know, they don’t believe me.
And an even more funny thing is that, he is not even in the room when I am studying, but still he always has these comments and sarcastic remarks to make, and my mother, don’t know what happened, but she always believes him, and ultimately who is the culprit, obviously me.
I cried out of frustration, and hurt, I am feeling today, I don’t know what to do.
I just want to go far away from here. This is almost like a daily episode for me, for one thing or another.
