We were friends when we were young. He was everything to me but I was nothing to him.
We have been in school together since third grade but I have never really noticed him until one day in 6th grade English class. It changed everything for me. I for some reason always noticed him now, could spot him easily in a crowd of people, and could always tell when he entered a room that I was in even if I didn’t look.
I would constantly think about him, lie awake at night just to think about him. His curly black hair, his deep soft eyes, his beautiful smile, and his soft laugh. As the days passed by, my love for him just deepened.
I had a crush on him for many years already but for a while, I felt that maybe he would have felt the same. Maybe if I kept trying, he would return my feelings. I look at his friendship as a sign that he was in love with me too, but I know that even in my wildest dreams, we can never get together.
But I was just a young dumb in middle school, whose first love broke my heart.
He would smile at me constantly, and tease me sometimes. I remember once, I felt as if he was jealous when other guys talked to me. But maybe I was only under that illusion because I was desperately in love with him and wanted to feel as if he felt the same way.
He had a lot of friends, I would constantly feel jealous when I saw him talking to another girl. My heart broke every single time.
After a while, he left and I never saw him again. He left and broke my heart. Even though I never saw him ever again, I still love him so desperately that I had to force myself to forget about him and eventually, I did.
I never felt so strongly about anyone ever again until I met my now husband. My husband was the second boy that I had ever loved. There was some sort of connection between us, a lot stronger than my first love, I felt as if I had known him my whole life. He fixed the hole in my heart without even knowing it, he made my emptiness feel complete. When I’m with him, it’s like nothing else.
We met in college where we were studying law together. We partner on a project and one thing leads to another.
Note: Love is an unbreakable bond. There is someone in life that you feel deeply connected to and that love doesn’t stop. Have you ever heard of soul mates? Well, that’s what it is for them. A bond that just deepens over time. Do they think that they found the perfect person? The truth is, they found each other 7 years ago when they were just young and dumb. It’s mysterious the way that love works, isn’t it? The perfect person has always just been in front of your eyes this whole time. Just waiting on them to figure it out, and put the pieces together.
They both thought that it was only them who had feelings and fear of rejection. It took them 7 years to get together again, don’t waste time, please.
