She betrayed me and went ahead to be with my Dad, I hate them for that and am broken but I get all the blames and I felt so terrible, cause no one ever cares about me and I have no regert pulling a trigger at my ex girlfriend and Dad.
I meant Emma when I was in grade one, if I could remember well, it was on Christmas Eve also a friend Birthday party, it was love at first sight seeing her in a black elegant grown, a very short skinny grown and she looks just perfect and beautiful and I somehow fell in love with those smile, As my friends knew well, am not that shy to woo a girl of my choice as a Playboy, so I walked up to her, and lucky for me She fell for my cunning words and we kissed.
That was the best thing ever, love at first sight then a kiss along, I taught it was a great fortunate coming to my way, but never knew I was walking to a past that will change my life forever, making me a different person, making me I am today , but yet I still got the blames for everything, and you are asking me to plead guilty which was never gonna happened.
I was only five when mama left me alone in this world, diying of cancer. I blamed God for been unfair to her, he ordered the angel to take her soul away without giving her a chance to smile before diying,
The night Mama dies father brought in a new wife, he told me she was my new mama, I was very very upset , that I ran up to my room in tears, I was just a kid and he was down there celebrating his wife death with his bride getting drunk and I realized mama had died because of him, my heart told me he had killed her just to take away her wealth. yet no one blame him for that, I was the one who has to suffer and endure so much pains.
Step- mama really makes my life a living hell in my mom house, I eat once day, not just normal food but a leftover I found in a waste bin, Dad never look at me for once or how pale I was, and we are rich, Papa was famous also, he was really famous after getting away with Mama's wealth, then I made up my mind to kick step mama out and I succeeded it was just a great achievement cause father finally looks at me and I gain her love.
like I said earlier, I meet Emma when I was just in college, it was such a beautiful day, meeting your love on Christmas Eve, I taught I found the one I could spend the rest of my life with, but that was not true, I just told my self a lie and that was heartbroken. my whole my life was just screwed up.
I love Emma so much that, I could gave up my life for her, my love for her was unconditional, I could not focused on my studies and my grades was fallen so fast, just dropping and I know I could repeat grade one.
We hang out together, go to club, eat candies, watch movies. everyone knows we dating, everyone knew she was my girlfriend and I was his boyfriend.
Everything was going smoothly, and I seem to be liking my new love, because of her I stopped talking to my friends and forcus on her instead of my studies, I never taught her love could be fake .
Everything changed the night she visits my house, for the first time I felt like a real man and get dis flowered by her even do I was a bad boy, I never had sex with any of my girlfriends, I guess that why they left me alone, but Emma was different, she see me in a different and I fell into her trapped just like that,
I never taught father could had eyes on my girlfriend, winking at each other, meeting and tugging each other to bed.
you asking me how I got to know was my worst nightmare.
Getting home that night and found my girl together on my bed doing shit that was really heartbroken and she breaks up with me.
She left, And my life was miserable with out her, My whole life was upside down, I could not think, forcus I was not my self not even for a second and I don't even know where I was helding to .
My life, I can't just understand it anymore, I was loosing my mind, everywhere I go, I saw her face and I was going crazy, yet father doesn't care, he called me a looser.
He stole mother wealth and now my girlfriend, I was very upset, could you still blame for that, why not them, to a girl I have show so much love, When she fell sick and was diying of kidney failure, I was there for her and donated mine, just to show her how much I love her so much and she turned out to be ingrate.
I just wondered why people can be so wicked, why can't they steal anyone's else joy but mine, my happiness was always taken away from me. I have suffered enough still no one cares about that, no one did.
They makes me upset, no one cares about how I was feeling, still I got the blames no one ever listen to my explanation.
I could not go back to my friends, I was helpless, I couldn't take care of myself again, Wearing Two different shoes with out knowing, loosing weight and lost of everything.
Am just a freak and a looser.
Then I started getting filled up of everything, I taught of committing sucide and ends my miserable life for good, after all no one will remember if I exist or not.
Then one night, I got an invitation from my father and it was boldly written DAVE'S WED EMMA. I was shock it was like a gunshot on me and I felt my heart breaking into tiny pieces, I just can't find a place to hold the pain and I decided to have revenge.
I wait and waited for the right time to strike.
then February 14 my day of striking them both, their wedding day, I walked into Emma's room and stabbed her twenty six times that was how many times I taught she had hurt me.
And my father, I pulled his trigger at him, same trigger he had planned to killed me my lord. so my lord, I have no regert for what I have done and I plead no guilty.
