When I am 11 years old I am always happy and I never experienced the pain, like crying or even angry , but when I am 12 years old I am so stressed and feel angry, and I even experienced that I got angry with my cousin, because their something hurt inside my heart. When I see my card that I have a bad grade in my English Journalism I was shock, and I just see that my cousin has a bad grade in her three subject and my mother and her mom is happy, but when my mother see my card and she said "why is your card had a bad grade?!, you see Emily's card?, she has a high grade!, you what happened to you?!. You are useless, make sure that someday you will have a high grade!" and I said "yes mother" , then I go to my bedroom and lock the door and I cried. I smash the mirror slightly, then I look at my face at the mirror crying. And I here my sister-in-law saying to my cousin "wow your grade is high!".My mother nock at the door and said"Celin open the door! " and I wipe my tears , and I open the door with a smile with my mother so that she won't find out that I cried. Then in the end I realized that it was my first time that I feel the pain and angry and cried. And from now on when I cry I just hide it, I don't want my mother see me cry so I just smiled and hold my tears for not to cry at my mother.
