Do I really like you?
No, you are not the same person that I know, you have changed a lot.
I thought you were nice, calm and introvert person, okay, it's okay if you are not like that anymore.
But!! Why I’m like this? (*slapping head)
I'm an idiot.
Your silky hair, that deep voice, and those little sharp eyes, oh! yeah and that edgy smile....
all these are the things that I’m seeing every night.
Even though you are good you used to look like an idiot when we are in school.
You used to be silent every time just like me. You don't have that many friends too.
Now you even got a play boy title and you are always surrounded by at least five or six members.
The only face that I remember in those 3 months high school is your poker face, I used to think why you are like that.
and with that face nobody likes to make you, their friend.
I also thought that I may not know your name if I’m not your desk mate.
But at that time, you are not as rude as you look, you helped me many times in those 3 months, for that I wished others will stop thinking you in a negative way.
Although helping me is not a big deal to you, but it was a lot to me.
when I’m leaving the school, I wrote two letters.
One is a thanking letter to you that I kept in your desk I don't know whether you read it or not, and the other one, I written it for the whole class saying that they are misunderstanding you and you are good person.
I don't know whether they talked to you or not but I’m sure that you all read this letter because I pinned it to our class notice bord. (*giggle*)
Silly me(*chuckle*) I also thanked our teacher to make me sit next to you, at that time all I thought is repaying you for helping me and staying with me whenever I need someone.
Usually, I don't make friends because I always shifts school as of my dad's job place frequently changes, and I not once worried about it.
But, for the first time I felt bad for leaving this good friend.
It's all pure feelings.
When I first saw you in this college, I thought you will remember me, so I tried to talk with you.
It's okay I forgot many people too.
6 years are quite long, you can forget your friends too.
But it's not the problem now, the problem is why my feelings are not as pure as before.
In early days I used think it would be nice to talk with you, and all I wanted is to share some good memories with you as a friend.
But now, because of watching these dramas or something I don't know, I want to hold your hands, I want to look into your eyes, talk with you, and I want to do something that I can't say even if I’m talking in my mind.
You!!, but you!!, you don't even remember me.
It feels like I'm watching my favourite hero in a television whenever you are in my sight because you don't give even a little response whenever our eyes.
And me on other side constructing concrete walls so that I can't let my heart to go with you, you don't believe me or you may laugh at me if I say I even listen to "my oasis" song on background whenever I see you.
(*sigh) It’s all feel like a fairy tale.
What is use of thinking you when you are not even noticing me, let me just sleep in peace idiot.
(*yawn*) Good night.
