I love you.
I really do.
My heart and soul are yours.
BUT!
You choose to break it like it means nothing?
You break my heart.
You break my soul.
You break my body too...
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Countless of times.
Think me pathetic? I AM Pathetic!
Oh Holy Heavens! I am Hopeless.
Hopelessly lost in you.
BUT!!!
I want to wipe my tears now. Not for you, but for me.
I want to tend my wounds now. Not for you, but for me.
I want to smile now. Not for you, but just ALL for me.
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I WANT TO FIGHT BACK NOW! FOR ME!!
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I hugged my body tighter to comfort my trembling heart.
He's here. He whom my heart admires and my soul fears! His footsteps approach towards me and I know it by the sound through the horrible darkness.
His sight frightens me but my heart still beats for him.. Can't I just die with such a hopeless state?
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: Tsk. Look at you. How miserable you look. *scoffs*
Tears beamed in my eyes with his harsh grip on my jaw. My wounds so physical and so mental. His disdainful and hateful eyes bore into my soul.
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: Just leave me... Let me leave... *cries out in sorrow*
I don't want to love you now. I want to be selfish. I want to choose myself above my hopeless love for you!
His eyes turned a shade of red in anger as I could see his face twist in an expression I fear, through the dim light of yellow bulb above our heads.
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: You want to leave?!😡 When I begged you to just get lost from my happy life, you chose to just destroy it. Why?! Why can't I destroy you now just like you did to my dreams and my love?!😡😡
Oh dear. Can I hate myself? Yes, I do. I hate my past self to choose to love this man! This man who is gone so blind in love of a married woman! This man who blames his miseries on me! This man who is now all successful because of me but in his eyes I am definitely nothing but a trash.
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: You are such an idiot, Kook. *laughs a little*
I might as well just speak my heart out today. Better be brave before death knocks at my door!
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: You are no one to call me Kook, you wench!😡
A tight slap landed on my pale skin. It stings but it doesn't pain now. I feel so numb from my heart and body.....
Hmm..it feels good now.
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: So blind are you, "husband".
He hates the title of our relationship and I used to cherish it so dearly... Such a fool, I was.
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: AAHHH!
His murderous eyes bore into my face as he pulled my hair back with his fist. It stings but again it doesn't pain.
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: You better shut up.😡💢
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: *titters in disdain* Why? Truth is always bitter. Do you feel pain to hear it, "my dear husband".
My soul feels so light. So light and chain free to see your pained eyes. I longed for your love but got buried in grave of griefs. You should also feel remorse with me! Ain't I in such a state because of you?
My dear husband...
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: If you don't want to die, you better shut your filthy mouth.😡💢 *pulls Tae's hair harsher*
But this time a laugh left my throat instead of a painful mõan.
Satisfying~
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: Loving you was my biggest mistake! You know what? You don't deserve anyone's love! You pathetic-
Again a slap is what I earned. Does this man has nothing but to show me his strength? Such a coward and a disgrace of a man!
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: Oh dear, I pity you... *smiles mockingly*
I know the look on his face. It's like he sees a stranger now. The Taehyung he knew would bent on his knees just at his one order, zip his mouth at his one glare and endure every hit for his satisfaction. But I am not my old self. He's dead. The one who loves Jungkook is dead.
The new me is selfish. The new me wants to fight back. The new me doesn't want to be hopeless. The new me doesn't want to die at his mercy!!!
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: Kim Taehyung, I warning you...😡
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: What's there for me to lose? Are you going to kill me? Please do. I would love to see you rot in a cell after my death. *laughs*
His twisted face delights me.
Just why did I never chose to fight back till today? I will at least die in happiness!
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: *scoffs* You will die and eventually by my hands only. In this golden cage of yours.
He left my hair and stood up. His hate beaming in his beautiful Bambi eyes which I 'was' in love with but now I don't feel hurt by it. I am happy that my heart is numb for him now. It beats not for him but for me. I am happy.
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: Hey husband! Are you going back to fondle that married b!tch of yours? *laughs*
He has an affair. From the day of our wedding, he has openly tended to that woman who is now married to some rich guy but still spreads her legs for him.
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: So pathetic you are, Jungkook that you even turn blind to see the true colours of that minx.
She doesn't leave that guy and she doesn't leave him. But this Jeon Jungkook is hopeless. At least I wasn't the only one.
𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴𝗸𝗼𝗼𝗸: You better start to count your days, Kim Taehyung. And I will marry her for sure after your miserable death.
Oh Lord! He's just as pathetic as me!
𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴: *chuckles*
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