"i liked Attention, i really do like it, i mean it "
if that i really can have it,
because since i was still a child i never get true Attention from my parent.
always so lonely... feel like, has been abandoned. even i had a friend but they only see me if i was usefull for them, if not, they will act, like they dont know me, like I've been excommunicated by them.
but i never show the act called whine or crying infornt of other.
always said "im ok" with a big smile show up on my face, even i was feels hurt inside or outside i will never show it to other. always act strong like a rock that hard to break it, but' that does not mean its will never be break it, if a havy things hit that rock.
im always act like adult because for me
"a spoiled child just a weak child "
but all begin to change when i already know about what is love. and its totaly make me act like a child who whine Attention more, like an addicted person.
maybe because His attention the one who make me change to be weak and fall for him in Deeply into a lover.
I met him while I was working at the restaurant,
and he is my custemer, who always buy lunch in a date where i was working on? because everytime i see him he is looking like on a date with different girl or woman on every weekend.
i always take his order,
and he is always see me on every weeks when he had a date on with someone?
that evening.
I seat against the wall behind at the back of my workplace. with a bad feelings on it like i cant hold the tears that about to fall out, so i was crying let it all out that was because i dont think someone was there. and.. "by the way who will actualy be here in a place where is dark and dirty beside i'm so close with a rubbish bin," that what i think that time.
back to what make me cry? its because I got a phone call from my boyfriend and he ask me for a break up ? just because he wanna date other girls without rumos, that is why he need a status single man, just for that him can freely date everywoman without no worries that someone will see them in a date, "hah! what a jerk, and because i'm the one who always act strong cuz of my big ego that i dont like to look weak infornt of other, that is why this whole time i never whine before, so yeah of course i will said "yes" without thinking twice because i think this is for the best.
and that what is i think that time.
and because dont notice Someone was there smoking? so i cry out loud until my last tears drop, and while i was crying someone gave me his handkerchief. and because I was in a mood unconsciously picked it up and wiped my nose. *and (dirty scene) show up right on time when he give me a handkerchief.
after a minute passes i realize immediately "what? how i get this! omg is someone there this whole time seeing me crying like this ugly!? oh no!!! who give me this!?" a hard thinking for moment and rush checking around with shock and panic but i dont see anyone around and cant find no one is there?
after that I felt so unwell thinking to much make me Headache plus with my eyes become swollen and body start to feel sick, so I asked for half a day off from work, that day after saying that I rush took off the uniform walking towards the door, and inadvertently our gazes met i'm with that playboy!? and he totaly weird cuz he smiled at me. and its make me feel embrassing so i threw my face away act like did not see it that coming.
that because i dont know the handkerchief was his.
when I got home I rush jumped into bed with spread my hands over my face and i was lost taught for moment a while, so when i remember back that handkerchief I took it out from my pocket, and suddenly in the handkerchief i notice there was a name already wrote in it,
and its s. yohan.
for moment i see that name i want to meet him and say thank you for this, its really helping me a lot yeah of course and ask him to forget what happen on that day Because its so embrassing.
my name was mayra 26 year old. living with 2 poeple in family, and that one is my little brother and second is my mom,
even i live with family but my home always be so quietly yeah maybe because everyone is busy to spend time together well i dont care to much.. Because i'm busy person too.
and, right now no one is home yet.
my mom is working she will be back late not just for today but she is always be back late at home almost everyday, and for my little Brother momo 10year old, he still in middle school student he always spend more time with friends than family, this is why the reason i always be home late because the house always be empty, so i make myself busy to avoid it, and just only for today i'm back home in half of hour my working days. so its become totaly super lonely in the empty house alone.
and for my boyfriend, should i called him ex?
by the way i date him when i was at my age 22, and now he is 31 year old man his name yuji, i date him for 4 year in anniversary in Reletionship as couple. he is a business man at the big company and we meet on blind date.
even we are already in Reletionship for 4 year i never miss him even if he is not here with me, and i never show the act like a girl use to be infornt of him. but even i was like that, he is still very like me very much in 4 year we are together, that is why we're totaly looking like adult couple, Because we are never whining to each other and always support each other, with that reason too why poeple think like we had a perfect Reletionship as a couple.
and why is the reason i cry today?
maybe because its hurt sometime with a words called goodbye and i hated to heard it, i think if he does not say it out by his phone call its better, why dont he just send me a msg? why should he call me if he only want to tell me that harsh hurting word.
and he even dont want to meet me by his own self say it to my face that he want to break up, so maybe i will not so hurt to heard it and maybe i still can hug him for the last time as a goodbye too.
that is what i think a perfect break up is.
ohh well, feeling of human always out of control.
with hard thinking i was space out and sleeping without knowing myself was sleeping. and suddenly i heard a sound that make me wake up
*a noisy sound from outside.
I went out, to check it out what happen.
when i start open the door suddenly we meet eyes contact with each other.
"ohh 😳"
"ahh 😳! are you are living here? "
" .... "
"こにちわ (Konichiwa) i'm yohan 24 year old and i will be your neighbor starting by tomorrrow.
よろしくはじめまして (yoroshiku hajimemashite ) 😊✨ "
" ? "
" 😕? ohhh, sorry... what i mean is nice to meet you im from japan I'm not fluent in the language here. Please cooperate it.😊✨ "
😕....?
after frowning my face I was immediately rush to close the door without talking back to him,
i'm inside standing behind the door.
*whisper to my ownself.
"what a bad day today, i'm in nightmare? please~ please Please !!! i want to wake up right now ~ (while pinching a cheek)
why should he's move in here, he's not a kindness person can be my neighbor a super playboy is my neighbor? nonono! what if the person who goes on a date with him and he brought home,
That's a bad example if my little brother seeing him with a different girl every week? omg! i can't imagine it, he is super annoying neighbor i ever meet😵ahhh i dont want to meet him in my everyday life, he is so annoying annoying annoying ! i hate him! 😤"
.....
the next day.
at the dining table.
"morning mayra darlings are yours up already? just go get shower first and then eat, i cook your favorite meal. dont you miss it, ohh i heard Yesterday you come home half day from work, why, Are you sick? "
"no mom, i just had bad day maybe because of the hot weather my head feel a bit dizzy "
"ohh.. dont forget to drink much water at work ok. "
"ok mom, "
"just go get shower. "
"ok, "
on the way to the bathroom, suddenly momo open the door his room and ask me.
"sis Our neighbor's house has just moved in right?who ? is he with family ? or single? a man? or women? is he married yet? tell me tell me, i know you see it because Yesterday you are half day at home. "
" ahh! 😑?? you ask to much, but sorry i dont understand? maybe better you go ask yourself at him i think he can answer for you."
"ohhh so he is a guy!? "
"😑hm....! Whatever, i wanna go get shower dont disturb me! "
........
after finished eating, i when to a door and open it because i need to be hurry to go for work with reason i dont want to meet him, but at the same time he is opened the door of the house too, and our eyes met, he is also looking like he wanted to go work too? suddenly he smile at me and said.
"ohhh hi, おはよう 😊✨ "
"😑 whisper (hmp! he is ruin my mood!) "
"?? ohh sorry i dont know how to say おはよう in your language ? "
" its Morning now, i think that what you said. its good morning? 😑 i watch many japan drama say like you said it now, you must be saying (ohayo) right? "
"ohh wow! at least now you talk to me. im so happy you always hold you voice infornt of me its hard to hear you voice. 😊✨"
"hm. 😑 why do i talk to you!? "
and I rush walked on and left him behind, with his smile annoying me. 😒
......
after returning from work at 11 pm.
while walking in limply mood, because i'm so tired, that everywalk i take feel so havy and every step i take like its wont move.
and he suddenly came out throwing trash.
"ohh! 😲 are you always be back at time like this? its dangerous for a girl did you always be like this no one pick you up? "
" what your problem? i'm not a kid i'm already 26 year old everyone at my age is already getting married by now. so why should someone pick me up and protect me? that i can protect my ownself. so dont worry i'm find its does not dangerous at all i'm always be back at this hour, so good night i'm not in a mood talking right now sorry"
I kept walking and he, who looked at me with a worried look and said.
"おやすみなさい (Oyasuminasai) "
......
the next morning at 9am morning in holiday.
I got up from the mattress after raising my two hands and yawning.
"what a beautiful day being single 😊✨"
and i walk to the window and open it, all of a sudden I saw yohan who was watering the flowers.
*whispered thoughts.
"ohh wow! looks like he's a hard worker man too? but why does he not on a date today? is not he's every weekend always going out with a different girls i saw it, hmp! what a weird guy, well its non of my business, and.... my shift day of today, so i will take a good... nice break today ~ 😊✨🎶"
.....
after a few hour later.
"morning momo"
"morning sis"
"where is mom? "
"ohh she talk with our neighbor at outside. "
"oh? really? what was mom talking about with that playboy?"
"ohh.. you a wake already? what a surprise that you already take a shower? is not every holiday you are the one who is always so lazy. "
"mom! "
"come in yohan, do as when you're at home. come and sit here today we gonna eat together Because i cooked so many dish today and as my thank you for you because you cleaned the yard, that make me so happy to cooked for you i wish you were my son, you do such a good job! Because i'm always so busy with the work until i have no time for do it homework and my son and dauther is super lazy when they're at home you know, 😊✨"
"welcome aunty i was so happy too, to do it. by the way this smell of the dish make me reminder of my parent, my mom use to love cook so much, she cooked me every day with so many dish until i cant eat it all because to many. i miss that moment. "
"ohh really? glad to know that, You can think of me as your mother. and by the way where is your parent right now? "
"oh, they're in japan, actualy the fact that I came here to study.My parents was from there so i was grow up there even I was born from here, and because I already grew up in Japan for so long, so i traveling back here alone and i really like this place i really do, Because i meet aunty and mayra here. "
"wow it's a very difficult for you. but you are strong. even away from your parents and traveling alone with young age like you it's just so proud you know,"
"yeah thank you. 😊✨ actualy thanks to my friends they're helping me a lot when i'm in truble. "
"ohh your so lucky to have a friends like that 😊✨ and by the way mayra, why you are so silent today? is not you always argue with you little Brother like a cat and dog. "
"mom! why you say like that! you ruin my mood. "
"what mood hah?! yohan you know my dauther mayra is actualy super super lazy person when she at home she know just how to work but never do what called a homework. "
"hmp! mom you talking bad about me infornt of me and i'm not lazy ok, 😐"
"😊✨ its ok, aunty. maybe she is not Lazy i see her at workplace she do so much work maybe she is just tired after doing so much work."
"ohh, really did you see her at work? since when you know each other? "
"maybe a few month? i always eat with friends at her restaurant."
"oh really "
"hmp! 😒"
dingdong 🎵 the door bell ring...
because of my reflex i was standing up from my seat and saying:
" let me open that door, because i'm already finished eating. "
with a cynical smile on him, and i walk to open the door. how surprised I am to see who is came was yuji! his attitude like nothing is happened by this whole week that Reality we're already break up,
so i act cold infornt of him.
"what bring you here? 😒"
"ha? of course to see you 😊✨"
"for what? to see that after break up i will cry until my eyes were swollen? "
"no! no, i did not mean like that, we're still friend even we already break up, and aunt call me to came over. i still can meet aunt and momo right?"
"😑..."
........
meanwhile in the dining room.
"aunty i really need to go, Because there's something that i need to do by today? "
"oh' ok, thanks for Washing the dish you're really helping our family today. remember that your always welcoming here, so You can stop by anytime you want and we can eat together again like this, because you're like my son to me. "
"thanks aunty. "
.......
"oh! who are you? where's aunt?"
"she at dinning room"
"and who are you? Because i dont see you before?"
"he's my new boyfriend!"
Mayra quickly approached yohan and held his arm infornt of yuji.
"oh! are you kidding? why are you moving so fast We've only been breaking up in a few days ago and before this we're stay couple for 4 year you know it, it's not a short time? "
"why? i cant? "
"no i did not mean like that, "
"so why? you wanna go back like before after you dumped me ? you think you can take back the trash that has been thrown away by yourself ego? you know after your asking me break up i already dont have any felling on you. "
mom came in middle of the fight.
"ohh, yuji you're came 😀✨"
"ahh' yes aunt. i miss you so much 😌✨"
"hahaha we're only meet by week ago that fast that you miss me? i'm glad your coming but you're to late we already had lunch together. "
"oh, its ok aunt anytime can be for that, and by tge way this is flowers for you, my beautiful aunt. "
"thank you 😊✨ you're so kind."
and they ignored both of us 😒.
"erm.. 大丈夫ですか? (daijobudesuka?)"
"hm.. of course i'm ok, i donr really in love with him before just couple when we need each other and before we're couple i actualy already know yuji since we're kids and its totaly ok, even once break up that cant infected our family friendship. "
"why your ask? "
"because you said i was your boyfriend? "
"what? did you think i mean it?"
"no of course i know you say as a joke to make him realize how important you're? "
"😌i know you're smart, Because you're always date a different girls, "
"what!? me? "
"you think who was i talking about 😒"
"You have misunderstood i'm not playboy? i just go, Because my friend set me up, because I was never attracted to women so he remembered that I liked the same -sex so out of fear he told me to date. but none of which I was attracted to in this blind date? Because what i want to find it is not only girls but love? i wanna feel what's love? "
"wow did you never fall in love before? "
"yes"
he answer with a blushing face.
"sorry 😐"
"for what? "
"because of a misunderstanding? "
"oh, its fine. "
and suddenly the atmosphere became so awkward and I started laughing for no reason and so his following me too with laughing for no reason until its become so real laughing, and yuji who peek me inside the window seeing a smile that was hard to see that make him realize a different when i was with him so he started to feel regretted his decision to break up with me, and begin from that moment he started to understand what's love. that feeling came because of feeling jealoussy that he feel right now and make him realize its already to late, but he has rounded up his determination to start all over again by zero to make me fall inlove in real with him. and this is just the beginning of the story of the three of us begin.
......
after a week later.
after work.
"bye bye all friends see you tomorrrow 👋😀"
"yeah see you tomorrrow, take care"
"sure"
the car horn yuji suddenly open the train window and said.
"mayra come in"
and i replying back.
"no.. thanks"
even i already said that he still following me around. and Because i'm so embrassing that every people look at me, so i decide to come in into his car and with awkward between us he said.
"wanna go dinner? "
"....."
"are you still angry?"
"....."
"you know i just dont mean it what i said that day"
he said with a sadness face, and i still silent.
"actualy that time i was a bit crazy cause i'm drunk"
"so why you tell me now? "
"because you been so far to me? "
"so what you want? "
"let start be like back then?"
"you know i need a time to be your friend"
"i know but i still wanna be you friend "
he said.
.......
when we already arrive at restaurant he suddenly open to me the door and held out his hand on me.
"thanks "
"😊✨"
"why you take me to a restaurant this fancy? "
"Because yiur my special friend 😊✨"
"😒..."
"😊✨"
.......
in the episode when he is with mayra's mother.
"aunt did you already know, me and mayra that's right now we already break up? actualy i did not mean it to say it, because mayra never see me and she is so cold to evertime we are on a date sometime make me ask myself why? is she not like me or what? so then why she date me? and i got so drunk that time make me half crazy by saying those words. why should i do aunt? "
"you know yuji, aunt's daughter is not like other else girl's daughters. probably because his father died so quickly when she was still a baby, and i use to have working really hard as a single mother until i meet momo's dad who had a bad temper, and you know her she never like her stepfather. until aunty separated because aunty found out he was having an affair. when aunty realizes that aunty already abandoned mayra and now we felt so distant from each other. and for thaf aunty want you take Attention more to mayra if you like her. "
"......🙁🙂i will do my best"
"thank you yuji aunty know you're really like my dauther so much because i watch you this whole time and aunty you'll take good care for her. 😊✨"
.......
back to present.
whisper in the heart.
"what's wrong with yuji, who suddenly invites to this fancy restaurant. and smiled creepy like that?"
we both turn into silent for moment lost words to say and its totaly became awkward between us just smiling at each other like creepy person. and its on and on until we finish, at go back in a cars yuji start to talk to me.
"how is the food? taste good? "
"ohh yeah its good taste, but a little Weird maybe because of the meager food, I couldn't be satisfied but it totaly tasted good. thanks "
"you're welcome 😊✨"
......
when we arrived, at home.
"mayra can we go out again next week?"
"sure i'll see you in next weekend "
"yes! greats,"
"bye 👋"
and just like that he goes away and suddenly yohan sat on the bench in front of his house seeing me waving to yuji and suddenly changed when yuji already really left.
*shocked!.
"what's your doing here?! "
"this is my house of course i do whatever i like it, that i'm sitting here, sleep or drunk i do whatever i'm pleased. what's up with your face that suddenly change? is not you said right now i'm your boyfriend? and now you're going out with him? "
"i'm going out Because he's still my best friend, and what i say to you that day that a joke dont be so seriuse that will break your heart. 😌 Because i dont mean it what i said. "
"i know i dont hope too"
"ohh really!? ✨😊😏 that good to hear it. "
"yeah i know want some? "
"i'm not in mood to getting drunk right now. "
"i know just drink a little and see the Star tonight the Star look so Bright dont you think so beautiful ? i like seeing it. "
".... ?"
I began to approach it him and took the drink in his hand and our hands sunddely a little touched to each other hand when i take the drink. and the situation became so awkward. I sat and looked up in the sky seeing a star so Bright because the awkwardness made me unable to look at him and the cheerful demeanor slowly faded my heart started to beat so fast as if it want to go out.
"......🙁"
".....🙂 "
"do you miss your parents?"
*whisper inside my head.
"ahhh what am i saying! i should not talk like that! why i bring it up he must be so sad when i ask that, of course who does not miss they're parent if they far away and more when in empty house that feeling a lonely make we miss our parent more."
"sorry"
"why? you're sorry? you not do wrong with me?"
"Because i ask you that."
"its ok, yeah you're right, of course i miss them so much, but you know when we become adult in a busy life we running in everyday make our time fly so fast. that making us less time for family. i wonder why? when i was a little, but now i understand it complately. when the holiday came i think i will see them, are you want to go with me?"
"where? "
"日本へ? (Nihon e?) "
"??😒 nihon? "
"yes to my parent hometown. "
"ohh you mean to follow you to japanese?"
"yes! ☺"
"for what? I'm not your girlfriend or fiancé? what will your mom think about me if i go there? are you kidding me! "
"what do you mean? is not we friend? "
"yes we're absolutely friend but meeting your parent its mean more than friendship to your parent mind, they will think i'm your girlfriend or something? "
"if that what you mean will you be my girlfriend then? if i can i will marrying you."
"what! 😏nice joke but i'm not in it, if this joke already finish then good night i had work by tomorrrow i need a rest and so you too. "
".....😶? 🙂おやすみなさい! (Oyasuminasai!) with a loud saying 👋 "
......
when after closing the bedroom door and jumping into the bed while turning around with a blushing face and a racing heart.
*whisper.
"ahhh~ why he sunddely say like that! totaly playboy with no shame. ask me to be his girlfriend just like that? he think i will accept it? sorry i will not, i'll not, and not forever! "
........
the next morning in Valentine's Day.
*the clock ringing in the morning its 8am.
riiiiing!!! ....
i'm in half of a wake i'm refleks, and my hand start nudges the clock chimes. after that i sat up and rubbed my eyes while yawning.
"ah! the day i hate is coming"
the first words come off from my mouth and i look it at the phone, i notice.
"a missed call? from who? ha' its yuji? why he's calling me in the morning ? what a Weird, he's totaly changing being like this after our break up that day, i notice because he put so many Attention on me why he's being so weird ?
when I look at the phone and notice it, it's already late 30 minute wow its so fast! Because now it's already 8:30am and with a rush i'm running to bathroom i said it,
"omg! i'm really to late! boss will get angry on me, and what if he cut my salary its not fair why should i forgot today i need to open a restaurant early!?"
.......
after a few minute.
"morning mayra sweety? coming here let's eat? "
"sorry mom i'm to late that i need to go, i'm in rush so right now i cant eat with at home but i'll eat when i got theres. "
"ok, but be careful even you're in rush sweety."
"ok, mom. 👋"
"おはよう (ohayo) 😊✨ "
"morning too yohan, ☺ erm.. sorry i'm in rush to buss stop because if i'm late at to be there i'll be late at workplace so bye~ 👋"
"待って! (matte!) ✋! can i take you there? お願い (onegai) 🙏"
"😶hm... 🙂 ok. "
........
when I'm in his car.
*awkward.
on the way we both just kept quiet with each other until We arrived.
"you want me to pick you up? "
"No thanks but i'm good, i can go back by myself. "
"but i had nothing to do? "
"...😕😐😑 then ok. "
"nice 😁😊✨ i'll see you later. "
"ok, bye ~ 👋"
"ohh~ wow! is that your new boyfriend? "
"No manji. he's my neighbor his helping me. to take a ride together that all. are you forget that i'm just broke up with yuji? how can i be so fast to move on? and what will poeple think?"
"you know for me i dont care yohan look so handsome by the way if he's not your boyfriend than Introduce him to me. i can go blind that with him if you dont mind? 😁"
"manji enough joking around i dont know he's already had girlfriend or not he just date many girl at our restaurant are you not see him here every weekend? he always sit right there."
"ohh. maybe his friend just ask him to go. and i see him, he always sit over there, but you know, i never see how he's looking at you into the eyes its look like he like you? "
"hmp'! liar! "
"NO! 😂 i'm seriuse!"
"then why are you laughing? "
"seeing your face so funny 😁"
bla bla bla ~ *hugging while talking.
.........
manji mikoto 25 year old she is my bestfreind at my workplace i meet her since i was working here, she is someone so cheerful in everyday and she's love smiling to everyone she see or meet, and she's always had by myside light up my mood and always listening to my story, she know everything happen around me and she is always so kind to me even i was a bit cold to her she still accepted me as a bestfreind for her.
.......
*the phone is ringing, yuji's calling.
"hello "
"hello mayra, i wanted to tell you that today i'll pick you up after work. "
"why? "
"to welcome a special day."
"what is special day? "
"I will get a sponsor from abroad to promote my business so they invited me to abroad for a month after i finish it later I will give you a gift when I comeback and if you still waiting for me to come as a special person and welcoming me back maybe I'll bring a big surprise."
"ohh really congrats, i'm happy for you. "
"you know mayra, you're the most important person for me in my life. we grow up together and see each other my felling for you always the same. "
"yeah i know, i'll wait. "
"ok. see you theres! "
........
out of the blue i remember yohan this Morning when he helped to send me here. he said.
"i'll take you home after wait for me ok. "
"No i can go back by my own. "
"i see you everyday you always be back late. and its dangerous walking alone. "
"i said No! ok bye, i'm late 👋"
mind talking.
i dont know if he can take my words seriusly i said No so he will not come.
and that what i think but i'm wrong he really not take my words seriusly.
.......
after work.
"hye mayra you wanna go back? "
"yeah, "
"with who? "
"dont know yet manji yuji said, he want to pick me up and i still waiting for him. "
"oh, so you'll go back with him and not yohan? "
"why are you bring him up? "
"yeah, Because i look you two so close with each other like couple? "
"what? we're not close manji, we're just neighbor and nothing else? "
"yeah Because i think like that, i know yuji just your friend right now and nothing more than? "
"i think i'm not ready for relationship right now "
"as you wish mayra because i just wish for you happyness only and always sporting you like i always do mayra. "
"thanks manji you're really a good friend for me. "
" i'll always be your Goodfriend if i can i wanted to be yours little sister oneday. well, 😊✨ ok. then see you by tomorrrow bye~ mayra unnie 👋"
"sure, bye~ manji 👋😊"
........
standing behind the road at buss stop with feeling so dizy like i'll get sick soon, when sunddely i fainted. poeple at buss stop rush helping me by calling someone who is on the phone. and mom rush seeing me at hospital when she hear it, and yohan was the one who helping my mom seeing me at hospital so he's following mom seeing me. and when i woke up seeing mom crying next to me. and yohan is face looking so worry.
"are you okay sweety, why are you being fainted? i was so worry sick of you when i got a calls from someone that i dont know who? and said that you're in the hospital Because of fainted? "
mom say it, while crying with so worry something bad will happen to me.
"i'm ok, mom i just forgot to eat. "
i said back with smile on my face.
and yohan was standing so quietly seeing me and my mom was talking. and doctor came in. said.
"are you already wake up? 🙂 you're fainted Because of tired and not eating on time. i'll give you vitamin and you can go back after this, "
"thank you doctor. "
.......
while that before. yuji came over at the buss stop but i was not there anymore so he's calling me many time but no one is answer, so he goes to my house but there is no one at home, so he goes to a dinner party without me, and he become a bit sad right there, until his in drunk came over at my place and waiting me infornt of my house in his car while calling me that my phone already out of battery and he's half crying Because of drunk, while he seeing me out on yohan is car he rush welcoming me and notice i'm in a weak state that yohan helping me held my arm carrying me out of his car.
"mayra! what wrong? are you sick? i goes theres but you are not there anymore when i arrived ? i'm waiting for you because i call you but you not answer, tomorrrow is my flight i was worry sick about you, where's your phone? i call you so many time but you're not answering me? i need to talk to you can we talk please its important. "
"ok, "
i said, mom and yohan going in at my house and leaving both of us alone talking with each other.
........
"so? what you want to talk about? "
"mayra, i cant live without you. you know i really did not mean to ask you break up that day i was drunk that i dont know what i'm talking about. "
"but you're drunk right now too? "
"yes but today i think for twice and this is what came from bottom of my heart i really love you. "
"but right now i'm not ready for Relationship ?"
"you dont need to answer me right now, wait when i get back here in a month then you'll answering me that day and i'll accept every decision you make. "
"if that what you ask ok, let meet again when you're back and i'll answer you right on that day. "
"can i hunging you? "
"sure"
"i love you"
"i know "
we hugged as goodbye for a month will not see each other and its become a bit sad to see him off, even i act strong by outside actualy its hurt on the inside like i dont want him to go even its just for a month or a week, because we always be together this whole time, my mind keep telling is he felling what i feel? that is why i hate for his Attention give to me, because its feel so empty and lonely if he's not around, and that make my heart broken but i cant stop him i really cant,
.........
*knock knock.
"mayra sweety are you sleeping already? "
"no, not yet mom. why? "
"can i come in? "
"sure. "
"what's up dear? You look a bit sad from earlier? Mom already asked for absent from your boss for a week you have to rest at home understand."
"yes mom. "
"Good then, good night mayra sweety, have a Sweet dream and i love you always you know that. "
"wait, mom. "
"hm? "
"can i ask you something? "
"sure"
"will the person forget us when he is far? "
"why are you ask like that? of course not if he love you but if he not he will change when he get back, are you asking about yuji? "
"......."
"mayra sweety you know him for a long time and you know him better than i do, and what i see about yuji he'll not easy to forget you Because you two like family? "
"like family? "
"yes dear sweety you see, if we Grow by seeing each other growing up we can know how his act by the time changing us everyday and that the reason make us understand each other more by the time being, so in that way we can stay more longer than wife and husband can do? its more like a family like brother and sister, but if you do love him then its depend on each other is felling, and here is the trust playing a big part on you, so why dont you try to be honest to your felling and tell him, what you feel when you already know what's inside your heart the answer is in front of you leading you to the path of love you desire."
"i see, thank you mom for telling me this you're really helping me a lot right now and i'm sorry for giving you a truble today i dont know i'll be like this i really enjoy myself while working until i dont realize that i forgot eating or take a good rest. "
"welcome dear sweety you're never giving me truble you always be the best for me my dauther but please dont do like this anymore please take care of yourself more i know you're workaholic enjoy your work more than anything but if you sick you cant enjoy that work again. alright sweety? 😊✨"
"yes mom. "
...........
on the next morning.
after waking up I hurried to the bathroom while yawning, and after showering and wearing a pretty dress i go get the phone and notice a msg from yuji so i text him back said " good morning" and suddenly he calls me.
"good morning my beautiful."
"morning yuji what's you doing know? "
"i want to go for meeting but another half hour."
"oh, good luck. "
"thanks what are you doing? "
"i wanna go out,"
"with who? "
"alone? "
"can you take me your picture? Because i'm so miss you that if i can i wanted to go back right now! but It's only been a day in here how can i ? T~T "
"ok, give me a minutes, i need to turn off the phone to take good picture."
"hm~ well, ok then. "
i rush to the mirror fix it my hair and looking back to the mirror as if i was ready to take a picture.
*click! 💥 the light flash on me.
(sending)
he smiles when he sees my picture.
his calls.
"pretty"
he said.
I'm glad to hear that (blushing)
"oh yeah? "
i said back.
"yeah really, "
bla bla bla ~
we chatted for a long time together.
..........
after a few hours.
I sat in the yard drinking cold water.
"ah what a Beautiful day 😊✨"
suddenly mom called asking me to give a food for yohan, so I went to his house and knocking his door but no one is answering so I knocked on and on until so many times, then the door finaly open, when yohan open tge door he look realy sick.
"are you sick? "
i ask.
"mom give this to you"
"thanks"
he said, and suddenly his passes out after he put the food on the table, i rush to look at him and his body was really hot that make me panic so i try to pull him onto his mattress, and rushed to the fridge looking for ice squeeze it with a small towel on his forehead in several times until the fever is less so to check it out, I had to put my hand on his forehead that first time i'm blushing when i start looking at him with closely i notice he has long bouncy eyelashes all of a sudden my heart was beating fast when his start wake up I was misbehaving for a while and when i notice it that he still in the unconscious i was embarrassing for my ownself after a few hours I fell asleep while treating him until evening rise, and mom calling me.
the phone ring...
I woke up unconsciously pick up the phone.
"hello~"
with sleepy voice.
"mayra where are you? its already 7pm dont be back late you need to take care of yourself dont forgot dinner at home? "
"yes mom, but i'm with yohan right now? "
"why? what wrong? "
"yohan get a fever he had no one beside him right now so i decide to take care of him? "
"oh i'm proud of you good its good! that is my dauther i know you never leave someone's sick, "
"mom, what are you talking about? i know you just care about yohan Because he do Everything you say dont act like i dont know 😑 "
"no no, its nothing like that sweety i'm just proud of you that's all, don't forget to make hot rice porridge for him that can make his faver down a little bit"
"hm i will, erm' mom i think i'll call you back after Everything done here. "
"oh, ok ok, sweety dont forget of yourself, remember you're still a sick person too. ?"
"ok mom. "
after i said that, i hung up the phone my eyes sunddenly move to looked at yohan who is again unconscious with silently i standing in front of the living room is door "pensive....." and "sighed" for a moment and rushed it to the kitchen making him a hot rice porridge.
.......
after i cook the hot rice porridge and exchange the ice squeeze on his head and seeing him still be in unconscious I took a spoonful of hot rice porridge and blew it slowly after that i helped him to get up a little bit and feed him, Because its took my time in one day to look after him, I was being so tired maybe Because i dont sleeping a whole night its Because i changing the ice on his head for many time to make his faver's low and its made me fall into asleep beside him bed without realizing it.
.........
at 9am morning.
when yohan start to wake up.
"erm~ " (with feeling dizzy) his hand is holding his head as he just woke up because of fever yesterday make him a little bit feeling dizzy.
"what happen?~" (said in a small tone)
all of a sudden he saw Mayra who was sleeping next to him and his hand approached mayra's hair and caressed it with a smile he said.
"ありがとね〜 (arigato ne~) " with the eyes someone who's already fall in love.
sunddenly he got up and took his blanket covered mayra who's still sleeping deeply Because of tired last night take care of yohan.
.........
11am.
mayra wake up and notice it yohan is already wake up before her and when she go look around to see yohan sunddenly she seeing yohan was already cook many dish for her.
*surprise.
"what the, are you cooking this all? "
"はい (hai) 😀 食べましょう？ (tabemashou?) "
he opened the chair for me.
.......
I sat down and tasted it.
"wow! 👍"
i said it.
he just smile happy on me sunddenly i notice this is the first time that i eat what his cooked for me.
and my face become blushing out of nowhere.
.........
"are you really ok? "
i said before going home.
"yes thanks a lot. "
"okay then, see you. "
"bye 😊✨"
he said with a bright smile on me.
.........
when i got home, mom and momo already stand infornt of the door waiting for me with a big smile.
" how is it? are have a good time? "
"😑 mom nothing happen what are you talking about? i just take care sick person that all? "
"momo and mom like brother yohan wishing sis will marrying him oneday so we can be family so if he sick again sis will come take care of him. beside he does not have anyone right? "
"i'm not marrying him! i was still love yuji, "
"lying? sis actualy like yohan too right momo can see it in the eyes dont like with us sis. "
"stop it! i'm tired i'll go get shower then take a sleep. its only been a week yuji going there and how can i change my heart so easly? "
after said that, while walking to the room i jumped into a bed. that time i was can feel, we both can feel it, actualy we're begin to start liking each other as lover but why we always lie to ourself.
........
yohan who's laying on the bed seeing to the window the bright light sun tell him, that he start to know what he feel with mayra.
*smiling remind of mayra sleeping next to him.
he out his hand on the head and said to himself.
"why? my heart. you're begin out of control right now? is it someone that care for you? are you already fall in love? but you're wrong, you fall to someone you cannot fall for, listen, you cant fall in love with someone who is have someone else that she love you will get hurt if you do "
he said to himself with a sad face.
.......
6pm.
📳 riing...
with sleepy i answer it,
"hello~"
"hello mayra ✨"
"yujj! "
"are you still sleeping? "
"yeah i'm sick, so i take day off to rest. "
"oh, i see. well then i'll call you back later, so take a good rest dont overwork if you feel tired take rest ok. i just call to check it how are you been i was worry? and my worry become true that make me sacred to think about it"
"okay then, "
"bye. "
"bye too"
.........
"mayra please buy eggs and vegetables i forgot to buy just now Because i wanted to make a dinner its almost time and called yohan too here, to have dinner together with us ok. "
"ok, mom. 😑"
.........
at market i meet rina.
"hey mayra? are you ok now? "
"still a bit sick 😒"
"oh, get well soon ok. right now i'm the one who exchange with your work. but without you is not the same you know you're cheerfuly person. 😊✨"
"hope so too i will recover fast."
"what you buying? "
"just egg and mustard leaf? "
"oh are you cook all this? "
"no my mom? "
"oh you mom? why not you? i know you cooked is the best i had taste it before? "
"my mom nit let me in kitchen because she love cook so much. "
"when when can I taste your mother's cooking? "
"sure why not? you're welcoming at my house you know my mom love doing that she always Invite people next door, eat together 😑"
"oh😮, who? is it a guy? ✨"
"if you come you will see, "
"sure, but to bad i must go back to exchange your work its almost time so i will see you soon. "
"ok. 😒"
"bye! 😊✨"
"hm.. bye 😒"
I saw a delicious cake 🍰✨
"how much is this? "
"bla bla bla"
"going back home with 2cake in my hand? what's happened to me Am I infected with a crazy virus after taking care of yohan? why do i buy two cake? is that so one i can give to yohan? why should i care so much about him if he dont eat any food and fall sick that non of my business!? 😤"
i'm talking to my ownself in the way back home.
........
all of a sudden I was at the door of yohan's house.
😐 *knocking the door.
yohan opened the door while surprised to see me who came suddenly handed out cake.
*mayra blushing
"th. thi. this is for you 😣 "
*handed the cake.
when yohan with a smile took the cake and i heard a woman's voice.
"yohan who is coming? "
"neighbour from next door. 😊"
when our eyes meet i can feel she like yohan.
*came holding yohan's arm.
"oh, hello 🙂 "
she said.
"hello. 😅 "
"Introduce this mayra, and this is yumiko she is friend from group study. "
*bow in respect both of us.
"sorry for sistrubing you're study, then i'll just go back Because i came just for sending msg from mom that she told me to bring you this cake, and said to tell you dinner at our house that you must came Because she already cook to much. "
"oh sure i will come over after this, but right Now I need to give some documents to Yumiko first. "
"well ok then. "
*bow and go.
........
after mayra gone.
"is not she's girlfriend of yuji? "
"oh you know yuji that bastrad 😡 "
"wow! 😅 you look angry? i never see yohan's angry for a year, are you like her or Something? "
"no, not like that we just friend beside she is my neigbour next door and i always see her crying Because of that bastrad that all, "
"that's great if like that, i'm a bit sad if you like her you know that i already like you for year? "
"yumiko stop it, i dont have any feeling on you and you know it? i'm here just for study after that i will go back to my hometown in japan. "
"but you know too i'm from there to? that we have the same townhome? "
"i'm sorry? "
"😔🙂 its ok, "
"😊 i know you'll fine someone better than me. "
.......
mayra at home.
"what!? 🙄😩 she's yumiko from study group bla bla ~ (mocking) stupid yohan! i never ask. hmp! "
"sis why are you being half crazy? 😆 mom is ready to cook quickly to the kitchen give the groceries earlier ordered i'll standby for dinner table. "
"hmp! 😤 (walking through)
"hey why are you angry on me 😕 what wrong with you? weird! i have half crazy big sister. "
.........
at kitchen.
"oh, you're back, why are you being so late? where's your going? are You already bought the stuff that i told you to buy it, ? "
"......😑 "
*put groceries on the table and walk straight to the room without answering.
"momo why's your sister in a badmood? what wrong? did you two fight again? "
"no mom, sis always being like that? 😌"
"hm? 😕"
........
mayra who was lying in the bed at her room looking at the roof seeing so bright light from lamp.
speak in the mind.
"why's my heart being like this, its look like i'm hurt, when the time i'm seeing them two? what wrong with me? did i really begin dont like seeing him with another woman but' why? i really dont know why? did i already fall in love with him? me? and him? nonono that will be never in my life, with that playboy who always change woman like his T-shirt?
this is a bad, i will not fall for that playboy. "
after long fight with mind speak, i decide to keep distance from him.
........
dinner time.
all fell silent at the tomb table until sunddenly yohan broke this silent by start talking to mom.
"wow! aunt cook is so delicious 😊✨ "
"really? 😊✨ aunty so happy when you say that, yohan please eat with us everyday and you should start calling me mom because i already treat you like my own child, you're kind good at studying and you are hardworking boys that aunty sometime wish momo will be like you someday."
"me too? i already treat aunt like my own mother i feel save and happy whenever i'm here spending time with momo aunt and mayra and this is was the most precious time for me, in family i was have had one brother but he's always busy same as my father only mom who at home with me until i decide to go here mom will feel so much lonely in this whole month i'm here. "
"oh i feel pity to your mother? 😢 if you had her number can you give me? that maybe sometime i can call her and talking how was you doing here? "
"sure i give to aunt after this dinner. 😊✨"
"momo like yohan too, momo wish so much that yohan is my big brother Because sis always cold whenever talking to us. "
"hey!? do you want to try to replace me momo? 😑"
"momo i dont try replace you big sister Because she is kind person just dont know how to act? "
"i guess your right yohan big bro 😌"
"😐...hmp! "
.........
after dinner.
mayra who is washing the dishes, momo who is busy with the phone, yohan who is talking to mayra's mother, for a moment he turned his gaze to mayra, who was in busy and approached her.
"you want somehelp? 😌"
"no thanks 😑✋!"
"you look angry today? did you fight with yuji? "
"no i'm not talking with him today? "
"why? "
"and why you ask? 😕 "
"just curious? "
"i'm busy go away! 😐"
"🤔 hm~ badmood. "
........
Mayra who came out to throw garbage was followed by Yohan from behind.
"do you remember? "
"what again? "
"are you angry with me? did i do some mistake? that make you super angry like this? "
"me & you, we've never been close before. 🙄 why do i angry with you? you're super weird. "
"yeah because i'm super weird we begin so close right now and In fact, you take care of me when I'm sick 😌 and i'm watching you cry next to the trash can Don't you remember where the handkerchief came from? that from me, I gave it to you, you should say thank you for me. "
"what!? 😱 were you there that day? and you the one who give it to me! 😰 "
*began to approach and pulled the collar of his shirt yohan with saying.
"hey! please, keep this as a secret 😬 dont tell anyone that day i cry for yuji Because i'm not! that day i just so tired that all, you know i never cry for a man! so please keep it save that day dont say it to anyone promise me, now! and you please forget it what happen that day and i will return you handkerchief back. "
"hm, i dont want handkerchief back you can keep it for me, but i want Something else as exchange it to you promise can you fulfill it for me? 😌✨ "
"😑 hmp! what? what you want actualy? say it! "
"really!? you mean it, 😊✨"
"say or do what ever you want you make me dont care anymore! i'll go bye! "
after I said that I walked through it in anger, and he run after me grab my hand, said.
"i just ask you please going out with me as a fake girlfriend for 1month, after one month the contract is void, can you fulfill it? "
"🤔🙂☺ ok, but its just fake right and i can make a rules for this fake Relationship right 😏 "
"what rules? "
"the 3 rules, its simple 😌 no touch, no kiss, no fall in love if you break the rules than i'll hate you forever! how is that 😏 "
"what?! than can everybody trusted? "
"who do you want to look at our fake relationship? "
"its you mom 😊"
"what!!! 😲!"
"are you kidding, mom know i like yuji how could she want to see us as a couple!😡 are you lying?"
"no! you're mistaking what i mean, its not your mom but my mom, because my mom wanted to see me here had a girlfriend, and just for one month is Because after one month i will go back to my hometown just need one month for me graduated."
"🤔hm, ok then, when we start, "
"tomorrow sunday its good for going out in date let's start by tomorrow. "
"sure ok, "
"but are you not scared if yuji found out? "
"nah, he's not here in one month and beside we are already broke up, and dont you remember why i need you to keep this as a secret because he before his going he wanted to get back, but i said, i need a little time to think about it, and its a good chance Because he decide to go work in another country so we never meet each other for moment so maybe i think after he's going back i'll be back with him Because my mom like him so much."
"oh, just for you mom like him? how about you feeling? are you still like him? "
"yes, we are already together for such along time and my feeling for him never change, but when its become in relationship we just dont know how to begin that is why we broke up that day and we learn in our mistake and we try our best to fix that mistake so we decide to try another chance so maybe after his comeback he will propose me. "
"oh" (after yohan heard that he was very sad)
.........
when yohan got home his with a slightly sad, because of badmood he think took a glass of water is the best thing to do, so he run into the kitchen. while he drinking he begin to thought so hard again and again sunddenly he's looking at himself in the mirror so he said to himself.
"It's okay, there's still time to change she's heart until that yuji's bastard going back, if I can make her like me then I'll be stay by her side forever but if I'm get rejected for a month then I'll go back to my hometown. ✊fighting! "
with confidence, embark on a mission to take the heart is first mission of yohan on sunday date with mayra, even he realize that he started with a fake relationship but he never give up to try maybe oneday mayra will fall for him because he think his still had a chance and the game just started.
