"Oh to see without my eyes

the first time that you kissed me"

As Jungkook sits here with one foot or either sides of the ledge, looking down from twelve stories above the streets of Seoul, he can't help but think about suicide.

Not his own, he likes his life enough to want to see it through.

But he thinks about death a lot. He's more focused on other people, he really thinks that how they ultimately come to the decision to end their own lives. Do they ever regret it? In the moment after letting go and second before they make impact, there has to be a little bit of remorse in that brief tree fall. Do they look at the ground as it rushes toward them and think, "Well shit! This was a bad idea" But he thinks not. It doesn't work like that....maybe. Not when his father did the same thing to himself- to him, to his mother.

He just moved here last week, cos he got into one of the most famous university in Seoul for which he's really glad, at least he came far away out of the toxic place, where his father murdered himself- in Busan, also out of his mother's hand, so yeah getting into a good versity is a great excuse for leaving a place where you don't want to be anymore.

At least he found some good roommates - Namjoon and Taehyung. But for now he just needed some fresh air and silence, so he hijacked the first roof he could find. Again not because he's suicidal. He has no plans to scale of this roof. But damn it, he can't get that from his third floor apartment with absolutely no rooftop access and two roommates who like to hear themselves sing. But the ***** truth is, he does too.

He didn't account for how cold it would be up here, though. It's not unbearable but it's not comfortable either. At least he can see stars, the sky is clear enough to literally feel the grandeur of the universe. Right now, the sky is making him feel insignificant. And the eccentric fact is, he somehow loves it or liking it.

But unfortunately for him, the door was just shoved open so hard, he expect the stairwell to spit a human out onto the rooftop. The door slams shut again and footsteps move swiftly across the deck. He doesn't even bother looking up. Whoever it is more than likely won't even notice him back here straddling the ledge to the left of the door. He sighs quietly, closes his eyes and leans his head against the stucco wall behind him, cursing the universe for ripping this peaceful, introspective moment out from under him. But then he finally allows his eyes to make the journey to the silhouette leaning over the ledge. As luck would have it, he's of course definitely a male, even leaning over the trail as far as Jungkook can tell he's not that tall. But broad shoulders create a strong contrast to the fragile way he's holding his head in his hands, but then he aggressively puts a pen out of his pocket and starts writing something on his notebook fiercely and after 5 or 7 minutes he slams the notebook shut.

And there it is, now he's doing nothing just standing there, staring down at the chair where he was sitting just a few minutes ago. Jungkook just stares at the guy a moment longer, wondering if he's ever going to move. But then finally he starts to turn back toward the ledge. He notices Jungkook on the exhale. He stops walking the second their eyes meet. His expression nor does it holds amusement when he sees Jungkook. He's ten feet away but there's enough light from the stars that Jungkook can see his eyes as they slowly drag over his body without revealing a single thought.

"What's your name?" he asks

Jungkook just feels his voice on his stomach. He has one of those voices. Deep, confident, and a little bit like butter.

"Jungkook", he finally says and right now Jungkook hates his voice, it kinda sounds too weak to even reach his ears from here, much reverberate inside his body.

...The stranger male lifts his chin and nudges his head toward Jungkook. "Will you please get down from there, Jungkook?"...

Jungkook glances down at his legs then back up at him. "No thanks. I'm quite comfortable where I am."

"Please get down" It's more like a demand now, despite his use of the word please.

..."You're a mere three inches from falling to your death. You're making me nervous. Not to mention ruining my high. "...

Jungkook rolls his eyes at that. "Heaven forbid a joint go to waste" He hops down and wiles his hands across his jeans. "Better?" Jungkook says as walks toward the stranger male.

He lets out a rush of air, as if seeing Jungkook on the ledge actually had him holding his breath. Jungkook passes him to head for the side of the roof with the better view, and as he(Jungkook) does, he can't help but notice how unfortunately cute the stranger male. No.Cute is an insult. The guy is beautiful, well manicured, pretty eyes, lightest shade of brown, fierce and beautiful above his pointed nose and plump lips and smells good like honey. When Jungkook reaches the side of the building that overlooks the street, he leans forward and stares down at the cars below, trying not to appear impressed by the stranger male. But then he hears footsteps approaching from behind, then he sees the stranger male leans against the railing next to him. The last thing Jungkook needs is to be under the influence around this guy. His voice is a drug in itself. So Jungkook kind of wants to hear it again, so he throws a question in the stranger one's direction.

"So what were you actually writing in the notebook that made you suddenly so angry? "

The guy looks at Jungkook. His eyes meet Jungkook and he just stares, hard, Jungkook feels like all of his secret are there right on his face.

"Don't you think it's a little personal?"

Jungkook laughs a little with that question. "If you really don't want to answer, then never mind."

"What floor do you live on? I've never noticed you before.", the guy asks.

"That's because I don't live here." Jungkook points at the direction of his apartment. "See that insurance building? " The guy squints as he looks in the direction Jungkook is pointing. "Yeah"

"I live in the building next to it. It's short to see from here. It's only three inches tall. It's a nice roof by the way."

...The guy lifts an eyebrow, waiting for more of an explanation....

..."I wanted fresh air. Somewhere to think. I pulled up Google Earth and found the closest apartment complex with a decent rooftop patio."...

The guy regards Jungkook with a smile. "At least you're economical", he says. " That's a good quality to have."

At least? But Jungkook just nods. Because he is economical. And it is a good quality to have.

"Why did you need fresh air? " the guy asks again.

Is that even a question? Jungkook thinks as he faces forward again and slowly exhales. "Can we just not talk for a little while?"

The guy seems a bit relieved that Jungkook asked for silence. He leans over the ledge and let's an arm dangle as he stares down at the street. He stays like this for a while, and Jungkook stares at him the entire time. He probably knows that Jungkook's staring, but the guy doesn't seem to care.

"A guy fell off this roof last month.", he says.

Jungkook would be annoyed as the guy's lack of respect for his silence, but Jungkook would hate to admit that he's kind of intrigued.

"Was it an accident?", Jungkook asks.

^^^The guy shrugs. "No one knows. It happened late in the evening. All I know is he was a photographer. People in this area think he was leaning over the ledge to get a shot of the skyline, and he slipped. When my brother told me what happened, the only thing I could think was whether or not he got the shot. I was hoping his camera didn't fall for him, because that would have been a real waste, you know? To die because of your love of photography;but you didn't even get the final shot that cost you your life?"^^^

Jungkook can't help but laugh at the guy's thought, the matter of fact is he loves photography too.

Not like he's expert or something, but it's something that keeps him happy. But then he looks over the ledge, wondering how someone could possibly put them in a situation where they could fall by accident. But then he remembers hey was just straddling the ledge on the other side of the roof a few minutes ago. And now he's not sure he should've laughed at that.

"Do you always say exactly what's on your mind?"

The guy shrugs. "Not to most people."

This makes Jungkook smile. Jungkook likes the fact that the guy doesn't even know him, but for some whatever reason, he's not considered most people to him.

"Were you born here?" , the guy asks.

Jungkook shakes his head. "Nope. Moved here last week, cos I got into a good college earlier."

The guy scrunches up his nose, and Jungkook thinks it's kind of hot and also mentally punches himself for this kind of quirky thoughts.

"Oh that's great. So you're a student huh?"

"Yes. And you are? What do you do?"

"Professor. Ha I know it sounds creepy and boring. But teaching is something I like to do."

"And why's that? You like ordering people around?"

"I don't know. Maybe you're right.", the guy says as he's facing forward again with his chin resting on his arms. His eyes are close now, like he's enjoying the wind against his face. He doesn't look as intimidating like this.

"Wanna know something that only the locals knows?'', Jungkook asks.

"Of course", the guy says, bringing his attention back to Jungkook.

Jungkook points to the east. "See that building? The one with the green roof?"

The guy nods.

"There's a building behind it, and a house on top of that building. Like a legit house, built right on the rooftop. You can see it from the street, and the building is so tall that not many people even know about it. I wonder how cool would that be to live in a house on top of a building? You'd get the whole roof to yourself."

"Who lives there?"

"No one really knows. I think it's one of the great mysteries of Seoul."

The guy laughs and looks at Jungkook Inquisitively.

"What's the another great mystery of Seoul?''

''Your name.'' As soon as Jungkook says it, he slaps his head against his forehead. It sounded so much like a cheesy pickup line; the only thing he can do is laugh at himself.

The guy smiles. "It's Jimin.'', he says. "Park Jimin."

Here's the book cover:) Do not steal please cos I'll know it anyways if anyone do.

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And some Jikook pics to make your day better~

next chapter coming soon:)