...A vast sea of blood surrounded me. I lied on the smooth sand, staring up into the starry night sky....

...I was finally alone....

...The grainy earth ran through my fingers as I lifted my hands, now staring at my palms....

...Pain. That’s all these hands have inflicted. I got up, brushing the sand off of my shorts....

...It’s caused all of this pain to others and the angels, yet it gave others the ability to love me....

...I now faced the despair of the red ocean before me. The water refracted the souls of those...

...lost, scurrying around within it; with not a single sense of direction. An aquatic mass created for...

...the capture of the human race....

...Is this really what I created?...

...I needed to stop worrying and settle my mind down. The ruckus and chaos is gone, so...

...there’s no point in dreading. No more burden, no more abiding by other’s expectations, and...

...goodbye to my sorrow. I finally have gotten everyone to accept me. That’s all I’ve ever wanted....

...After all, It’s not hard for everyone to accept me if that everyone only consists of “me”....

...“I'm truly satisfied.” The quietness of the world lifted my spirits, allowing me to grin...

...slightly. In an instant, I felt chilly. My feet dug into the sand below, receiving its warmth to assist...

...me. It didn’t provide much....

...The temperature of the world was reflecting Shinji’s current state of heart....

...“Your sick, Idiot Shinji.” These words murmured from near; I started seeking their...

...location. “How disgusting.” Spat the mouth of them again. At that moment, I found them with...

...ease....

...These words wrapped around me, dragging me down to the person below. This felt so...

...familiar, and so did the sound of the person's voice who produced them....

...“Ugh.” I was now on top of her. I couldn’t control myself or what actions I was about to...

...partake in. I can ensure one thing though, and that was that my body didn’t like those words very...

...much....

...My hands instantly went for her throat, closing off her airway. “Disgusting, huh?” My...

...grip stood firmly. “You wouldn’t understand how hard it was to put up with all that stress of...

...piloting Unit One.” My voice grew strong, and that girl's name suddenly returned itself to my...

...mind. “You especially! You never even took the time to understand me, Asuka!”...

...I tried with all my might to extract her remaining life force. This was the final step I had...

...to take to relieve myself from all the grief that I stored within me....

...“What did you say about me, Idiot Shinji?”...

...These words began to echo through my head. Who was this talking to me? What did they...

...mean? My brain was scrambled. “Stop…” They began to spiral around me, consuming the...

...remains of the world that I had destroyed....

...Stop. Stop. Stop...

...Chapter 1 End...

...Slowly, the world began to fall apart. Darkness towered around me, building its castles to...

...block the view of the surrounding land. It became dark. Too dark. A gust of wind blew, making...

...this darkness more chilly than the world I plagued destruction on....

...I looked underneath me and that girl was no longer there, neither was her name. “Stop!” I...

...banged on the darkness below. It felt hollow. I could feel the vibration of my movements, but...

...there was nothing but complete and utter silence; excluding my voice....

...I laid my head on the floor. This feeling was weird. The girl's name I couldn’t remember,...

...her existence wavered in my mind. I no longer felt content with what I had done, but why? I was...

...fine being in a world that only consisted of me. It was as if I had achieved Nirvana....

...A while passed, and only some sounds became present. The sound of my heartbeat, and...

...my reclaimed distress. I was about to lose my mind. My sorrow trickled onto the floor in the...

...form of tears. I sat there, lonely as ever....

That’s all I’ve been doing. That’s all I’ve ever done. It’s what made me feel complete. It made

things “easier”.

...“Somebody…” my fingers tightened onto my knees; which I was currently hugging....

...“Couldn’t have somebody…” I banged on the floor once more, shattering it....

...COULDN'T HAVE SOMEBODY EVEN TRIED TO UNDERSTAND ME, EVEN ONCE?...

...My body dropped. I had no reaction as I fell with blurred vision. I didn’t care if this fall...

...was the one to end me. After all, this was the same fate I doomed everyone else to. They didn’t...

...have a decision to live or a die, I took it by acting on my own selfish instinct....

...Splash...

...I couldn’t see. I couldn’t breath. I was underwater. The water wasn’t exactly salty, yet it...

...lingered with the scent of blood....

...Shinji....

...This voice sounded different than the last; this voice was monotonous....

...Relax yourself, Shinji....

...Even though I couldn’t identify who’s voice this was, I did as they asked. Their voice...

...soothed my soul. On an impulse, I wanted to do everything this voice mentioned for their sake. I...

...relaxed my whole body. The water nibbled on my skin; it was almost as if I was dissolving....

...The water drained from around me in an instant, throwing my body into the air....

...Your sorrow is now mine to assist....

...Now, shall we have a talk?...

Rustle, Rustle, Rustle…..

...The aroma in the air was that of oil. I felt as if I was moving forward, but I was...

...completely still. My eyes lazily pry themselves open. “Where…. am I?”...

...The view greets me with my shoes and a black floor. I look up, now presented with a...

...noticeable face with blue hair....

...Chapter 2 End...

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