How many of you have first love? Does everyone's first love succed? Here is my story based on first love, sacrifices, regrets and many feelings.

"IDIOT, where are you? I miss you. Please don't be angry with me" tears rolled down from the girl's eyes.

Then there is a smile on her face with tears, "STUPID, your memories make me smile but the feelings make me cry. I Hate You to the extent I Love You. "

Then someone lightly hugs her tiny little body and wipes her tears and says, "Suzy, it has been six years and you are crying till now. Please forget him. I know you love him but there others also who cares for you." Suzy slightly pushes him and said, "Leave me, Austin.......Is the work done? Are the designs ready? Tomorrow Mr. Roberto will host his masquerade party. We have to design dresses. Come on hurry up." After observing Suzy's behaviour and gave a deep sigh and replied with, "Hmm. Half of the work is done." She turned back and smiled at him and said, "Thank You" The hidden meaning behind her words were silently understood and nodded slightly, suddenly something came up in his mind, "Umm. Suzy. It's that.... Nothing. Good Night"

***Suzy turned gave him a suspicious look and asked\, "What happened? Is something wrong" Suddenly she went to her chair and checked up the guest list. Her heart pricked a bit by looking someone's name on the list. Austin saw that and was going to say something. But she turned her towards the glass and sadly said\, "Oh\, His name. It's okay\, now the time has come." Again\, tears rolled down from her eyes and those were silent tears even Austin standing next to her couldn't see it. He wishes her good night again\, while closing the door says\, "Don't forget to take the MEDS!" With a firm voice and she nodded immediately.  ***

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"I am Suzy Roberto. Mysterious CEO of K3 company (for other this company is called GC company). This company is built within five years from ashes. Austin is my classmate from University. So, he knows everything about me. The Mr. Roberto I mentioned is my so-called father who is hosting the party. He doesn't know me as my pen name is ' Zei '. I am a fashion designer in England. I am hiding from my friends and families from past six years as I am a sinner and have many regrets."

"OH...Let's leave all this and focus on designs." She started to draw her drafts and unknowingly writes Ana on a paper and her hands started trembling, tears started flowing and she felt little dizzy, she immediately stood and went to the table aside to bed took five sleeping pills and tucked herself inside the blankets. The fear hidden in her heart begin to rise up. She was fully covered in sweat. Somehow after three to four how she fell asleep.

"Hey K3, My Sweetie, K3,

My Dear K3 Get up, its morning" by hearing this voice she got up switched offed the alarm and begin to rub her eyes with her tiny hands. While her eyes opened there, she saw a great figure standing in front of her fuming with anger. "Good Morning Brother Austin.", she said. It was like she was ignoring him purposely. "You did it again.", he asked with an angry tone. "What's the use. It's the end anyways, only little time is left" Austin angrily went up on the bed and tightly holds her arm. She gave him an angry look and said, "I don't want to start this in early morning. Give me my breakfast. I have to make a dress for Ana Cooper." Austin ignored her words and sadly said, "Please don't do this. Take care of yourself. Who will take care of him? I don't agree with your choice. And what was that. 'ANA COOPER', is that what you really want? Making a dress for his wife."  She shrugged off his hands and shouted loudly, "LEAVE ME." Austin came back to his senses and tremblingly said, "I'm ..... really sorry Suzy..I..I..". "LEAVE ME, I SAID JUST LEAVE ME." She started throwing things everywhere and got up from her bed and a piece of broken glass stuck in her leg, ""AHH, Ouch... Ouch", she repeated. Austin was going towards her, she ignored her pain and said angrily, "Didn't I tell you to leave? Now leave." Austin said, "But this...." "Is this your first time seeing me like this? I have a habit, now go." Austin nodded and went away.

"HAH, now time to clean the mess I created.", she sighed while moving her hands on her head. But there were no tears in her eyes this time, no feeling of pain. While cleaning she got more cuts from the pieces on her hands. Her hands started bleeding too. "Not again", she said while looking at her hands. After cleaning she went to the bathroom and closed the door so no maid can come inside. She started take out the pieces of glass and the blood started to flow more, it was like a river of blood, whole bathroom was covered in blood. She stood up went into the bathtub. The scenery looked like the attempt of suicide. As she went inside and led down, she immediately fell asleep in the bathtub.

"K3, let's play......will you be my friend?.........catch me if you can......meet Ana.....K3, are you listening? K3.", she got up shouted loudly, "GERSON........huh..". She examined her surrounding and came to her senses. "OH Gerson, my idiot, where are you? are you ok? are you happy?", she smiled herself. "Looks like I have to take those meds today. See I will you see after six years later and my condition is getting worse. So much happened today. But don't worry Gerson, I will return your happiness, OK.", saying so she smiled and went to her giant wardrobe and took out an elegant dress.

"What's the time? Oops, looks like I will get a scolding again, HEH....HEH." She childishly giggles and went out. But before going out she checks whether, are any blood drops. Because if Austin comes to know this, he will me a big issue, so checks each and every corner of the bathroom and out. As she went out, she saw Austin come towards her worriedly, "Are you okay? Does it hurt anymore? Huh...What's this, did you cut your hands again? Did blood flow too much? Do you feel dizzy? Do you want any meds?" Looking him like this she patted Austin's head and said, "There...There, my dear brother. I'm alright. See yourself." Austin relieved a sigh after listening this. "OK, now tell me where should I start to make her dress its already 10 and we pack it till noon." He frowned changed the topic,"Mm, I'll tell you but now come eat your breakfast. He is waiting and is very angry." Suzy smiles after listening this. "He is very cute when he is angry", Austin further mumbles himself.

*"*OK, Let's go.  Give me my schedule.".

Here Zei." Her secretary said was drooling a lot, "Zei you are so gorgeous. I can't take off my eyes. IF I were a boy I would have married you." Austin closed Laila's mouth asap and glared her. "Sorry Suzy. By the way you look fabulous." He immediately changed the topic.

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***"Come on\, hurry up. I cannot make him wait anymore. But it would be really good for me. Now its time to show my acting skills. Let's go." ****

Then she goes to here dining table and sat down with a cold behaviour. "How is your study? Do you need money? Don't let your grades down? Are you attending all your courses? I hope you will not let me down. Understand." She said all these with firm, cold and emotionless expression to a tiny creature sitting beside her. "Yes Mom. I did each and every courses. I don't need money. But....... " She gave him a suspicious look,"But what?"***

***"Mom\, my performance IS little bit gone down but I have scored first in class."\, the boy said with a teary yet happy eyes\, expecting for praise. But Suzy banged the table and shouted\,"Performance gown down? Do you know how much money I spend on you. What kind of son are you? Practice more." ***

The boy made up the courage and asked,"Can I go out and make friends?" She shouted even more, "Don't you understand what I said last time. You are not allowed to go outside this mansion. What do you need, tell me I will bring but you are not allowed go out........Enough of your nonsense. I will be late tonight. So sleep early. Ok. And don't ever mention about going out, better upgrade your grades. And lastly don't call me Mom call me Mother. Understand."

His eyes became teary but he hold up even more said, "Okay Mother. But will you give me what I want. Otherwise I'll hate you more."

"YES.", Suzy replied coldly. His eyes began to sparkle and shiny jewels, "Can I go outside for just today?"

***She looked him for sometime and coldly said\, "OKAY." After listening he started to smile very happily. "But...You will not tell anyone that  you are my son or you are rich. You will wear average clothes. And don't take my name outside. Never tell anyone that you are my son.IS THAT CLEAR?." After listening he was disappointed by his mom but happy that he can go outside. He happily replied\, "Freedom\, here I come." ***

Till he went away from her glance she stood there firmly but as he was gone, she fell on the floor as her legs were trembling. Austin came and gave her a tight hug and she cried a little and said, "These are worthless tears.  I can't cry. I'm a bad person." Saying so she wiped her tears. Austin felt hurt about her  thinking on herself.

***"Till how long are you gonna keep doing this. What will you get by making him hate you. How can you bear it. Please let it\, let out your care and love for him." By hearing this Suzy shouted\, "NO!" Everyone present there flinched and she continued\, "How will he leave me if i show him my love and care. How will my wish be fulfilled."..........."HOW". She shouted even more. "And everyone present here should keep all these inside their stomach. And where his Nanny." ****

"Madam, here I am.", Nanny came hurriedly. "Slow down, Nanny.", Suzy said with a smile and continued, "Tell that Principal to decrease to syllabus, so that my son will not have any loads of studies. OK. And I have secret mission for you, will you do it." Nanny replied immediately, "Yes Madam. I'll do it."***

"OK. Only thing you have to do is to.......um.. "......She seemed like her heart was broken by her expression then said\, " to make my son have Motherly love from his homeroom teacher .******" By hearing this everyone present their was shocked. The Nanny\, "Oh Lord\, My Lady. I know your son is very close with his homeroom teacher but that doesn't mean that Miss Ana could take away your son." She replied with an expressionless face\, "Do as I say.  From now\, His Teacher could take him to her home also. You don't need to ask my permission then but if any body else touches him your family will be disappeared. EVERYONE UNDERSTOOD." She walked away\, everyone was dazed but she halted and said\, "And the most important is  NEVER TAKE MY NAME IN FRONT OF HER."

Austin stopped her from going out and said, "At least eat something and I'll not ask you questions anymore. You have take you meds." She smiled at him and said, "How will a mother can eat while her son has not eaten."