In retrospect, everything was mine . I thought I was wondering in something that wasn't mine.

But in the end, my share of every single drop of the blood that led to desolate despair.

it was lovely and it was mine, regardless of whether it was or not.

Every broken grain and ruined footprint were for a reason, something that I couldn't achieve, traces of my hesitation and heartrending traces of all my strength to be happy to live.

So the footprints left behind me . all those footprints are carved on the road to be happy to meet you.

Now I have a track to happiness and all my part is lovely

ALL

Even the marks that were swinging in the mud

\_except from an old diary

... chapter 1. ...

The first ball I attended was brilliant and scary. there were too many people, and they all look so mature. It was to make matters worse, a dress that is too tight is suffocating and can be relaxed.

he screwed it up.

'i feel dizzy.'

I can't stand dizzy.

when I was shaken, someone came up and held my hand and helped me up.

"you almost fell. My cheeks are red.

Is anyone here with you?"

I fell in love with the short kindness of asking for his name and giving him a seat to rest, and calling in Scharfron.

I promised to get married and my father listened to my wishes in the heat of the short kindness .

"I'll try my best ."

a jubilant moment of joy

But when I meet you again my dream is to be he told me that he was hot-blooded.

it was regarded as the anxiety of the new bride. I thought that if I overcome this anxiety, I could be with you forever.

But now I know.

I was wrong .

now,when there's no turning back. only then do I know. I realize with tears every day that learning slowly is a sin that requires such a great price.

no matter how hard I try to bully and stay away from her to protect my family, it's no use. I'm the only one who'll ever gonna be a bad girl.

only if your opponent wants money rather that money, you may be separated from your husband. to protect my marriage, I can sacrifice as much sacrifice.

in the presence of

however, the stronger the woman becomes,the more the husband's love does not return.

I'm the only one who keeps playing the villain. now I hate myself back then . that one moment of kindness, I was so sweet, so bitter, so heartless, and I took everything out. then I got pregnant. the moment I noticed it, I was foolishly excited by hope.

maybe I can achieve the normal home I dreamed of.

he is a sweet person. so even if I don't love, I might love only my own child.

"if you have children....and he cares about me, about my family, i think so"

a wish from a very young age I have a cozy and harmonious family.

I wanted to have it.

maybe that's why I fell in love with the little kindness of my first meeting with my husband. he looked like an adult, and he was an ideal father or husband.

I could see it.

because I grew up in a cold, authoritative family, I want my children to grow up to be lonely like me.

I didn't want to.

so I plucked up my courage.

"Bern talk to me."

I told my husband that I was pregnant

" I have a child"

a stiff face and a low expression.

those resentful eyes that won't soften at all, but If I don't hold it in, my child will be unhappy.

let's bend a little bit, put down a little pride, and appeal for a return. if that's what we can do to have a happy family, I'll do it enough.

I could.

"I know,you don't love me, but if you're not a good husband, if you're a good father, I can stand it I can do it for you "

maybe we can be a good couple and a loving relationship.

that word just comes out of my mouth.

I didn't

it was because I thought I would be laughed at because the goal was already too deep.

perhaps it is due to his unyielding pride. was that bad?

the news that flew with me when I collapsed with my lower blood. her husband's girl

it's a story of a fall.

my husband chose her without hesitation

all and I tried to run from my husband .

Dunna was bitter because she couldn't stand the ship's rage .

"I should have stabilized because I was so weak in the first place, but I couldn't. the illness of the heart was so clear that it was hard for the child to endure."

I don't know what kind of spirit I was in.

when I was able to control myself, resentment soared . she wasn't the only one cotton...!

her husband's girl, reina.

I rushed to the small villa my husband had arranged for her .

it's my fault for cheating. so don't blam her. even the scary sound of leaving"

at the same time, he started at me. bluegray eyes pierce me in a spear of rage. it was

my heart was as creepy as a cut.

I'm supposed to cry, but I can't help it. I didn't it was miserable.

"your child is dead. it was you and my child. but how can you look like that?"

when he said that, my husband turned away from me.

all as soon as her cold navy eyes touched her, her affection and anxiety filled her.

as if inanimate objects were turning into living things. it was a change

" Reina, that's not your fault. don't listen. there's no reason for you to suffer or leave. it's okay. it's not your fault. please raise your head. look"

why do you say that there? he must be the father of my child. it's the father of a child who died because of sleep.

"oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,yeah."

there was a pop in my ear I lost my strength despair deemed to grab me and pull me to the ground.

he continued to deny it. I believed she was cheating on my husband. all if you just get rid of Reina, everything will be back to normal if she disappeared.

I couldn't live without believing so much.

in every story, justice won.

what I know is always the story that I'm a wife and Reina is just a hidden lover. . so I believed that everything would eventually come back in place.

but I suddenly realised it.

why did I take it for granted?

Reina shrugs off and her husband pulls her with a distressed face. a desperate whisper of something

a woman who shakes her head with tears in her eyes, a man who begs her

time went slowly or differently as if it were heterogeneous. there was my frozen time next to the time they were alive and moving.

I can never get my husband back. the proper marriage I dreamed of was impossible . the original premise it was because they are two main characters.