Looking outside the window as his heart moves into pieces, looking outside seeing how time flew so fast, just before his very eyes.

He's a little drunk again, holding his tears from falling as his heart broke into million of pieces every single time.

"I'm sorry that I can't get a hold of you... If only I could turn back the time then I won't let you go" he finally cried, a cry of a broken hearted man who once love one person so much than to his life,

"If only... I could turn back time... I guess I'll  never ever lose you... I won't be suffering from this broken heart... I won't love anyone than you..."

By the door which he left opened, That one boy looked at him with tears on his eyes, making no sound as he cried with him,

He's Jaemin... That boy at the door, watching Lucas crying his heart out every single night. He slowly closed the door and went back to his room, He sat on his bed and took the frame into his hands as tears falling into the frame's glass "I wish I never came so that you'll still be here... If only, I never came" he cried so much that no one could imagine how painful it is for Jaemin as well...

As much as Lucas cried, it's how much Jaemin regrets of coming into their lives. Not a single day, Jaemin never regrets, not a single night he won't cry himself to sleep... It always was.

As Jaemin fall asleep while hugging that long time plushie he had, Lucas carefully opened Jaemin's room to see him sleeping peacefully but was he really sleeping peacefully? Maybe in Lucas' angle, he saw how peacefully Jaemin slept but on the other side, tears are still falling down... His tired eyes took its off as it put Jaemin to his slumber. Lucas then closed the door and head back to his room, trying to tuck himself to sleep.

🍃🌄 After a week,

Jaemin woke up at exactly 7am which his school will held a school tour by 8:30 and the school bus will pick him up at 8:00 sharp then it will up to their tour after picking everyone up. He changed his school tour uniform by himself, took his bag then head downstairs without any words but a sigh as he found a letter on the table together with his allowance for the the whole school tour approximately, Lucas left him almost half million cash and he put about million on Jaemin's credit card.

"As usual" he uttered to himself... "I don't want this much, I just want Atleast have your time... just today to bid a good luck and have fun to me" his heart was full of hurt already... but tears won't came out anymore.

He took a slice of a bread and that fresh milk delivery for his breakfast before the bus arrive.

He checked his SNS and saw how many people uploaded of how happy they were, "How lucky" he envied and sigh once again as he put the glass to the sink and washed it before running out the house.

Once he entered the bus, no one wants to sit next to him and just let one space for him to take alone. He's a loner and don't have Lucas' time... He's a sad young boy, he may lived inside that fancy house but his whole life... It wasn't the one he had before. He looked outside the window then to the sky "I wonder if I'll be gone... or... If I never came, They'll be so much happy  right?" He thought to himself... Just sitting there all alone.

Their Tour instructor conducts an attendance and let one student sit next to Jaemin but he really do refused and she had no choice but to sit next to him, herself.

As the tour starts, she sit next to him but apart from him, that you can see a huge gap between them.

"Why are they so afraid of him?" That one transferee student asked the guy next to him, He's Mark... the New Student... "Because Someone died while he sat next to him... that's what they said, he's cursed" the other boy replied, Mark look at Jaemin with pity... He wanted to sit next to him but He's not assigned to take a seat next to him.

The sad Jaemin later got excited as he saw a garden in the middle of nowhere, while the bus changed tires. They all went out but they still distanced themselves to Jaemin... As they were busy taking pictures in the middle of nowhere, There's a white with black printed rabbit caught Jaemin's eyes... He smile at it and wanted to just pet it but the rabbit ran away from him. As a boy which once a cheerful and had beautiful soul boy, he followed the rabbit wherever it goes, until he's nowhere to be seen by humans ***** eyes.

"Hey! wait up---" He look around and was amazed by the nature around him but all of a sudden, His tears came back all 'round to him...

"I don't want to arrive on their lives, let those time came back please... or just let everyone forget that I existed... Just bring him back, I'll stay here" Tears are falling while his smile already was shown.

Wind blows as that wish made its way to reality, Jaemin's nowhere to be found by that very time...

Mark turn around as he felt something's not right and...

"Where's Jaemin?" He asked and noticed everyone looked at him strangely, enough of their looks... Mark went inside the bus and saw that Jaemin's suitcase aren't there anymore.

"Mark? What are you looking for?" Their teacher asked him confusingly "Do we had a classmate named Jaemin?" "No... Don't scare us Mark!" She scolded "It can't be! He's a guy which you all distanced with because ya'll thinking he's curse---" "There's no Jaemin, Mark!" He then sat hopelessly back to the once existed Jaemin's seat...

"It can't be..."

.... 💚

Lucas' abruptly looked at his phone as he felt something's not right,

"Why did I felt so uneasy this time?" He opened his account and saw that his money's been multiplied like those money he sent to Jaemin came all back, he checked the link credit and he saw that there's none...

"I'm getting all worried" he breath heavily "Maybe there's something happened to my Jaemin?" He panicked so much and decided diall Jaemin's number but it says that it didn't exists, same goes to the Academy to where he enrolled Jaemin... They said there's no Jaemin & maybe he's in wrong dial, he laid his back to his chair "What's happening..." Then something came to his mind, he left his company and head back home only to see that the room which was supposed to be Jaemin's, didn't exists... That once creative and beautifully designed room turns out to be that simple guest room... He gasps in disbelief,

"What's happening---" Tears came out from his eyes as he saw the man he misses so much,

"Lucas? I thought you're at work?" Lucas looked at him, checking him "What's wrong with you? You look like you're seeing a ghost or something" "Winwin... is that you?" The man pulled a confused look "Are you crazy? Of course!  It's me" Lucas ran to him and hugged him "You're back..." Winwin tried to look at him, still confused "I never been gone" he hugged his husband back "Now that you miraculously came back... I lost our Jaemin" Winwin pulled out the hug and look at him "What do you mean 'Our Jaemin'? We only have us" Winwin laughed it off "No... We have a Jaemin---" "You might need to take a rest and off today, You must still be dreaming" Lucas sigh, and Winwin asked him to went to his room...

Lucas just sat right there, thinking how Winwin came back and where Jaemin at... Then all of a sudden, he remembered he found an envelope on his car before he left Jaemin alone that day,

He took it out from his pocket... Which made him cry a lot,

✉

    I'm sorry that I arrived in your lives but I really do want to make you happy. If there's something came to me during of field trip, I'll take the risk if it means of bringing Winwin back. I know you'll never been here to say any last words, I just want you to be happy... Please take care of him and do forget me. I will never be existed... I'll stay wherever they bring me. I'm sorry that I existed, I'll never go back... Promise.

I actually don't deserve to came to your lives, I just brought death and danger... Everyone around me hates me so much. But thank you for loving me... I'm so sorry again :) <3

~Jaemin

Lucas cried "Jaemin... what have you done?!" He hugged the letter that Jaemin last gave "I never been that good to you... I'm so sorry..."

As much as Lucas cried, Winwin's outside the door, trying his hardest to hold his sobs while tears kept on falling...  Winwin then walked downstairs to their backyard, he took out the necklace he once gave to Jaemin.

That necklace he gave before everything happened, that one he gave those moment Jaemin first came to their lives, that moment where he's so much happier of having him.

"Why did you do that Jaemin?" He said with tears "so this means that I'll be acting like I didn't know you exists once? Is that what you want? Do you know how much that hurts?" He wipe his tears away "Those lighted ones took everyone's memory of you, but there are still people left having you... I don't want them to erase you... No matter what... You're my boy" His sob finally came out "My boy who sacrifice himself for me to come back here"

He sat down as he buried the necklace to where he remembered having the little Jaemin running around that place where there's lot of flowers "It might be so confusing, But Jaemin... You do exist... It's such that, something magical happens and erases you from everyone's memory, but nothing can ERASE YOU from mine..."

After Winwin buried it with a heavy heart, he stand up and acted like there's nothing happened, yet his heart's been breaking so badly...

"I'll be more careful Jaemin... I'll look for you, no matter how long it takes... I'll get my boy back"

He said as he imagined the baby Jaemin running around the backyard...

Winwin look up at the sky "I already told you that I won't come back here but you just did that... and what now? Having Jaemin in return right? Having him back up there after giving him life... Yes it hurts me so much as I saw him of how he suffered, After giving him to us once and you all just grant our Angel's wish... I already insists right? But you all just... took him back..." Winwin wiped his tears "To that place where I can't reach him no matter how we'll try" his heart feels so heavier...

Winwin tried his hardest to smile

"I'll never Erase you from my memory, our Long time Angel"

He look down as his heart get heavier.

Lucas then fall asleep from crying, and then he abruptly sat on his bed, tears fall down...

"Jaemin, Why are you in heaven?"

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Sorry, if it's somewhat complicated, Yes, The flow might somehow... I don't know~ 😅

Just hopefully ya'll understand this 2 updated chapters. Please let me know 🙏

Love lots 💕

For about a week had gone with the air and skies, Lucas still can't believe Winwin's right in front of him all over again and Jaemin's disappearance still haunt his regret heart.

Lucas' in his office, playing with his pen as he thinks and regrets for being a wrong and a disappointing Father to his only son, Jaemin... Of how Jaemin should be taking care of and now everything... As in, He can't do anything to everything for his son.

"I don't still understand why Winwin came back around and Dream seeing Jaemin in heaven? Does the man above get my Jaemin's life in replace of Winwin's?" Tears made its way out from his eyes as his heart ached once again "Yes, I miss Winwin so much and I longed for him that much but not to the extent that you'll get Jaemin away from me, mysteriously... It's so unfair!" He slammed the pen on his table and covered his face with his hands as he let his tears flow out as much as it takes... He can't handle how hurt his heart was, how much it regrets and how much it want to understand everything... He knows to himself that Jaemin's not a dream nor an imagination... He know it to himself that Jaemin exists to his life... That he once had a son, who's too brave, strong, loving, caring, understanding, talented and smart... His most handsome son, he ever know...

⛺

"Mark!" One of the students call him, he turn around and just give him an emotionless expression while his arms are both folded... "Grab my hand..." He offers but to his surprise, Mark just shakes his head while others are all in heart pounding "Mark! You're standing on the edge of that deep cliff---" "I know, it's not that I'm going to jump off" "Don't be mean! Just grab my hand---" "I'm going to take it if ya'll tell me that there's a student named Jaemin who mysteriously disappear" he asked pursuant "Mark... Have you gone mad? There's no Jaemin---" "I know he do exists... You just don't get it" Then he casually walked away from the cliff and back to his tent, He just left his classmate's hand hanging...

He opened his phone which was not that restricted on their tour, and was surprised when he saw he had a picture of Jaemin on a beautiful garden, smiling at the shot... That smile which Mark ever saw for the very first time,

"What?" He asked the thin air confusingly then silence came to him... "Jaemin, where are you? And why I do feel like this? I can't believe---" he realised that his cheeks were soaked by his tears and was confused why his heart hurts that way "Tell me that this is just a dream... Tell me that... You do exists, don't torture me this way" he thought as his tears all fall out.

🌹

Lucas went home earlier than it should have be. He unexpectedly saw Winwin hugging a picture while he's sleeping at the couch, seeing his eyes are swollen... but before he could take a look at the picture he's hugging, Winwin woke up and hide the picture as if Lucas saw nothing "Why are you back so early?" He asked as he fixed his clothes "I just finished cleaning everything, You want to eat something---" Winwin got cut off by Lucas who's standing right there way too long enough "Let's go out?" Winwin look up at him as his heart secretly hurts... Winwin smile and nod. Seeing Lucas happy makes him happier despite of his regrets and longing...

Lucas held Winwin's hand for the very first time since he saw him coming all around to his life, he then realized that it was real, Winwin do exists and he's holding him now...

Lucas' smile showed as tears fall out, Winwin noticed that and reached Lucas face to wipe his tears off "Why are you crying?" Lucas cupped his hands near to his heart "I still can't belive you're here" he said as he took a move to give his person a kiss, that kiss they never had before... That kiss they never gave to each other in a very long run... They smile to each other as their nose are still close "This is not a dream right?" Winwin just smile and hug him tightly "I'm happy that you smile again Lucas" "It's all because of you babe"

Lucas took Winwin to places they used to be at... Lucas saw how happy Winwin was, his heart slowly healed by his person's smile as he take all of the seconds count...

By the end of the day, They stayed up to the dining tower as he hugged him from the back, sightseeing the whole city and the night starry sky, Lucas rest his chin on Winwin's shoulder as they lovingly feeling the moment...

"Even up until now, I still can't belive that you really came back" Lucas said and added "I hope this is not just a dream... I hope we'll stay up like this" Winwin held Lucas' hand back like putting his hands on top of Lucas' hands which are wrapping around him "I love that" Those are the words Winwin could ever replied while his thoughts are too long and hurtful...

"I love that thought but it seems I can't... No, It seems like my days can't go on without crying, not because I was hurt for coming back here but it's all because I lose my son in replace of me. I love to see you happy, I love to be with you forever but my heart actually doesn't love it, Heavens get my Angel back on replacement of me... Don't you feel hurt that our Jaemin mysteriously disappeared? Don't you feel the longing of his smiles, laughter and jokes? I was so deeply hurt because I can't seem to see my boy like ever... Everything will be Erase..." Winwin look up at the sky "Everything about my Jaemin will be Erase... I don't want to Erase you... You're my primary happiness, I just can't bear to Erase you... Jaemin"

Tears escaped his eyes then Lucas notices it, Letting Winwin faced him and wipe it out "Why the tears?" Winwin hugged him as he acted there was nothing "I'm just happy and been so lucky to have you Lucas. I'm just so much thankful" Lucas smile and hug him back "I'm so thankful as well my love... I'll love you up to eternity"

Without noticing, A falling star passed on the starry night sky, Hearing their Love Eternity. The kiss to the future which was heard by that one lovely angel as well.