its 2020,a pandemic situation...

only thing which could make me happy was seeing my idols..

(𝓸𝓾𝓽𝓼𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝓼𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓲𝓸 𝓫𝓾𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸𝓻𝓬𝓱𝓮𝓼 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓪𝓼𝓽 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓻𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓻)

𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚎𝚛: thats all?

𝚢/𝚗:𝚢𝚎𝚜

this was when they came out..

wearing black mask ,beautifully coloured hair, heading towards their black van...

fans all around shouting and cheering them, as if gods have decended.....

(𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓫𝓪𝓫𝓵𝔂 𝓮𝔁𝓪𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪 𝓪𝓻𝓶𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓪𝓭 𝓲𝓽 𝓭𝓸𝓮𝓼 𝓼𝓮𝓮𝓶 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵)

it ran to the crowd to get a glance at them but i was too late for it...

tha when a news ran through everyones phone bighit is deciding on turning bts into a coed kpop group😱😱

𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊 𝚐𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚋𝚢 𝚗𝚘 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚒𝚝 𝚋𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗,

𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘𝚘...

it was a long day of waiting when my turn came they were intruducing a female member who could dance, sing and rap...

thinking about these i entered the building...

it was like a dream come true ... huge posters all over the place eveything so beautiful...

(𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓲𝓽... 𝓲 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓲𝓷)

there was three rounds of audition

talent round

languages

physical and mental management

the first round started my roll was called, i got inside the auditorium...

it was like a korean drama scene,

directors seated in front, a dark auditorium, me standing in the middle of the stage completely blank all the bright lights focused on me...

through the light i could only see a few people sitting in front, but i could sense there were way more people sitting there..

i was asked to introduce myself by an anonymous voice,

but i couldn't understand, not knowing korean well was making it very hard...

i took a wide guess and introduced myself in english and added that i dont know korean very nicely....

(𝓼𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓵𝔂 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓴𝓸𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓷 𝓲 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓭 𝓾𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓴-𝓭𝓻𝓪𝓶𝓪 🤦‍♀️)

still they asked me to start i was confident about this round... i sat on the grand piano and sang a song and prayed for them to like it...

within 10 minutes i was in the waiting room they asked me to go back and wait for the results...

it was 1 at night when my phone rang i was still awake out if excitement that what was going to happen...

(𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙪𝙡𝙩𝙨 𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙤𝙪𝙩!!!)

i was trembling, what if i didn't got in... right now i wanted to be in as if it was a matter of life and death.

i opened my phone ,there it was the list!!!

i swaped through it but couldn't find my name the list ended but my name was not there

it was horrible my eyes were all filled with tears and was about to drop when i saw there was another list with no title, just a list of candidates who were asked to report tomorrow morning...

i was shocked i didn't know what was going on...

i had mixed emotions, i was excited, confused, sad and happy at the same time...

(𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰)

it was 7 am when i woke up and was to follow my tour routine when i realized what actually happened yesterday... it was not a dream i was actually invited to the bighit studio for real this time...

i got ready and rushed to the place.. i was in such a hurry that i didn't realise i was an hour early..

i went inside and was shocked😳😳😳

i was shocked, there they were getting out of there vans incredibly handsome 𝙗𝙩𝙨!!! they were coming towards me as if i am the only person in this world left..... what should i do (𝓹𝓪𝓷𝓲𝓬! 𝓹𝓪𝓷𝓲𝓬! 𝓹𝓪𝓷𝓲𝓬! ) thats when my eyes met another in front , a beautiful dark brown pair looking straight through me as if my heart would explode.....i couldn't see anymore features of the face as the lights at the back were too bright but his eyes caught me in the moment..

i was stunned and completely blank just admiring the beauty when i felt a kink on my neck and realised i have been staring them badly throughout and my neck is twist to its extreme

.. that was embarrassing yet pleasing...

(𝓲𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓲 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓸 𝓽𝓸 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓪𝓵 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽 𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓶𝓮𝓪𝓷𝓽)

i approached the gate and was going in.. it was the same auditorium just this time i was entering through the seats...

i was at the back when i noticed that the members were actually sitting there..

i wondered were they there even in the first round...

finally the time came for the reveal..

𝚍𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚘𝚛: those five candidates who are present here have passed the language round as the aur well aquinted with foreign languages...

now they will be working on there korean languge while performing for the third and last round...

the last round is the most important round here we will be checking ur management skills as well as relationships with the other members out of the five only one will be selected at the end of this month who would debut along the bts as the new member from the next album...

(𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓮𝓼𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓫𝓮𝓭 𝓪 𝓼𝓮𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓻𝓾𝓵𝓮𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓲𝓬𝓱 𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓵𝓾𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓭𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰, 𝓬𝓸𝓿𝓲𝓭 𝓷𝓸𝓻𝓶𝓼 𝓮𝓽𝓬.)

the was turning into a dream, i never imagined being this close to bts...

the plan:

we 5 candidates will be given a dormitory beside the dormitory of bts .. we will be practicing and training along with them the mentors will be monitoring us the whole time we have to be perfect, build our relationship with the team members and the crew ...

as this all was feeling like a dream i realised i am still standing and my name is being called..

we are being provided by the training letters...

the event ended i really tried to get a glance at the members but was unable to..

(𝓲𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰)

i can back at the hotel and opened the letter and read it keenly..

it mentioned the same rules as before and at last was an address (𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓪𝓭𝓭𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓸𝓻𝓶𝓲𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂) i wanted the whole world to know about it i was so happy but we were asked to keep things confidential so i couldn't speak about it to anyone..

the day ended with me packing and dancing in happiness...

i was nervous as well as excited for the next day...

the first day of my training😍😍

(𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰)

i couldn't sleep last night , i was too excited .. i reached the dormitory a bit early with all my things.. it was a huge place with gardens around and two big buildinds in the middle.. in the excitement i forgot which building i was supposed to get into.. so i took a vague guess and started walking towards the right building, thats when i tripped but someone caught me... the same pair of eyes😳😳

i slipped but i didnt felt pain on falling. someone held on to me. the same person, this time i have to see who it was.. as i blocked the sun to see clearly i could see a smiling face looking at me 𝙞𝙞𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙩𝙩𝙨𝙨𝙨 𝙟𝙟𝙟𝙪𝙣𝙣𝙠𝙤𝙤𝙠!!!!

i was mesmerized by just looking at him ,the knight in shining armor saving my day ❤❤ thats when i heard a voice asking me to stand and realised i am still in his arms tilted towards the ground..

it was enough to make my face go red for the whole day.. i got up

and shyly said kamsahibnida (thanku)

..

junkook smiled and looked at me and he was shocked ... you, i remember u... nice to meet you again!

i was amazed it was like the world wants me to be happy...

(𝓵𝓮𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓱𝔂 𝓱𝓮 𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓫𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓭)

𝕥𝕨𝕠 𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕜𝕤 𝕒𝕘𝕠...

i finally got the ticket to the fan sign.. i am so happy.. i prepared the gifts i wanted to give them which were there pictures that i drew

i was excited to see their reactions .. i got ready wore a cute dress and went to the location... it was really crowded we all saw them arrive and sit they all were looking so cute all in seokjins colour pink💗

..

after few minutes it was finally my time first one sitting was namjoon with his cute dimples.. i went and greeted him with a smile.it was hard to keep my heart from fluttering... i was scared they might hear my heart beating out loud.. he greeted me back and asked for my name i told him my name and he asked me where was i from i told him that i am an i-army, he smiled and complimented me that i was pretty 💞 my heart just skipped a beat listening that from him was tood precious for me.. i gave him the drawing i made and he was surprised to see it he showed it to jin who was sitting beside him who was aslo amazed.. i didn't know how to react i could just see their surprised expression untill he turned to me and thanked me say its really beautiful and he will keep it with him... now it was time for me to move, i moved to jin . .. he was already smiling at me as he asked my name.. he was looking so handsome that i couldn't resist but compliment him.. he got shy and did aegyo and asked do i..

he is the cutest..

i gave him the drawing (𝓪𝓼 𝓲 𝓶𝓪𝓭𝓮 𝓪 𝓼𝓮𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂 𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓫𝓮𝓻 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝔀𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶 𝓲𝓷 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓷) he told me that he liked it alot and complimented that it was really beautiful as i am.. that made me so shy that i might have fever..

next i moved to yoongiiiiiii!!

he was there sitting with a gummy smile.. i introduced myself and gave him the drawing.. i thought taking with him will be very formal but it was rather different as he gave me a chocolate on his desk complementing me and wishing to meet again. i was shocked because people generally doesnt show this side of him which was actually quite cute and soft..