I like him since time immemorial. He's my friend cousin. We have something in common. Never did i avoided him nor kept my feelings secret. I was never discreet, i'm actually very vocal about it.

Ever since i met Alexander, my life turn upside down that all my principles jump out of the window, and all my standards vanished like a bubbles.

And never did i like someone after meeting him.

Because Creed Alexander Montegro is incomparable...

"If you leave me, don't expect me to accept you again" he said.

"If you're gonna break up with me, this will be the last time you'll ever see me"

"If you still want to break up with me, then we no longer know each other"

I cried. I know that, i already knew that. Still i nodded. He sighed, his eyes were red and jaws are tightened. He took his breath then turned his back on me. He left.

I cried, i shouted all my pain after he left, i punched the floor till my hand hurt and bleed. I pour my heart out.

"Done crying?" i look up and saw him

He gave me his hand....

I took it, little did i know he was guiding me to another depths of hell.

if only i could turn back time, i will never accept that devil's hand.

...

"You are not marrying that guy! For christ sake Naya!" she shouted angrily like her veins are about to pop.

I kept my eyes closed, i'm desperate but i made up my mind.

"Chance is a good guy, you know"

She sighed.

"I know! but you don't love that man, the one you--"

"Stop" i don't want to hear it. We were done, he let go of me completely. I shouldn't stick to him that much. I did that already, sticking to him like a plague but look what it made me.

The years i spent, the efforts i did. All of it are enough.

I stared at my cousin, funny how she's more concerned and pained than i am.

"Stop giving me that look"

when i said that, her tears fell.

I chuckled. "Why are you crying?" i asked. She shrugged and brushed away her tears.

"I don't like this"

I smiled painfully, I don't like this too, nor want it.

"Hey!" the door opened and Silver came. He was gasping, looks like he run all the way from here.

"What did you just announced?!" he spat at me angrily. More angry than Maze.

"I-im getting married" i whispered but enough for him to hear it.

"What the *** are you thinking Nayaline! you declined your marriage to his brother when your parents are still alive! you declined your supposed to be marriage because you don't love the guy and now, you are f*king marrying his brother?!"

Every words he said pierced through my heart.

When my parents are alive, when i still have my someone.

"Have you gone mad?!Tell me, did he forced you? look we can talk to--"

"Please stop, don't involve him here anymore." i want to plead, i just want then to stop thinking about us.

I just want to move on, like him. I want to continue with my life without much care for the past.

"Silver.." i look at him in the eyes.

"I'm hurting too" and my tears fell.

They said, it's a man's world. Being ambitious.

But i am too, being a woman doesn't stop me for achieving what i want.

Ever since i was a child, i want to be on top. I run for the highest position in high school but failed because a president council should be a guy, and im a girl i can't handle it, they said. I was so angry, so angry about people mindset. Im smart, im good at whatever situation. I want to soar so much so when i graduated cum laude fo my post college i took the entrance examination for law. I didn't tell my family, i just did and when i passed and told them im enrolled.

My parents got mad, the want me to run our company but business is not my cup of tea.

I don't really know what i want, law school is something new and challenging so i tried. Maybe i can finally find myself in this profession.

I told my mom, im going to try and i promised them if after a semester i failed. I will finally work. She agreed, thinking i will soon get bored like i used to.

But i know myself, i know this time. I won't.

"C'mon Alex, tell me some advice." I accidentally saw him here in the book store. And when i said accidentally, i mean it. Of course he won't believe me, this guy is full of himself sometimes.

He sighed.

"Study" he simply said and then he turned his back on me. His hobby, always avoiding me. Tsk, tsk.

and of course being who i am, im not gonna let him leave.

"Tell me, who's book i should buy? for crim and oblicon?"

"Jurado for crim, De leon for oblicon" He walked passed by me. Scanning every books as if he's interested to all of it, but i know Creed Alexander. He' s doing this on purpose.

I took the book of De leon and Jurado. They were big and heavy, which i didn't expect. They were thick but i didn't think they could be heavy like this.

"Creed!" suddenly someone called his name. I saw a group of guys walking towards us. my eyes automatically focused on the white paper girl that is smiling hugely while looking at Creed. And i think she's also the one who called him 'Creed'

My Creed Alexander system told me that this one is a competitor.

"Hey" They greeted each other. Looks like they're Creed's mate. The others left but the paper girl didn't. She keeps on asking things, she keeps on blabbering and i remain standing at creed side rolling my eyes back and forth.

I felt my hands getting numb and back stiffed so i lean on the bookshelves put my feet apart. Sideways.

Creed looked at me without any expression, his stares landed at my books. To my surprise he took my books and carry it. My mouth parted, the paper girl look shocked.

Then he started walking towards the counter. I tailed him, can't believe he did that. I blushed and smiled, C'mon Creed, i know you care. The years of stalking you paid huh? not much but still a progress.

"Aunt, I'm going!" i shouted as i run through the stairs. It's my first day of being a law student! Finally.

"You haven't had your breakfast yet!"

I was putting my shoe when she pop out from the kitchen. I sighed, immediately walk towards her and kissed her cheeks.

"I'll grab a food when i get there, bye!"

"School" i muttered as my butt hit the car's seat. 

They said, first impression doesn't last but they still mattered. So i dressed neatly and   elegantly.

Wore a white longsleeve underneath my peach coat and a slacks.

I bun my hair, readied my bag and books. I look my self at the car mirror. Damn, i'm good.

C'mon, let's get it.

..

It was 20 minutes before my class starts when i arrived. Better be on time i said at the back of my mind when i saw our class with only few people sitting on their perspective chair.

Minutes later, most of the seats were taken. I was nervous, i kept tapping my fingers on my desk when half an hour passed, the proffesor is still not here.

I can feel my head throbbing, i hate this. But i remained compose. I do not want to ruin my day.

Most of the people decided to go out, some of them said the prof will not attend today.

"Hey, don't you want grab a coffee? Our teacher will not attend class today" A girl approached me, i smiled are her.

"Are you sure?" i asked.

She chuckled. "Actually, not"

I shrugged, "I'm good" she nodded and mutter 'okay'

Better be safe than sorry, waiting for few more minutes or hours won't matter. Our class for today is 6 hours, the prof is late for about 40 minutes.  There's still a lot of time.

I decided to open my book, advance reading.

Yet, i finished digesting one case and still no teacher.

I look at my wrist watch and it says 2 O'clock. What the fuck, i missed breakfast and lunch for a deceitful Professor?!

With a heavy heart, i marched out of the class room.

Damn it, im getting grumpy. My belly's nosy as fck and the impression i wanted to give vanished.

Then i saw Creed. Immediately run towards him.

He's wearing his usual outfit.

Black slacks and white polo with glasses on his eyes that matches his aristocratic nose.  His hair is in rightful places, not long but not too short that complimented his sharp jaw.

"Creed!" he acted as if he didn't hear me. I sighed. Whatever, you asked for this.

"Creed Alexander Morgan!" i shouted that most of the students looked at me with judgement, yeah i forgot this is a campus of law, everyone is in chaos but still reserved. I roll my eyes.

I smirked when he stopped and when he did, i grab the chance to corner him.

"Where are you going?" i asked.

"Library"

"What will you do there?"

"Study" he always answer me like he's getting his head cut and he's just force to open his mouth.

"Wanna grab a food?"  i didn't want to sound desperate but my voice still did.

Finally, he look at me. I gave him a puppy eyes.

Sighing, he started walking once again.

"Creed please?"

"No, I'm busy"

"Come on! the school just started you can't be that busy!"

"I'm not a freshman like you" he spat with his brow furrowed. That actually shut me up.

I bit my lip. "I'm just really hungry, i missed breakfast and lunch"

"Not my fault" it made my chest hurt even more.

" None of my professor attended class today"

"It's first week, lawyers dont go to school when it's first week"

My jaw dropped. "Why didn't you tell me?!" i look at him with sinister eyes. He lift his one brow, what a snob.

"You didn't asked" he simply said.

"But still! you could have told me when we met at the bookstore!"

He shrugged his head and started walking again.

"You owe me this!" i stood up infront of him so he could stop, deliberately making him step backward.

"If only you told me in advance i won't get starve like this!" I grab his available hand and marched to who knows where. I just want to eat him-- i mean eat

with him, damn it.

"Shit" the only thing he could say.

I smiled, i won. Again.