Being with single parent and two younger sister I am really feeling depressed from family situation. Due to which I couldn’t even join any university till now uff I am really tired of life😪.

Janaury 18

Early in morning I am feeling pain in my neck. Oh god why it is now tonsil. I am real foody so i really hate tonsil😅Now I don’t even wanna wake up.But I always have to cook food for my sister early. Now that their is already leftover food from night I really wanna sleep but but but god i really think this tonsil has come in our family as family package. So after visiting clinic along with my sister I was really able to eat and then my mom said we have to go to hotel avenue for interview.

Now its time to go to Xcity for hotel interview.I am really looking forword for it and little bit excited. But it can be counted as visit. Actually my mom had known some from that hotel so she came to know their is job available. Gosh with the decent look which i tried a lot to look, I and my mom went to hotel.

I had already seen that hotel but outside building it is about 5floor . After we arive at city we went infront the hotel. Infront is small parking space along with beautiful floor ani than stair leads to door in 3steps. In the cornor of the door outside a small but beautiful fountain with God ganesha statue is kept. It was really beautiful.Than the guard dai(in nepali we call elders with dai) open the door which leads to lobby and infront is a reception.It was mine first time visit to hotel and such a grand enough for me the lighting,painting,people,respect and many more. We were told to sit down. Their was a person with blue court with marriageable age.He informs the person inside a look with the strict looks like our math teacher,he welcomed us warmly and offer coffee and sofa. Then that time i know the person mom was talking is actually the owner of the hotel ave nue and single owner any i was confident enough and was seletected.

I was looking forward to work and its environment.I was called for feb 1. It was still some so i went to aunt’s home for refreshment and on 30janaury i returned home. For tommorow work i have to wear black pant and blank coat with white shirt. Hehe and these things are not in my budget but dad left some of them and they do perfectly fit me. OMG why i am being fatty daily huhuhu (says who the one who has been having cake continuously) why daddy’s pant is tight anyway one of them fits me thank goodness.Gosh i am already 75kg which is another depressing thing as per my society and the best thing is my height i.e. 5.7 feet but looking at some of my crush who are smaller than me it is just another depressing thing.......

Now its the day of my job their is something going I really have no idea what it is but I am feeling something different anyway we will see what come.Now I gets ready and wait for the bus.

Finally One thing is coming on right time the bus. Anyway i am really sleepy. I am gonna sit in window and I really get that as bus is nearly empty.I sleep easily in bus losing all my gaurd when I wake up,the station was near by and I feel as if i have a nice sleep ummmmmmm what I was sleeping on the shoulder of the GUY.

And the song that I was listening through my earphone was really romantic enough.Gosh he really look like a famous star.Literally I have never seen a handsome guy like him to say as sleeping beauty.Now their my station come.It was really awkward moment but anyway I makes its look like ntg happen and come down but to my surprise that guy is following me .Is god on my side??????Anyway I cannot misunderstand as I look normal but with my look it can be consider good which i am thinking.Hehe but could he be any threat looking at him it was all the top brand company’s product I hope it may be duplicate as with those brands he shouldn’t be travelling in bus again these thinking arise.

But I am really worried he is literally following me and I think I should confront him but I guess it will be easier outside the hotel. Infront of gate i stop and he wasn’t shock to see that.Hey why the hell you are following me??in some kind of angry tone and little confident in own looks(please first look at the mirror)anyway I confront.But why this guy isn’t shock instead he chuckle and went forward guard open the door they seems friendly as if he is working their gosh now my confident level is down.

Anyway I think i have to face with him everyday ,I feel awkward but went in bravely with a face with fake smile as it is hotel smile is a rule but after dead of my father I have never had such innocent and true smile from heart but i have to put these fake smile so to not make mommy worry......

I was paused in the thought then a husky(sexy) voice said not coming in,I look up and then was our eyes meet those hazel eyes with about 6 ft height and fine body more fine than guy of our age and that is the guy on which shoulder i had slept on for about one hour,the guy whom i accused of stalking and the guy who is going to be my colleague I guess is speaking and asking me. But no idea i feel my heartbeat louder I was feeling hot and blushing ,gosh now I am blessed or cursed with the GUY.

After those awkward moment I finally make courage to enter the hotel for my first day of job.

Now I am inside MD office actually the moment I entered their start a briefing or something like to get scold by the principal in his office but i thought I won’t be scold as I am new but but but the moment I enter, everyone’s eyes are fixed on me as if i am the Empress of any country and they stare at me like owl.Now it is really really awkward situation.(how many time i use this awkward word but this is really my feeling)

As the incident with the guy had already made my confident less now they looking at me like this my body is heating up and my cheeks have already turned red,I am really feeling cold.Then a cool and that husky voice come from my back,that guy with a smile pure as a gold bring us water and offer me first.At that time I really wanna thank him apark from the situation before. Then the Md starts to tell about our unifrom then the first thing he sees is my tie. Literally I guess I am just new how could i had tie ready apart from dress.Then he infroms us to be in perfect uniform but I really wanna ask him about this tie at that moment. Then a chuckles sound arise from the direction where that guy was who was looking at me as if he had listened my thoughts may be he got that as I was continuously staring at the neck of MD sir.

Then My duty which is like a punishment was to stand at the door ,open the door ,great the customer saying namaste sir(greeting word in nepali)and to guide them.

After some time I saw him yes the guy what is he doing.How can a person clean glass door with cloth hehehe now its my turn to chuckle that i had already done.As i had already seen some of old news paper their I give him that and do some demo to show him.He is really lively person.Everyone seems to like him and maybe also me.What I am thinking??Quickly retreat from staring at him.But looking at him their is different aura some thing that comes from big person anyway it isn’t movie to see a star doing these work.

I am tired.Their is pain over my feet due to which sometime I am walking or standing but I guess I shouldn’t sit down as it is my first day at my job not my home.More than pain I am really hungry its lunch time and i even hadn’t had my breakfast.To have lunch it was like turn by turn. I have no idea when will be my turn then suddenly a feeling of someone being near so close and a husky voice at my ear saying you can go to have lunch i will watch for you.Ohhh mister plz maintain your distance inside me but i am happy finally food,my love.Hearing this a smile appear in my face then as we all know the guy who told me is that guy anyway I should thank him by doing that then I went downstairs.Again the moment I enter the room everyone’s eyes fixed at me with curious as who is she.Then I take a plate wash it as it look dirty and then have mine lunch.Everyone left and I was left alone to have lunch I feel really lonely at that time then he come the guy. He sits besides me along with him their were some aunties of house cleaning with a great smiles and welcomed me.Now finally its the thing I have been wanted and waiting from morning to be welcomed on my first day.The guy their is giving me feeling as angel,its feel like their is lot of more good things in the world.I have no idea but his smile makes me happy ,makes me fight ,makes me live my life with that pure smile.