sometimes this particular thought come in mind that what if I never had any talent or what if I was not beautiful or have any good looks or what if my parents had loved me like I was the most precious treasure in the world and then a never ending series of what ifs came across in my mind ……….

You know, it is a nature of a human being to desire things they don’t have even if they don’t particularly need it in their life or they desire things they can never covet but is being greedy a bad thing ………………………………………….

I am Alisha the only thing I have to cherish is my music. I love my music very dearly I think loving music is the only thing I do wilfully, or will I have something more to love like I do for my music………..

I suddenly opened my eyes and found myself on my bed and let a sigh out”How long has it been that I felt like this, I feel listless. I think I soon have to find my inspiration “I get off from my bed and head towards bathroom after taking bath and freshen up myself, I ate my breakfast and started getting ready for my college, it’s not like I am particularly picky or anything but yeah I don’t dress up like wearing bunch of random cloths together. I live alone in an apartment and do a part-time job in a hotel as a waitress of course I also give performances if they need it but only for extra money to pay rent and other things as for college fee I have scholarship since I am in musical department and apparently they think I am good at singing and writing lyrics.

As long as I remember there is only one person I think of as a family member is our orphanage caretaker Mrs lea or nanny lea because she is the only person whom I can open up to, in front of I didn’t have to be on my guard, I can be myself.

When I was on my way for college I suddenly saw a poster “Rising Idol ……. Show your talent and become new idol of your city……” cool but wait a second “Age limit 6-16 “ I think I am way too older to participate since I am 20 year old but I think I remember something yeah I was 7 or 8 at that time our orphanage organised a combine celebration for 50th anniversary of orphanage with other orphanage and that was the first time I sang though it was only a nursery rhyme but everyone was so happy I think that was the first time I smiled wholeheartedly. I don’t want to gain fame I just ….. I just want to be happy and see other smile because of me when I can fulfil that, which will be the day I will achieve aim of my life I guess…….

I reached my college while thinking about these sweet adorable memories and then the bell rang so I started running

[Oops! I think I am late I should have set my alarm]

Then I suddenly bumped into someone…..

“Ouch…….” [Alisha]

“Watch where you are going…….” [??????]

“I am sorry…..I am in hurry” [Alisha]

I ran away from there without even looking who was that and rushed towards my classroom.

“What a wearied girl” [??????]

I quickly entered in my classroom and sit on my place” Finally I have arrived” I let out a sigh of relief and started to concentrate what was going in my class.

“Hey what are you wring on the board?” [S1]

“Shhh! Don’t talk too loudly I am writing something important, you know what I mean right” [S2]

“Teacher will scold us dumb. How many times do you want to be scolded by her” [S1]

I guess they are doing their silly prank again. I think it’s almost every day whenever it was Miss Tara’s class. After wasting my time on that useless argument I started focusing on my study. I am neither a straight A student nor a poor student I just study enough to maintain my scholarship. Although I don’t have any big dream but I want to have decent job so that I can have enough money to have a comfortable life in future.

As always miss came on time and started our class ……………..

RING!!!!!!!!!

Bell rang and it was our lunch time I took my bag and started to head out from class, I always skip my second half because of my part time job and also college dean knows about my condition and allowed me to do so I was just heading out but I heard an awful nickname of mine stopped……

“ShaSha! Hey stop their?!” [#######]

“Really you are calling me with that disgusting nickname and what is the meaning of this ShaSha anyway” [Alisha]

“Of course it has a meaning! Don’t you get it I am trying to embarrass you and making fun of you SHASHA!!!!!” [######]

Yeah I knew it and I am really annoyed really really annoyed he is my childhood sweetheart aka childhood friend Roy we grew up together in orphanage he is actually 2 years older than me but he always behave like a child I remember, when we were little he used to be very sweet and adorable child but now look at him….. He became such a melodramatic, narcissist, self-centred, self obsessed, Aaaaaaah! I think I am short of adjectives to describe him well in short he is an idiot yeah literary a big idiot.

“Ok enough with these useless jokes, why did you stop me?” [Alisha]

“Well nothing in particular just wanted to ask you where you are going” [Roy]

“And why is that any of your business?! Do you need something from me?” [Alisha]

“Hey why are you so cold towards me and no one but only me did I do something bad to you in my past life” [Roy]

“No you didn’t but do you really want to know why I am like this towards you?” [Alisha]

“Yeah” [Roy]

“Then listen carefully that’s because you are a BIG IDIOT!”[Alisha]

“Hey! Where are you going? After insulting me like that stop right there!!!” [Roy]

I ran out from there and rushed towards my work place and changed my dress according to my work.

Its bustling here, l have been working here for 2 years. I started working here when I was in my middle school and I got used to it well it’s not new now.

So I started doing my work as usual suddenly I noticed that there was some ruckus was going over the performing stage so I asked my co-worker what is happening.

“Hey! What’s happening over there?”[Alisha]

“I think that the performer who was supposed to come today didn’t come so that’s why the customer and manager are arguing” [c1]

“Oh so it’s like that!”[Alisha]

Well it’s nothing new, sometimes it happens and sometimes I perform as a substitute, and make some extra cash out of it but sometimes the customers are not satisfied even if I played well they have this particular status mind so they always go on and on about my filthy background not listening my performance. Anyway I continued my work suddenly heard footsteps and look back and saw manager walking towards me.

“What happened Sir?” [Alisha]

“Alisha um…. the thing is that….” [Manager]

“Let me guess! You need a substitute to perform right?”[Alisha]

“Yes! Can you do it? I will pay you extra ok”[Manager]

“OK it’s not like I have any problem and I will get paid at that”[Alisha]

“Thank you!!”[Manager]

Well, it’s good that I get to do something I am interested in and which make me feel good rather than working only to get paid and make a living, I quickly went to the locker where our personal stuffs are and opened a box and wore the dress which was in it, a beautiful ivory dress with rainbow coloured butterfly sticking on it giving a feeling of blooming flower which was surrounded by countless butterflies because of its emerging sweet and alluring scent. Suddenly a memory flashes through my mind when I was little one day I was playing in the garden and far away there was a couple who were sitting under a tree and was crying and saying….

“If our daughter and granddaughter were alive we could have gone somewhere and could have had a very beautiful memory” [old lady]

“I know but what we can do…” [Old man]

Then they take out a box from their bag and put that under that tree and said…

“Happy Birthday dear I know how you loved butterflies and always say dad I want to be like a butterfly it may live short but no one can deny its beauty and no one can forget its colourful presence so I gift you this” [Old Man]

So they put that box and left I couldn’t keep my curiosity inside and took the box away and saw this beautiful dress and couldn’t resist myself to keep it since then those word and this dress I buried it in my heart and promise myself that I become someone so memorable that no ocan ever forget me……..

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