"That's all for today. You may do your assignments by the particular date."

No sooner has the teacher left the class than Young-ho jumps out from his seat and runs towards the library.

It certainly doesn't mean he has a huge affection towards the books. Actually Kim Young-ho doesn't really like to study at all. Books are 'sleeping pills' to him. But this fellow has a great talent in painting and that's the second thing which he loves.

The first thing...? That's a person who spends most of his time at library as he is actually a book-lover. And that's the reason that Young-ho rushes to library after every single class! Young ho has a long time crush on that "books lover"- Jung Ji-ho. He is in the same major as Young-ho but Young-ho really has a doubt whether he knows him or not!

Young ho doesn't have a plan on telling him about his feelings or introducing himself to Jiho. He just loves to stand in a corner and stare at that person who can't even be bothered by anyone's existence or this whole goddamn world!

Young somehow thinks that he doesn't deserve that person. Jiho is just perfect. In studies, in sports , in every aspects. Most importantly, those beautiful eyes which is a reflection of his pure heart. Youngho just can't help the fact but keep staring at him. Those few moments between two classes are the reason that Youngho comes every single day at college. Those moments contain just two of them. Although the other person has no idea of Youngho, still he enjoys every single moment.

"hey, Young, what's up?"

Young-ho surprises at the sudden call.

"hey, Seri, what're you doing here?"

Seri is one and only friend Young ho has. But it doesn't even bother him cause he knew from the very first day none would like him after they come to know he is gay. In his town there isn't much people who accepts the fact but Seri is different.She believes that love doesn't depend on gender and people shouldn't judge this fact.

"You runs out in a hurry so I thought something has happened so I came to check."

"Oh! that's nothing..."

"You're here for Jiho,right?"

"You know it all~"

"So, do you ever plan on telling him or not?"

"It will make no difference in our relationship even if I tell him. He doesn't even know me, Seri. How can I just confess my feelings?"

"But you will never know what can be his answer if you don't tell him. You can't just stand here your entire life!"

"I know....."

"Well, I guess we should head towards our class."

"You go first. I will come later."

Youngho's brain is now filled with what Seri said earlier. He just doesn't know what to do. He is stucked in a war of his mind and brain.

"NOOO!! PLEASE DON'T HURT ME. PLEASE~"

Young ho jumps out from his bed . Heavy breath & heartbeats fill his bedroom.

"Oh!God!!!! What I've done to deserve all this? Have I done anything wrong? Why I'm having this nightmare again & again?"

Next day at school~

"Hey, Young what happened? why are you so down today?"

"I had that nightmare again last night."

"Again? I really hope that I could be with you at that time. I would beat the bastards!"

"Can you tell me,Seri if I've done any sin? Why I've been remembering this everytime? "

"You've done nothing wrong. It's all their fault. They should feel guilty. If I ever meet them , I'll teach them a good lesson. Don't worry, I'm with you. I'll always be."

"Thanks , Seri. You're the only person whom I can rely on."

"Don't worry, let's go to class."

"hm.."

Library~

"WHAT THE HELL!" Jiho groaned," The weather reporters are of no use. They should have mentioned about the rain. How can one assume just by seeing towards that sunny sky?! I don't have umbrella. What the heck will I do now?"

After some rantings , Jiho leaves the library.

"Shit! I should have come earlier. It's all because of that professor."

"Now, stop this. You can be able to see him at break time, dude. Why are you being sulky?"

Youngho's grumpy face becomes more sulky after hearing this. He has to wait until that goddamn break to see Jiho. It annoys him a lot.

Classroom~

"Hey, Jiho, can you please help me out with this?"

"What's it Yeona?"

"It's from last day's quiz."

"Let me see."

As Seri & Youngho enter the classroom Youngho sees Jiho & Yeona standing real close.

"Ohhhh! What's with this burning smell?"

"Seri, don't joke around. I really hate this girl. She is always sticking with Jiho."

"Even if she is sticking, I don't think there's anything wrong. Jiho isn't in any kind of relationship."

The word "relationship" hits Youngho pretty hard. In his mind he's suffering much. He can't handle it if Jiho starts hating him after knowing that he's gay. Half of his mind wants to tell him about his feelings & the other half can't take the risk. He is totally confused between this thoughts.

While leaving the classroom Jiho is still grumpy all about the rain. But as he open his locker he stands there all shocked.....

There is a black umbrella in his locker and a small note-

" Take this & stop making that face."

-Youngho

"*Why did he keep this for me? "

3 days later~

"Who told you to be a goddamn hero? Why did you give him your umbrella?! "

"Don't yell at me, Seri. I'm fine now. Don't worry."

"If you are okay , why didn't you attend the classes for 3 DAYS?!"

"Okay, please stop yelling at me now."

"Okay. But promise me you'll get better real soon . I missed you."

"Okay, I promise. I miss you too."

After hanging up, Youngho lies down on his bed. He is missing that corner of library, most precisely he's missing Jiho. He can't be able to see him for a long time . While sulking about this , he receives a message....

"Thank you."

He can't believe in his eyes . it's really from JIHO-JUNG JIHO!!!!!!!

Youngho jumps out from his bed from excitement and reread the message again & again. He can't wait for the next day to come.

"Thank you, God! " He cries in excitement.

After a short break , Youngho ultimately makes it to school.

"So how are you feeling right now, Mr. hero?"

"Hey, stop mocking me like that. I'm good enough now."

"Oh, I see...Mr.hero"

"heyyyyyyyyy,SERI!!!!! "

Youngho stops yelling as Jiho enters the class.

"Hey, Jiho... what's up?"

"I've solved the problems for you, Yeona, have a look."

"Oh!!! Thanks a lottttttttt, dear..."

DEAR?!!!!!!!!!

Youngho yells inside,"What right does she have to call him that?! She must be crazy & why the hell is Jiho smiling like a fool?!"

"Hey, buddy ,don't make that face. It seems that you're gonna kill her."

"I'll SURELY DO IT it if I get a chance ever!"

Seri kinds of drag him to his seat for the sake of Yeona who doesn't even know about this whole thing.

But suddenly Yeona comes to Youngho & says ," Jiho told me to give you this."

That black umbrella!!

Youngho sits there all shocked & even forgets to thank Yeona.

There is a storm forming inside him... A storm of a bunch of questions...

"Am I really a stranger to him? Is it so hard for him to give that umbrella by himself? He also hates me, right? Am I that bad as a person? "

This questions are seeking the answers inside his mind but don't get one. It only makes his heart heavy. He can't handle the situation. He can't handle himself. He can't ... He wants to hide his feelings from Jiho, from everyone in this world. He wants to hide himself in a corner. But he can't.... That's why the cloud inside him hide itself to resist the rain through it.

"Hey, are you okay? Youngho?!"

"Seri, I want to be alone right now."

"Who said you that you can get everything you want? I'm not leaving you. I can't..."

Youngho can't resist anymore. He starts crying....

"Seri, why do they hate me? Am I that bad? Jiho also hates me..."

"Stop crying. Even though the whole goddamn world is in another side, I'll always be by your side. I'll always be."

"Thanks Seri. You're the only one I have."

"Now, stop crying..."

"Okay"

Although the clouds inside him get clearer but the agony remain the same. He can't stop thinking about Jiho. He wants to resist his feelings towards him. All of his confidence starts to decrease from "I love him" to "I like him".

But, love isn't easy to handle. It's like drugs. It will make one yarn for it. It's like a habit, one that none will want to correct it whether it's good or bad. It's a storm of thousands feelings together. It makes the heart win over the brain. It gives us hope & the reasons to live.

Youngho isn't an exception.He can't deny his feelings cause they are irresistible. Although he can't let the other person know about this still he wants to bury his feelings deep inside of his heart.

That love of him for Jiho gives him the ultimate confidence. Confidence on his feelings & on HIMSELF....