Only a few care about our existence, in this world we might not even matter to anyone.

Slowly we fade away, like an insignificant piece of memory.

" I don't wanna fade away...like that. " I said softly looking out of the window, staring at a poor kitten, shivering in the harsh, cold weather.

Someday it might die, probably no one would even bother too save it.

" Hah..!! "

Would it also be hoping for a sunny day like me? Should I just save it? Someone will be there to give me company too.

These thoughts kept lingering inside my mind.

"Oh looks like it doesn't need me now..."

A little girl around 8 or 9 yrs came skipping towards it and bent down. She scooped it up in her little arms and cuddled it. The bright smile on her face which was incomparable to anything, the joy that she must've felt, the hope that she gave to the lil cat made my heart bloom with love.

Even though I was a little sad inside but it was all for the best, since my parents wouldn't let me keep it anyway.

Hmm...it was unusually quiet did my two childish parents, a sorry excuse for adults die or something. Let's just go and check on them.

I wasn't even halfway down the stairs and I could already feel that it was a really bad decision. The black fumes of hatred and disgust and the gloomy weather outside felt so suffocating.

Ugh...let them be, I will just sneak out from the back door. I have no energy to have a duel with both of them today.

After grabbing my jacket I tip toed and opened the door softly. Luckily it did not make any creaking sound.

......***......

Phew....breathing in the fresh air felt so good. Even though it was a little chilly, it was much better than staying in those enclosed walls.

A soft breeze brushed against my cheek, feeling like a light touch of a hand caressing my skin.

The pitch black sky and the empty roads without a single soul to be seen made the whole neighborhood give off a creepy vibe.

Sigh...anything to get away from those two. I fastened my footsteps hoping that this storm would also calm down like always.

I wish someone would also be there to be my sunshine.

Just as that thought passed through my mind, I heard a voice from behind me.

"Hey!! excuse me."

I froze in my steps. There wasn't supposed to be anyone, I pretty much made sure of that.

How come this person approached me without a single noise.?

"Hey, didn't you hear me?!!..."

I flinched at the sound of his voice. He sounded impatient.

I shut my eyes and took a deep breath. Clearing all my wavering thoughts, I slowly turned around and asked bluntly - "Yea, what do you want?!.."

There was no need to be polite to a stranger.

We both stared at each other for a bit, observing ourselves from head to bottom.

Apart from being extremely handsome like a male lead that jumped right out from a manhwa, he looked really tired while dragging a big suitcase behind him.

I tilted my head a bit....hm...is he new here?

Maybe. It's none of my business anyways. I just wanna have some peace.

Looking at him closely, his demeanor and appearance, strangely felt really familiar like we had met before. His eyes which were as black as obsidian, for some reason made me think that they hid a lot of secrets behind them.

A chill went down my spine, seems like a piece of bad memory!

Ahh...I wasn't in any place to judge him, but still couldn't get rid of that habit.

Leather jacket, piercings, classic white tee and that laid-back baddass look...a typical bad boy huh cool !!

But that wasn't of my concern..

Why isn't he speaking? I thought he wanted to ask me something. But now we both stood there like fools with him having this perplexed and shocked expression plastered on his face.

Am I that scary?...haizz

Oh god...seriously, say something. I don't have all day to stand here to catch a cold and be sick the next day.!!

Annoyed, I snapped my fingers right in front of his face to bring him back to reality.

" Hey! if you ain't got anything to say, imma leave. "

He blinked a couple of times, and shaked his head as if just breaking out of a spell.

And if it couldn't get any more irritating, he burst into laughing! :<

" Looks like he ran away from a mental hospital. " I mumbled to myself loud enough for him to get the point.

He smirked and said- " As a matter of fact, I did. "

Sigh..oh dear god..! you just love too play with me don't you. All I need is some peace and quiet, is it too much to ask for? :<

" What other languages do you know instead of gibberish? "

" Haha..! very funny. "

" Seriously what the hell do you want?.."

My patience was running thin, I felt like a headache settling in.

" Nah...forget it! I will ask someone else. Until next time LYNN ZHANG !! Looks like it's fate. "

Saying that he turned around and left.

"The present is supposed to be a gift.

The past is supposed to be history with PRECIOUS memories.

And the future is unknown, but it's supposed to be full of hope!! "

' HOPE ' , there is no hope for me, there never was and there never will be. I was born to be used and walked on by everyone.

IT'S MY FATE !!

.................

SLAP!!! Followed by another on the other cheek.

"All you ever do is waste our money and time. Fooling around all day, can't you ever do something useful."

Mom was screaming, her sharp and indifferent voice, rang in my ears multiple times.

' I'm a waste, I'm useless, I'm nothing, I'm a waste, I'm useless....' These words kept circling inside my mind. It's not I haven't heard these words before, but this coming out of my own mother's mouth left me heartbroken.

If words could chop up my heart, it would already be in a million pieces.

Her bloodshot eyes represented pure disgust.

" Are u even listening to me huh?...Where the hell is your voice now?..I'm asking you Lynn Zhang? "

I slowly lifted my head to speak but no words came out. I would say I was tongue-tied but actually I didn't have the guts to answer back.

I could feel the presence of our house's servants and the butler on me. So embarrassing!!

In their eyes I was the perfect young lady of the house. But was I? Was i really?

"If you got nothing to say, then get lost of my sight!! Living in the same house as you disgusts me. Starve tonight!"

"Yes mother." Saying that I left without any word. Correction I ran upstairs as fast as I could, my eyes were already blurry, I wouldn't want anyone to see me in this state.

Bam!!

I closed the door with a loud noise. And slid down against it. Having no energy inside me I stared blankly outside the window. Which was supposedly my favorite thing to do.

I could see the outside world from there, "Freedom" yes freedom that's what I desired. To be free! To get out of this hellish house.

What looks like a beautiful palace from the outside is just another cage for a hopeless girl like me. People would say that I'm a lucky princess who gets everything I need, but isn't it so ironic.

What good is being a locked bird who gets food but can't enjoy its taste.

Is it too hard to like me? What did I do for them to hate me so much?

I lightly touched all those bruises on my arm. Yesterday they were blue now its black.

Even my scalp hurt, why?..oh..just because everyone loves to pull my hair and then throw me against the wall.

Thankfully there were no broken ribs, cause then nobody would even care to take me too the hospital.

I brushed past the hair which were on my face. My face was dry, now all the tears had been soaked up. I must look so horrible.

But now that I think about it, I still don't know what that weirdo guy I met earlier meant.

Does he know me? A past acquaintance maybe. Or just a weird stalker. But he didn't look like someone who is free for this stuff.

Hmm...the more I try to remember, the more it creeps me out.

But I'm already so famous as the young lady of the Zhang family.

Who wouldn't know me?

Aish...this is so frustrating.

Anyways enough self pity. Crying is for losers and in this game of life, we are all fighting!!

So cheer up Lynn these ups and downs keep on coming. I reassured myself. The weekends are over and tomorrow is a new chapter, a new beginning.

Everyday isn't the same. Who knows which miracle might happen tomorrow.

..............

Heyy everyone,

So this was the **second chapter of my story. Sowwy for updating slowly, I'm so busy with school stuff that I hardly get to write. But I finally finalized the plot of the story after so many days, so don't mind if I keep changing the description of the story. :p lol

Anyways hope u like mah story and don't mind if it's a bit cringey lol I'm still working on to be a better writer and I always welcome some good advices!! ;>

And I have some advice for ya all - " Even though your at ur lowest point, even when life has given up on u, still keep fighting cause who knows which miracle will happen tm!! "

This is what I wanted to convey through this chapter!

C ya

~shy gurl

Episode 3 : The strings of fate!!

The sunny weather could hardly match up to the blackness inside me.

No food, No consolation, No brightness, No hope, No enthusiasm, nothing.

Today was school, as it is the starting of the first semester. The weekends are over, thankfully! Normal people would love weekends but not me. They are like tickets to the horrorland.

I glanced at myself one last time making sure that all the wounds had been hidden nicely.

"I think it's fine." assuring myself, I gathered my belongings and made my way out of the door.

After deciding to skip breakfast and the fresh morning glares and distaste, I sneaked out through the back door as usual.

Outside, uncle Wang was waiting for me to take his little miss to the school. This might sound so strange but I was really attached to the servants and our butler more than I was close to my own parents. Although I was glad to be their little miss and I hated the fact that someday I might leave them but my yearning for freedom was too strong to care about that.

Ahh...as soon as I entered the car, Wang our driver gave me his trademark sun - shiny smile.

" How are you miss? I heard last night you didn't have dinner and skipped today's breakfast too!!"

His face expression went from delight to concern in a fraction of second. Now that's the thing I could get used too. Someone caring for me, loving me and the warm feeling inside my stomach, so this is how the feeling of compassion must be like

" Would you like to stop at the usual place ?"

I chuckled and shaked my head. " No uncle wang it's totally fine. I don't have any appetite yet so might as well just eat at the school canteen. No need for making a purchase. "

He sighed and said a plain ' yes ' with disappointment highlighting his concerned eyes.

I felt bad for refusing his kind offer and to be honest my stomach was churning, but if I eat junk again, I will gain weight easily and when that happens mom and dad will get another reason for criticism. I had to follow a strict diet without any kind of refusal.

After exchanging some words with the happy go lucky man, I stared into space lost in my own thoughts as he drove me to my school.

I think he said to me something but since I was totally absorbed in my own fantasies I couldn't exactly remember what it was and then without of my awareness we were already in front of the huge gate of NHH Academy

The place which I called my school was actually just a huge mall. (This is an irony.)

Nobody would think that anybody came there to study or gain some knowledge, because in reality all the students were from rich families who loved to flaunt their wealth. Total show offs.

It was hard to find someone down to earth there. And if these weren't enough charms to their snobbish personalities, they had to be bullies too who would traumatise the students who joined the school based on their merit and capabilities.

Sigh...thinking about all these stuff always gave me a headache.

After thanking uncle wang for driving me off to my school, I entered and hoped for the miracle which I was thinking about yesterday to happen.

Sadly things never go as I hope for cause apparently for me, it's always the same shi*

Killer glares and whispers followed me wherever I went. But this time it was on another level. Since as you can see, I'm the young lady of the Zhang family, and the ZHANG GROUP controlled most of the country's merchandise so it can be said that nobody dared to touch me no matter how much they resented.

Today though, was a little different. This time instead of spreading rumours and all the hateful things they used to talk about behind my back, now they were blabbering about it, all in the open.

Their loud voices, and glowering eyes spoke intentionally whenever I was near. Frustrating. Annoying. Irritating.

Just yesterday they dared not look me into the eye so how the hell did they get this astonishing amount of courage. I was seriously aghast. I never really cared what they did but disrespecting me in front of myself.

Hah!! They sure got some guts.

"Oh god! That b!tch is in so much trouble. She dared mess with DAMIEN!! "

" Pfft...finally someone who can show her place-"

" Damien Black hangs with the local gangsters!! She is dead for sure-"

" Haha...everyone has their days. I'm so looking forward to Damien-"

I could clearly hear their ridiculing remarks.

Early morning and they never forget to create a racket. I pretended to be unaffected by their silly remarks but it was eating me up inside.

Who was Damien? Why the hell is he asking for me? And how the hell did I get involved with some crazy gangster.

I don't even remember talking to any boys. To be true I never greet or chat with any student in the whole damn school except the teachers.

And that too even since my family finances its stuff or whatever so all wanna bootlick.

But forget about that,...the current and certainly the most important issue for now is what is going on and what's with me getting in trouble with some boy called Damien.

Before I wasted my time on asking others, I sent a quick message to old Wu, explaining the whole situation to him.

Ahh....the advantages of being rich.

" Oh look here he is now-"

People were all in awe as they spoke his name but somehow it was like they were frightened of him too. Well who would wanna be a prey of a bunch of violent criminals.

Ah...wait apparently me and my stupid self.

People cleared the way as he came closer. And seemingly he was headed towards my direction. And the coward me who didn't want to have anything to do related to him, started my escape. I merged in with the crowd of the huge number of fangirls. And tried to blend in with them.

Who is Demien Black? Just who so ever he is I hope to be unrelated to him.

Just then my phone vibrated and I got a new message from old Wu all about this Damien guy.

Name: Carl Feng

Age: 17 years

Background: Heir of the Feng family

Hangs out with the local gangsters.

I stopped scrolling down. No need to read it whole. I know it all now.

Staring at the screen blankly a huge lump formed in my throat.

Feng Family. That explained it all. He was THE HEIR OF THE FENG FAMILY.

DAMIEN BLACK IS CARL FENG.

Suddenly I remembered about the happenings of yesterday.

" Looks like it's fate."

Fate. Yes fate. That's it.

It's all coming into place now. No wonder that weirdo felt familiar. No wonder he reminded me of a bad memory. It's because he is someone I dared not offend.

Oh no no no no no...I'm done for.

" Well...this saved me a lot of time. It's good you remember me now."

That voice sent chills down my spine. I didn't have to look up to know who it was.

I gulped down that lump in my throat and bit my lip. My head was hanging down in fright.

" Lynn Zhang your old man Wu is really quick in gathering information."

Tears were already welling up as he snatched my phone from my hand. Please, please go....

Please leave.

I don't want to see you.

I'm sorry.

Forgive me.

Don't hurt anyone else.

It's all my fault.

I'M SORRY!!