NOTE: This is the diary of a beautiful woman, joke. But seriously, this is the Diary of an introvert woman. Even if you don't read it, it's okay.

...ALL ABOUT ME...

NAME: Privacy HAHA

Age: Fifteen

Birthday: August 31

Height: undefined

Status: Single and not ready to mingle

biggest fear: heights

dream job: undecided :(

dream car: whatever

dream house: not so big, not so little.

...TURN...

off: too pervert

on: beautiful voice, taller than me, funny

...HAVE YOU EVER...

kissed someone? my parents

been drunk? not yet

cried yourself to sleep? yes, when I was young, when my parents and I fight, I just cry until I fall asleep. But now, the reason is different.

self harmed? yes Hahaha but in a idiot way. sometimes I bite my tongue unintentionally. then sometimes I stumble and many more.

felt lonely? always Haha, because I think too much.

been depressed? not yet, maybe in the future LOL

Smoke? I will never do it.

...FAVORITE...

artist: I have a lot of stan kpop groups, I'm too lazy to mention. Taylor Swift, 5 seconds of summer, Why don't We.

movie: Crazy Little Thing Called Love (Thai Movie)

song: Enchanted by Taylor Swift, Just to see your smile by Why Don't We

tv series: none (but I love the anime series and drama series)

animal: puppies they're so cute!

book: all books of my favorite author

color: beige, pink, purple

...THIS OR THAT?...

twitter or facebook? twitter

twitter or instagram? twitter

facebook or instagram? messenger :)

coke or pepsi? sprite :)

coffee or milk? milk

burger or pizza? both!!!

sunny day or rainy day? rainy

romance or horror? rom-com :)

skirt or pants? pants

rubber or sandals? rubber

...WOULD YOU EVER...

get married? Yes

have kids? Yes

swim with sharks? No

eat rotten food? No

marry a foreigner? Yes

...DO YOU?...

like someone? Just before, not anymore.

love someone? my family, bestfriends.

have a boyfriend? nope

want a boyfriend? not yet Haha, I'm not ready :)

...ME...

I love to write, but since I got a cellphone I always type in the note. What am I writing HAHA, pure nonsense. I also love to read, I always read all day especially when there is no class or study. I like to listen to music, because that's what I'm always with in sadness, and when I'm alone, eww deep HAHA. I'm talkative in chat but the opposite in person HAHA, but I really talkative when we become close in person. I'm not an open person, even though we are very close to each other. I am happy alone, but I feel sad? HAHAHA its weird. I am happy when there is no noise but I am afraid when it is quiet. I am afraid of the dark, because i feel like I'm blind. But now I am not so afraid of the dark. I only have a few friends, Because I'm not like others who are very friendly to the point that everyone he meets is his friend. I am kinder to my friend than my siblings. I'm the type of friend who is always there when you need me, but when I need you I don't tell you HAHA. That's all.

Started On: 12 19 20

Can this be called a love story? Hahaha because I don't know.

Do you believe in the unexpected crush? You know in yourself that you will never like him and then you will realized that you already like him LOL.

Honestly we don't pay attention to each other. We will only talk when we are in group activities. Because grouping is always by surname. We both start with the T surname. But usually even when we are in a group we still do not talk to each other HAHA.

The school year is coming to an end, we have a group activity dance. The whole section we grouped together.

First time he chatted with me HAHA, I was nervous because we didn't close each other and then he chatted?

So that's why he chatted with me at that time because he want me to sent a video of our dance to him.

One Week before (I'm not sure) he chatted me again. So I overthinked again HAHA.

He chat, he called me by my nickname. Hmm? I know that most of my acquaintances already call me by my nickname but it's weird when he calls me that way.

He simply called my nickname in the chat and that's when our convo started.

We got to know each other better because we chatted. I recognized him as my first boy bestfriend. And I think he is recognized me as his girl bestfriend too.

We are not close in person, but we are very close in chat HAHAHA just weird.

We always topic what happened to us in one day.

It's just funny because our friend knows nothing about us.

Our relationship lasted as a bestfriend for a long time, which our friend did not know.

There were times when he admitted that he liked me, that's why he chat me because he likes me.

But I chose to just be friends, I honestly don't know why I prefer to just be friends. A few days later my brain was confused HAHA.

My ease with him, It got to the point where I couldn't handle it the other day without chat coming from him.

I was also confused by how I felt at that time.

We are different, but when I talk to him we feel like we are one.

We are really different, Physically, Emotionally and Morally.

That night, He admitted again that he likes me and he said he would court me. I do not know but I cried.

I was even more confused.

But I still chose to be friends with him.

Not because I don't like him, because I'm still confused.

Time has come for me to realize that I like him too.

But it was too late.

His friend introduced him to a woman.

Quarantine at that time. So communication is just chat.

He told me that, he even tell me the conversations he had with the woman in chat. The only pain is that most of the woman's behavior is suitable for him.

Because I am an introvert, and the woman is not.

How many times has he invited me to meet him, but I am an introvert so I do not agree. I know he was disappointed in me during those time but he does not make it obvious to me.

He said that the woman seemed to like him.

So even though it hurts for me, I said that he will court the woman.

They are more appropriate.

The more I differ from him, The more that we do not matter to each other.

I just miss him, those are the times I can tell him anything. Because now I have to stay away, he already has a girlfriend.

I hope that what we talked about before will continue. He said he would be the godfather of my children in future and I'll be the godmother of his children.

I'm stupid. That's all

...—...

...adios...

^^^Date: 12 20 20^^^

Annoying! I forgot my bestfriend's birthday :(

I had a plan yesterday, but it didn't work out.

Because ENHYPEN released a new MV so I streamed it first and then I lost my plan :(

I plan to greet her at 11pm, for I am the last to greet her. For me the special.

But I forgot my plan when ENHYPEN released a new MV, then I kept watching Youtube because I had fun.

I have a chat with a guy here on MT HAHA, I was attracted to his profile picture. I said hi to him, then he said hello. Then I asked him if he knew me HAHA, I was just stupid so why did I even think to ask that?

Then he said that he did not know me, so he said I would introduce myself. Then I said I did not know him either, then I introduced myself. He also said his name.

I said a lot of nonsense to him HAHA, But I had in mind that it was okay because he did not know me personally and then he lived in another country.

But .. I asked him where he lived huhu, then we were both living in the same country. Really embarrassing, super! I told him to forget what I said, and he said it was okay.

I immediately said goodbye to him because I was really embarrassed :(

When I went to bed, my siblings and I stayed up. We always sleep late HAHA, How do I go to bed early? If you know, please advise me :(

We watched Videos on Youtube, of my sister. We are next to each other in bed HAHA. We love ENHYPEN. But my sister doesn't like Girl groups, I also don't know why. I am proud as Multifandom.

I also have insomnia :( I feel like that because I use my cellphone too much. I didn't fall asleep right away HAHA. How many times have I planned that at 9 I should not be holding my cellphone but I really can't, I eat my own word.

Then my conscience bothers me because I did not greet my bestfriend on her birthday.

...—...

Today I have a lot of regret things. I learned that you can't really go back in time when you made a mistake. And I learned better to ask first which country a man lives in before saying cheesy lines. It's embarrassing that he might be ashamed of me as his countryman. I also found out that when it comes to Kpop, I can forget everything even my bestfriend's birthday :( I also believe that my destiny I'll be known on the internet so I always hope that it might be true HAHA. I'm very hopeless romantic huhu, but I really have no plans to have a boyfriend. I always thought that I would go to bed early but did not continue when it was bedtime. Again I eat my own words :( That's all.

...—...

...adios...