Mom and dad divorce when i was 7 years old. I'm too small to understand about that. I really want my mom. I'm still remembered when my father, uncle and police came to my gradmother house. That time i was live with my mom and my siblings just for a couple of months. The lady cop pulling my hand from grabbing hard my mother hand. Unfoturnately, my mother fell down at the stairs. I'm crying hard. I don't want leave my mother. After they got me, they put me in the car and my father lock the door using kids lock. I've tried to open the door. But nothing happen. I'm just crying like a baby and just only want her mother.

We leave the hometown and straigh to go back to my grandmother house. My father family love me a lot. They really want me to stay with them. Which is i don't have any choices. So i just follow what they want. But something that curious things i really want to know. What actually make my parents divorce? I want to know. But i don't know who will tell me the truth. You think who? I forgot to tell all of you.. i live with my grandmother, grandfather, and my auntie. Not my FATHER. Where my father? I don't know. Really don't know. What i just want is, i want my mother.

Months return new month. I just a kid that follow what they want me to be. I'm okay with that. I'm happy with that. But who knows what will happen to my future. Anything can be. Maybe a GOOD things. Or maybe i be a BAD PERSON. Haha. Only GOD know all things that will be happen to my life. My life sometimes okay and sometimes be so bad. Maybe just my feeling. And maybe i just be emotional without live with my own family. Yeah i know. I live now with my family. But the only i want is my own family which is my MOTHER, my FATHER and my SIBLINGS. Not my grandmother and grandfather. I know i'm still a kid that still dont get it what actually happening on my own life. Untill one day i know and understand about what actually happen to my life. That time was when i go to primary school. I can see all my friends with someone adult that still young. I mean not young as still a student. Becouse me when go to school is with a old man that was my grandfather. Not my FATHER. I'm just quite when no one see or ask about that. That's be me more happy. So i don't need to remembered what actually happen. Just be a student that need study to learn new things and scored own the school examination. And just continue with my own life and just tell them true thing when they ask. All time just be my ownself without anyone knowing what the dark side of me.