hey! im patrin. im a 15 year old girl who doesn't understand what feelings are....of course i think i do....all my friends come to me for advices and i actually do give amazing advices...just not for myself.

People think i am an extrovert, can't blame i am a libra(and if you think i am one of those "i am sorry i want things balanced beacuse i am a libra" bitch...well suck it because you open my dairy...i didnt ask you to do so), but what you don't know is libra are not extroverts...well not all...some just like to have company.

I should be studying right now, but since your still reading I'll give you a few pointers

This is life, hold on tight(hannah montana)

Welcome to the world, it sucks. your gonna love it.(monica geller)

If you think of giving up, think why to tried to hold on for so long(natsu draganeel)

Your useless(my lovely indian mom...although the scenario is for all of us lucky teenagers)

5.TTTRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRTRRRRRRRRRRRTRRRTRTRTRTRTRTRTRTRTRTRTR(my lovely alarm)

I am late for school...AGAIN!

If you think litterary every female lead is late...well...i wanna say and i quote "beautifull things are alawys to be seen late".......i said seen late...i AM late...so don't you dare make fun of me.

and before you actually get intrested in this story,.......

DON'T

THIS WRITER IS LITTERARY WRITING THIS STORY UNDER BLANKET AT 3:19AM!!!

I warned ya

anyways, i wanted to clear some things....

i don't like school...unless its recess full day

study?...what is that?...no litterary i fail in every exam i get in.....unless theres exam abt guessing next step of an anime or manga....common we all are good at that

cycling is 'DA BEST' thing ever. like get your *** up...sit in a seat...since your a teenager you definatly got anxiety so moving your legs is a habit and you get air punching you in the face, which is also the only punch you like btw.

I am the food before anyone....like ANYONE...even myself

fashion is in my nerve....but for me...its long Ts and black leggings

6.Music is my type of symphony, i love music...like just give it to me...i dont give a damn wether its by the annoying guy from my class or the fake girl who's trying to be my friend....ill listen to any recommended....

I can't, don't want to and would never choose between colours.

i got alot of friends...but of course i only have some close...i have one best friend(buddy), 4 close friends...and i love them as much as they love me.

i hate lies....like i had 5 close friends but one of tgem lied...thats when I'll tell you my story....in short...i cut her off my life.

...yes i skipped some....its not like you would wanna know everything on the spot...like the writer is new to writing....not dumb...if you wanna know me?....you gotta stick your cute yet ugly butt here to let the story start.

.....I FORGOT ABOUT SCHOOL

see ya later, hater.

hey again future reader!

i wanna talk about schools. Ik ik no lokes it and its "verrrryyyy its omportant for economy" but honestly speaking, we litterary bully teachers...i mean common...not all kids think tge teacher is bad at teaching...the person has been studying her whole life for this career and you think she failed?

anyways...its us who dosnt study...and one thing we learn from that, is students together strong...hence we can make parents belive all students couldn't answer 1+1\=?...like seriously sometimes they give us this and there are litterary questions given in my school like "what is radioactive decay"...and since im the "one night before exam" person...turns out its not "the movie radio rebel" or "you know that i wont stop unitl i make you mine, until i make you mine. put your hand in mine, you know that i won't till be with you all the time..." (song lyrics can be learned in seconds...but newtons 2 law....please the fricky frack off me)

anyways,

the only good thing school does is make us understand that how relaationships really work...don't get me wrong i am serious. we know that if we want to make friends we need to be genuine, we know how to stop the fake, we also know not all people are bad and sometimes we just have misunderatandings, and you need to be free as well if you qant to friend to be free for you...what you give is what you get.

the most important thing i learned...that the only rebel time you would get...its till you have teen in your age,...no actually...its the teen where you get judged and people already make scenarios about your future while all you meant was to eat the food and not disrespect to the god that i don't appretiate enough for giving me life.

so not alot of people believe in gods, and i would rather have you guys and accept it. i belive in ALOT of things others don't...but I've never seen my friends want me to change my belives. sure there are arguments like facts from their side them:-colours don't have feelings

me:-YOU BELIVED TOYS DOES. JUST WAIT FOR THE NEXT DISNEY MOVIE

but its never getting ignored, like they argument to just show they want to know my opinion and never force me to change like ross tried to change phoebe's...(these are characters from "F.R.I.E.N.D.S" incase you wanted to know)

so back to my point...I'll tell you about this secret of mine...(you dont know me....so even if you do say it out....no one will know lmaooo)..so in my school, in washroom..there is this one window (of each floor) where theres a big space that you can climb in. its horizontal so even if someone comes to washroom they will only see small window with sky but not me in the right side sleep, dancing or/and eating. I've skipped some classes saying u was in nurse room...and i really did go there...after my timepass just befire break to make sure mam writes my name just on the correct timing.

its my favourite place and i go there to calm myself down from all the socialization....yep..asked for a pen is TOO MUCH for me...i got close people and I'll stick to that.

but you know in the end whats yhe best thing for me in school?

whenever i leave school...i sometimes got to teachers who used to teach me when i was in 1st grade or 4th grade....it warms my heart to see the wrinkles under their eyes when they smile at me. some of them are smaller in height than me, i am taller than my mom so it just makes me calm down more. even if it's just a "hi", i would have enternal "hi" than have a good talk with them for just once.

school might be the baddest place on earth with bullying, bad jokes and FULL of punishments...but it's still the most beautifull and funny places we ever go to....because of school i actually belive in quote "theres no success if there is no failure" like take failure as the questions mam used to ask us and make us stand outside if we didn't answer them...the 100th time...but then theres success, when our friends make joke about it and you tell your close teacher who's like your older sister/brother and is really sweet/good listner even though you know she got sarcasm in his/her veins.