"OH, come on! Just confess already." Kendrah is getting sick of tired with this kind of tv drama she's watching. Not that she don't like the hard to get character. It's just that she really find it ideal if the main guy is the honest one and not a troublemaker.

She changed the channel and keep on pressing the remote control until she stopped. The scene was about a woman who are not satisfied with her chosen life because she found out that the partner she marry was a not a guy she imagined. In short, it's opposite. More on violence, demanding, not a romantic and many other reasons that made up her mind to runaway and find her old self again.

Kendrah ended up sighing---a heavy sigh while thinking.

"If I were her, maybe I will... no, it's not gonna happen."

She shook her head. It's really bothering so she decided to turn off the tv. And the moment she stood up is the exact time when her husband Paulo entered the house. Wearing a construction's uniform. She can't describe how dusty this guy all over. The sweats smell is made her sneeze but instead of commenting something she runs to the kitchen and get one glass of water.

"Here!"

"What did you do all day?"

Paulo asking the same thing ever since they got married and she simply replied,

"The usual," and looked away. She's free every Sunday and watching tv is included for killing time after doing household chores.

And just that. End of conversation. Paulo went to the bathroom while she started to prepare dinner. She go with the chicken ball she marinated a while ago. Easy to cook. Easy to fry.

Their house is an apartment type with two bedrooms. It's a wedding gift from her mother in law working abroad. Small but enough for the two workaholic people. She is a salesclerk on one of the biggest market mall in the town. Her husband is full time construction manager. They are married for about five months and yes the awkward moments still there. Because after the exhausting day of their wedding, they don't have much time for honeymoon. The most awaiting scene for the newly weds is not even happening. Yeah. Yeah. Just go to bed and sleep next to each other. Just like that. And then, go back to work the next day.

"Are you done?" Paulo just finished. Fresh from the shower. The strong smell of a lemon fresh mixing with the food she's cooking.

She gulped. "Twenty five minutes," and she pressed down the rice cooker button to cook. "The chicken ball is about to finish... if you're hungry I can steam a leftover rice for you," she suggested. Her attention is now on the last batch of the chicken ball. She started to place it on the bowl with tissue paper.

"No, I can wait."

Just like she said. After twenty five minutes they are both at the dining table. Eating. No talking. This is their every day life. Paulo is just go to bed right after that while she have to finish all of the task. When she's done, she can freely stepped in to their bedroom. Lie next to her snoring husband.

It's okay, Kendrah. You're exhausted too, right? Just be with him is enough.

And that thought made her yawn. She sleeps soundly that night.

The next morning is another day. Prepare breakfast for two. Fried rice and scrambled egg. Then, afterwards they both bid a goodbye. Paulo is to the left side where the construction area is ongoing and Kendrah go straight to the mall--- ten minutes far from the house she lives in.

"Hey, Kendrah! You're always early, huh," her co-worker Ysabelle grinning from ear to ear. This girl is one of her bridesmaid five months ago and her highschool classmates too.

"You know me. I love my job so much." Yes. Kendrah had it before she got married and she can't see herself quit.

"And how about you and Pau? Any progress?"

She just smiled. Nothing to tell about. Yes, it's true. There's no news at all. Even a kiss. With the thought she pouted and luckily Ysabelle didn't notice because this girl is busy texting.

"Are you two going in?" the security guard asked.

She tapped the shoulder of her friend Ysabelle.

"Hey, Ysa! It's working time."

And with that, they are both entered. They stopped a little while to the lockers beside the lady guard, to leave their belongings there. Then, walked in to their assigned counter.

Wait for the shoppers to come by.

IT'S already 3 o' clock in the afternoon and yet Kendrah's here at the counter. Punched items here. Put in the plastic bag there. No lunch break. Just biscuits and water. Her fingers are getting numb for the non-stop working hours. It's okay. It's okay. Her shift is about to end. She just need to wait for the go signal of their team leader. Then she can finally get home.

"Kendrah, Aimee is here you can check out now." The tall guy announced. It's their team leader, Aries.

"After this, Sir." She rush to display the 'next counter please' sign. With that, the other shoppers choose to step backward. She secretly happy about it. And after a minute or two she's done. "I'm okay here, Sir." Kendrah called their leader's attention.

"Yeah, I will check that later. You can go."

Five minutes passed. Here she is. Walking on her way home. Thinking about what to cook for tonight. Ah! She wants something new. She decided to went to the nearest roast chicken house. And when she came out she have the box of chicken in her hand.

Maybe I'll try to add a little spice.

In that thought she chuckled while pushing in the main door of the house. Her husband come home three hours late and that time she can do what she wants. She cook rice then take a shower. After ten minutes, she blow her hair. She decided to change from pajama and shirts to a sexy lingerie.

I wanna know how would you react.

In her mind while carefully checking herself in front of the human size mirror. And there, that makes her satisfied. At the same time the rice cooker is now on warm so it means Paulo is the only one missing. And she wish her husband will hurry up. She want him so bad.

She sat down while waiting until the 6 o' clock came. Checking her phone so many times and counting. And here it comes, the most awaiting time. She lie on the sofa and let expose her legs. Paulo has his own key so she can feel at ease to pretend to sleep.

But no Paulo. Her forehead is started to wrinkled. How many minutes? Five? Ten? Thirty? Yeah. Let him be. Until her phone vibrates.

Ken, you can eat dinner first.

After reading that, her tears fall down on her cheeks.

"Hey Kendrah! Are you happy?" She smiled bitterly. Her sweet Paulo is not the same as before.

Seven years ago...

It was the enrollment day for the senior high. Kendrah's big sister Karina decision to transfer her to another school. And now she's here in front of the principal's office and waiting for her sister.

"Hey! Need help?" a man voice asked that's why she turned her head and to see who's talking. And there it goes. A young man with a charming face staring at her. Grinning. A friendly one, she guess.

"If you do, you can go to the Student Council and find me there. Oh, my name is Paulo... Paulo with the u."

"Widayu?" she repeated. That word starting to spin in her head. And when she suddenly realize what is he talking about she burst to laugh.

"I'm sorry. I can't help it." She really can't stop laughing and hoping the guy not get offended.She knew that it's getting weird right here, right know but she can't deny the fact that this is the very first time for her. In her family, it's forbidden to be like this. The action she make is limited. Growing up with the strict environment is very hard.

"You're gorgeous..."

That words calm her down. No. Her heart is pounding right now. She want to scream with happiness when Paulo came closer. She can't tell how charming he is.

No, you're the one who is gorgeous here!

She don't want to close her eyes. If this is the excitement the others say they feel then it is. She gasped when he touched the back of her ear.

"For you!" Paulo smiled beautifully. He's now holding the red rose came out from nowhere.

"How did you do that?" She can't hide the amazed tone.

Paulo chuckled. "Magic. Do you like it?"

"Kendrah!"

That's her sister voice. She never get a chance to answer Paulo when Karina grabbed her hand. Before she knew it the distance between him and her is too far. But she wants to see him once more. Just once. And here, she look back but no one's there. He is not there anymore.

That was a little bit sad.

"Not bad. I might say, he is nice. His mother working abroad as a factory worker and the father is a soldier," Karina commented when they stop at the front of the pink motorbike. "But the problem is... his parents separated a year ago so he is not the best choice for you."

Her eyes widened knowing those kind of personal information. "How did you know any of this?" Her sadness quickly change into shocked.

"It's easy for my husband to do a background check." Karina's husband was a private investigator. How could she forget that?

"Listen, Kendrah. You have to study hard. Find your future guy."

"Oh, Karina, are you abandoning me too?" Kendrah's voice cracked. She is the youngest in the family but she only get the least favor. Her parents stop supporting them financially when the eldest child in the family graduated college. That's her big brother Karlito---who takes all the responsibility in the whole six years but then decided to build his own family. And now, next is Karina's turn but instead of finding a job, she choose to marry a rich guy.

"Oh, little sis, please understand. I have three babies. I can't give you the attention you need. You're seventeen years old already. I think you can be an independent one as well." Karina say that reality to her face. "I'll rent a dorm for you. It's for the whole semester. Okay, hop in and we're going to check the place."

It's just ten minutes ride to be able to reach that dormitory. The place is neat and new. She can see a picture of herself living there and hoping that she can cope with the surroundings.

"I'll go ahead. Wait for me at noon. I'll get your belongings at home. Behave and stay put. Make sure you're not roaming around." Her sister nagged here and there but she's didn't mind. She just cherish this moment and loving the way her sister care.

She sighed the moment her sister shut the door. She feels bored. No, she's lonely. Maybe a little walk can help.

"Hey, you are the transferee, right?"

And there she go. Her heart is starting beating fast hearing that voice from the guy she just met.

She turned around and said while smiling."Oh, hi! Paulo with the u?"

Present day.

After reminiscing, she wiped her tears and go on with the smile. She's going to eat first like Paulo texted.

Be mature, Kendrah. He sent you a text, he informed you so it means he cared for you.

The wall clock says, it's 6:45 in the evening. But of course, she's here chewing the food slowly. Yes, she have more time to wait. It's not too late. Be patient.

Ten minutes have passed. She almost jump out when she hear the click sound. And then, Paulo is in. Entering the house with heavy breathing holding his knees.

"I'm sorry for being late, Ken."

Kendrah's heart touched just by looking to his husband. That includes the way he said her nickname. She thoughtfully said, "Come here. Sit down and drink water first." She served him with one glass.

"The owner suddenly came... don't have much time to clarifying that text I sent." He sat down explaining.

"I see."

Paulo's eyes on her while drinking water. "I'm going to take a shower... a quick one. You wait for me, Ken." He put down the empty glass and stand up.

"Okay, I'll get your shirt and pajama."

And minutes later, the lemon fresh of the bathsoap Paulo using is now all over the house. Kendrah's can't help but to smile while waiting her husband come out. She holding the white clothes she choose to prepare for him. His favorite color.

"No need, Ken." Paulo hugged her from behind. He is half-*****.

"But..."

"Okay, okay. I'll listen to you." He get the clothes from her and go back to bathroom to change.

Later, they are here again at the dining table. Facing each other. Eating. No talking. The scenario never change because after that, Paulo is going to bed. And Kendrah? Washing dishes. Finishing all the task and after that she can slowly walking in to the bedroom.

But this time, she is surprised. Paulo is awake. Sitting there. Reading some papers. Her heart skip a beat when he glance at her.

"You are sexy tonight." Paulo smiled sweetly.

This is it, Kendrah. Fighting! She is screaming at the back of her mind.

Paulo put down all the paperworks on the sidetable near the lampshade. And, tapped his other side. "Sit here."

So she obediently climbed over the bed. She feel nervous. She is excited. She don't know what it is. She just want to be loved. She want to feel it from her husband--- her sweet Paulo. Her first love.

"Did I made you feel lonely these days?

"Yes... very," she said honestly while leaning in his shoulder.

"Oh, Kendrah..."

She feel that Paulo kisses her head. She giggled and look up. "How about my lips?" Her face turn red when she realize what she's asking.

"Really?" Paulo smiled. A naughty one. He bite his lip as well.

Oh, God! This is insane. What to do?

They are never been there. Yes. Paulo is too gentle. He just used magic trick whenever he is trying to confess something. He never touch her as a couple does in their six years of being boyfriend-girlfriends. No problem. She always convincing herself that she is fine with these because that time he is busy on studies.

"Yes, I really want your kiss!" She speak loudly and clear. She don't wanna lie to herself ever again. She is really not fine. She is lonely.

"You mean it?"

She nodded and that's when Paulo pull her closer, kiss her passionately. "I'm longing too. I do. I really do want to kiss you." He is moaning between kisses. That's so sweet. That's their very first kiss.

Running out of air, their sliding down to bed and get wrapped themselves with the blanket. A minute later, they fall asleep while holding hands. They are both satisfied.

The next morning came, she woke up happily. She is so energetic. She dancing and singing while dusting here and brooming there. She even prepare a breakfast with a twist. French toast and scrambled eggs with spring onions toppings.

"Good morning, my lovely wife!" Fresh from the bath Paulo greeted wearing the sweet smile. This man is happy too.

How great is the day with this kind of life! She really like it. This is the one she is wishing for. But yeah, this is just the first stage. She must cherish it. Definitely.

"Let's eat."

And today, they waved a goodbye with a kiss. What a good start!