That day  was it blessed?

I found family ,

Slowly had all entered my eternity ;

Slowly giving me hopes ,

Hopes of thou love ,

Though had made an unbreak able bond :

Of friendships ,

All of my siblings ,

Gave me all of them the memories ,

I hold onto you for;

You were there when 

were needed ;

You wiped my tears ,

made me smile ,made me rethink

and rebeat my cardiac

Making me think ,

maybe not all friendships are false .

I can possibly never express ,

my inner felt ,

Ain't good at expression of heart.

I miss u the second thy gone.

Even years together are not enough ,

i wish to protect thou from ;

the cruelty , 

After years of feeling blanked ,

emotionless ,aimless ;

finally have found a logic behind my existences ,

have found my happiness ,

have found a family ,

A place i belong

somewhere i dont need to fake

somewhere i can say 'i have returned ';

Attention i receive with a single text ,

u read me by the way i text

u just know im sad or happy .

Am grateful for all ;

I remember that eve u came in ,

we ended in an argument with ever text ,

Couldnt bare to see thy around ;

Would even lose my long last patience .

Meaning behind our arguments

something that has not a electronic value usage ;

in our lives .

Had the same perve mind sets ;

Are ready to torcher the either

till eternity ;

but have not even granted that power ,

to the Almighty or Satan .

Are enemies for the time till capability time

has granted in this massive

universe

Remember that day us in a argument ;

as per daily business ;

No one had the capability but u did ;

U had just a simple question ,

"what's wrong ?"

Even after had made thousands of reasons;

showed all my strenght ,

but just was caught ,

easily like a baby caught by the holy birth giver .

First time in a life had felt

so vulnerable ,

so understood ;

My pal , My college ,My confidence ;

My unlike weakness and

My unfortunate strength ,

Hope had this world had better words than :

"thankyou "and " i hate you and only am allowed ";

 I promise to be for thy always ,

I am ready to leave the world

for thy sake ;

But if u ever even had the idea of leaving

marked my words in your useless brain ,

" i 'll break all your available bones

bury u alive in the forest "

No one dares to break u , else will be broken ;

And regret their entire existence .

Muffins ,I had arrived alone ;

But i wont be alone ,because i have thee ;

Thou partner keeps u happy is my only wish ;

Never had i dared to say ,

reasons are it makes me red;

I love you

I know myself cant show love,

am like an open book to thy eyes;

Hope i keep on having my special

presence in thy world .

Let me be your shoulder ,

My friend , lets always be happy together;

Lets always be there ,for each other ;

Even when our partners, dont agree .

Let make this promise of an eternity friendship .

And " I hate you ".

\~\~\~\~\~\~\~FOR MUFFINS

               MY CONFIDENCE

               OLDIE

                MY LITTLE GIFT FOR U

That day was first in this life ;

had been apart from parents .

Was pulled into a new world ,an unknown

one

It was a huge place ,with beautiful flower and ,

mortals with smiles ;

Happiness in the air ,with warmth of the people .

I was holding my precious mother's hand ,

had felt a lost of grip ,from her side ;

And an unknown lady wearing white clothes had taken ,

she simpered ,and led me inside ;

Had  look back till ,had the known motherly face disappeared .

Had been led into a room with benches and other children .

It was new, an excitment had hushed inside ,

that little heart of mine .

Didnt knew that these same people would

become my life;

Would make memories ;

Never knew how much of a pride it is

to be called an Auxilian .

That day had met my first teacher,

A lovable person who held our hands

teaching us our first alphabets ,and numbers

Slowly we steadily we entered our middle school;

With stronger bonds and with stronger power of

irritating .

Had been taught the manners of a  respected citizen;

and the anger issues when someone

dared to speak ill of our school.

Learnt the real meaning patience and listened,

to each other ,

were noisier than ever before and

had scolding than ever before ;

Teachers were our friends and the classroom were

our personal rooms .

Breaking rules and talking in vernacular,

eating before and after lunch time .

Were our daily business .

Having fun loving captains , saving us from

extra scolding .

Teachers giving extra love and care ,

and telling us about our mistakes  with ,

the calmness of mild breeze in the summer .

Had now moved into highschool ,

Had learnt each other the best ;

Had taken up our choiced subject ,

Seeing each other was a habit ;

Not a day went by without talking to each other .

Had nothing called secret among ;

 And had special interest, in things all done in this massive;

structures of school building .

Soon came knocking the door that last examination

unlike all given through the years .

Have not seen many faces after that  .

I wish i could reverse time ,

then would go on to that same kid who joined years back.

Never had I understood how much of a worth it is

to be able see them every sun rise .

Until today ,

when i stand at the gates with my last certificates ;

for my last exit ,

where i dont say it anymore "see u again ";

we say "if life assures may we meet again"

Leaving this place is like a nightmare,

Never gonna see those smiles welcoming me,

Never gonna see the same teachers ,nor the sisters

nor the classes ;

nor the ones who made this place my heaven .

When my kids ask me ,who are they ;

guaranteed softness ,with tears brimming ,

The answer would be

"the people who made me who am this day ,

the logic behind i loved that building and reasons

i know not bond is false "

Things i wanna say is all ;

"    I love you" and "i miss you"

\~\~\~\~\~\~for ACS

Thee questioned what is it ?

to be matured;

Let it be answered by myself

she said its hearing people out

and advising

no its not that it the wisdom to know

when its time for advising ,

and when a shoulder is all ,

when its time to be mood lifter .

Its to know if u have to give a push

for talking

or

give space needed ,and stay quiet

about it .

she said its intelligence what to speak ;

no its wisdom what to speak.

its not being able to shut the mortals

wrong and help the wronged .

Its knowing when to be silenced is weapon ,

Its imagination level not the book .

She said its knowing whats wrong and speaking up before troubled ;

No its working quietly for things to be working out ;

and if no one supports to be quietly moving with the flow,

instead of wasting energy .

She said its finding happiness in others ;

No its being able to make happiness yourself ,

Not being depend'ent on someone for happiness ,

Its being on your own boss.

She said its being able to hold and knowing ,

its just bad time ,

She said it takes alot of love and strength to hold on'

No its knowing when

 its time to leave quietly .

"It surely takes a lot of love to hold on ,

but leaving takes a lot of love with strength ."

She said its being loyal to friends even when knowing they

are all masked and turn them good.

No its knowing true and false and knowing ,

the consequences ;

and knowing how they smile and be good

so they use thy more .

Its knowing it better loner than around .

She said its ok to try something new out ,

and ok to regret things .

No its not giving a chance to regret things .

She said its waiting for your prince charming ,

and to know they are gonna be unexpected .

No its being thy own prince charming .

She said its hiding your pain ,

No its taking it out ;

Just to tell that not only them but also you,

who suffers in life

And to make thy self happy,

To keep loved mortals happy .

She said its forgetting things and people '

unimportant ;

No its keeping them in mind and just learn some

lessons ,

its strength to forgive without memory loss.

She said its not being kind to people who made u sad .

No its trying to understand their

situations

even all being broken yourself .

She said its being serious and patient ,

 no its having your childish;

nature still alive .

But still being having the wisdom to know ,

When u had enough and anger has to shown .

She said its good to be mature to be able see the ,

reality .

No its best immature ;

its best not see somethings ,

its best some illusions stay atleast it makes;

thy happy .

Thou may speak "its cuz you urself are mature ".

I say no its just best to be immature ,

You have less anxiety problems .

Good for you health.

"LETS BE I,,ATURE FOREVER SO WE LIVE YOUNG FOREVER "