As I sitting in the chair looking back my old photos and those memories my tears flew without hesitation, it's been a long time but it's so painful after all. I grab the picture that I saw the album. It's me when I was 12 years old sitting in the tree crying. (flashback)

Since elementary I was a product of bullying. I never enjoyed my younger years until I meet guy whose have the same situation of mine He was being Bully to not as physical as mine.

He approach and sat on my side and start talking, I was so afraid to answer his questions but I don't really know I feel secured and safe when he start laughing. He said why are trembling? I am not bully. Oh what a rude as he said, when the time he raise his hands I start trembling and I close my eyes. In my mind i start thinking that he should might slap me or punch me but no he raise his hands because he pick a leaf and gave it to me and he said " never throw this leaf" and I ask him why? And he just said oneday when we separated I knew it was you I meet crying under the tree. I laugh so hard and said separate? Are you joking we are not friends yet and he said thats why. ( I would his name) John your fairy God friend and your buddy, ahmff and also I can be your guard, if might be you are hiring. I laugh and said you are funny but thanks for making me a little bit happy and forget those painful things even just for today. And he said don't worry I will protect you until I lost my breath. I prankly told him, I hate hearing promises because someone who always promise me they always left me broken into pieces. And he become silent and after 15 mins. He said sorry but I will promise to change your mindset. I just listen to him and laugh him whole day.

Everyday we've meet at the tree and you always said to me, why are sitting in the root and if I wasn't mistaken I punch you and said can you leave me for awhile? I need a place that no one can distrubed me but instead of leaving me, you stay and you always bothering just to divert my attention.

You never stop making yourself as clown just to make me laugh and catch my attention. Until you finally have my attention and you grab my hand and you start dancing. As we dance I felt something that I never understand and I ask you, have you ever feel that your hearts beat so fast and your whole body are slowly getting hot? But you laughed me and slowly hold my hand and make fun of me, you said are you inlove with me? I slapped you more than 10 times and you ask my forgiveness and I forgive you.

But everything change, you become very serious of me, you always get mad if someone hold my hand, someone is trying to make me as their friend and I ask you, what's wrong to you? And you just gave me a cold shoulder. You left me with unanswered questions and I was surprised you visit to my house and give me flower. I was to innocent on that time, I never entertained anyone because I feel like everyone likes me because of my body figure and my height, beauty and my good personality but Noone wanted to discover my dark side.

I asked you, what's your purpose of giving me flower? And you said, I want you to be my girlfriend but I want to start of courting you from now on but I just laugh you and said court me? Why? What part of my body you like?

You become silent and I change the topic and start building other way of communication just to end up our awkwardness. You remain silent for the whole week and I just observing you and start talking to myself not to easily trust your words because your words are making me flutterd.

Another week's past and you became a stranger to me but I still want you to be my friend but you rejected me because you wanted me to become your Girlfriend because you'll wanted to say your friends that you have a girlfriend who have figured.

You know what's to painful after that moment, I was sitting under the tree but you never came. I waited you there many hours but even your shadow I can't find out where are you.

After many days sitting on that tree, I decided to left and never visit that tree anymore, because that tree witnessed everything. That tree witnessed my tears, my laughter, my joyful, my immaturity and most of all you have me and you on that tree, that I need to forget even though it's really hard to start.

Weeks after you approach me like something never happen, I answer your questions and I became a stranger to you. You called my name and everyone of our classmates heard you shouting my name and asking for explanation, you know what's funny more you ask my explanation but you never give your reasons being a stranger to me for my weeks.

You slowly walking toward my position, but my feet move backward and wanted to run away from you. My feet felt, what I felt on you. You left me with many questions, but you came back with a simple reason, and that's makes me more stupid enough to believe on your flowering words toward on me.

When the time I wanted to run away, you hold my hand and you kneel down and wanted to explained your side but you requested me to explained why I rejected you. As the time goes by some people remain silent and listening to our conversation. You explain butI still don't get it. I surrender to you and give my reasons why I rejected your proposal to become your girlfriend. I said, I can't risk my life to be with you and you don't get it too, so I explained further and said, many girls admire and adore you, they dream to be with you and I lastly said to you is "I AM SCARED TO FALL INLOVE AND RECIEVE PAIN". After I explained you hold my face and said, you don't care what they felt, the thing you only want is to be with me. Instead of answering your questions, I grab my hand and run away. The people who are watching us are start laughing and having pity on us.

You followed me after I run away while shouting my name in the whole way. I stop and grabbed your hand and said, can you stop calling me? And you just said, you'll stop of we became what we are, so just to stop you I said yes and we became friends again.