How are you now, my old self?
Are you having fun talking to your favorite band's posters? Are you having fun with your friends? Did your crush noticed you already? Did you do your homework? Or are you still stressed out from all the school works?
I miss those days a lot.
Where my everydays were so simple, yet so fun. I have my friends, whom I can make chit chats with. Whom I can share my weird thoughts with. Whom I can always rely on.
My problems were small, but I'd cry a river because of it. And now that I'm thinking about it, I find it so ridiculous. Compared to the problems I'm dealing with now, it never comes close.
I'd worry about getting late for school. I'd worry about my unfinished assignments. I'd worry about what I'll eat on snack time. I'd worry about what tweet will I'm going to post when I get home.
Sometimes, I wish that even just one day, just one day, I'll get away. I'll get away from my tiring life. I'll have peace for just one day. I won't worry about anything. Just one peaceful day.
Or if not, maybe just take me back to my old self. To my thirteen year-old self. Where all I do is to get mad at my mom for making me do all the dishes. Where I'd only worry for snack breaks, not heart breaks. Where I'd only cry because of my broken polished nail, not because of my broken heart.
How are you feeling?
Isn't it ironic, that I want to be comforted by someone who caused me too much pain and agony.
Isn't it ironic, that I don't want to receive messages from someone but I check my mail every minute just to see if he replied.
Isn't it ironic, that I badly want to take someone off my mind but all I could think of is his smile.
Isn't it ironic, that I don't want to see someone's face but I've been wanting to feel his warm embrace.
Isn't it ironic, that I'm still able to love someone fully, even though he already destroyed me.
The irony of life... and love.
It's amazing, but most of the time frustrating.
I guess, that's how I'm feeling.
Please, know your worth.
May I remind you, that you are worth to be loved.
May I remind you, that you are worth to take risks for.
May I remind you, that you are worth to be cared for.
May I remind you, that you are worth to be treasured.
May I remind you, that you are worth to be respected.
These are just some of the reminders for you, myself.
You may not be as pretty as a sunset, but you're one of someone's beautiful endings, too.
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