Life is not a smooth journey, there are always ups and down in everyone's life. Sometimes its easy to solve your problems, sometimes you don't even know where the problem is.

This is what I was facing in my life I tried my utmost in my studies but sometimes things don't go the way we want them to. No matter how hard I tried, it felt like everything my time ,my efforts, hard work are not taking me anywhere. I was just stuck in a place where there was no light was showing. Family problems and unsuccessful career was taking me to the darkness because of which I was getting lonely eventhough I was the most talkative and the biggest chatter box among my friends and family.

Sometimes even if u love to talk and have so many friends but there is a place in your heart you couldn't open for anyone ,in which u hide your insecurities, anxieties, your problems,family problems, your love life trouble etc.

For me from those continuous failures in my career and the expectations of my family towards me were making me stuck in a place where I couldn't understand where should I go and whom should I tell my troubles? Eventhough my parents were very supportive for me and always cheer me up but sometimes the burden of expectations is so heavy that you get scared tell others that ''Sorry I am tired, can I not do this ?''

this was the life I was facing feeling completely lonely even in the crowd of people,just like a child gets separated from his parents ,not having the idea where to go and whom to ask ,hiding his face on his knees wishing for his parents to find him and take him away from the dark days.

while facing those dark days I started to talk less and less. It felt like slowly I was becoming someone totally opposite of my personality.

The one who just stays in the room repeatedly studying those thick books to pass the examination, thinking again and again that it must be my shortcomings which are stopping me from getting successful. But slowly those shortcomings started turning into insecurities. My mind started thinking that no matter how hard I try it will a failure. I started avoiding the topic of my studies whenever my parents talk to me. whenever they ask how my studies are going my answer was same ''Its Good''. I felt like ,I am trying to run away even knowing that there is a chain in my feets stopping me from going out of my room full of darkness.

........Hello dear readers, from the first episode it may seem like a depressing story but I wanted to tell you that its not a depressing story. this story tells you about how at some point of time in life all we need is a little warmth of heart.

thank you for reading ❤

to be continued...

As the days passing by I was loosing my self confidence. I don't care about my health much ,i stopped caring about how am i looking, not talking to anyone, staying in my room all day and night. I usually just come out of my room for meals because as a 3 people family of me ,MAA(MOM) and PAPA (DAD) we prefer to have meals together so that we could spend some time with each other. One night mom called me for dinner, I came out of my room going towards the dining table where PAPA was smiling at me and patting his hand on the chair beside him ,signaling me to go and sit with him.

As it was a usual routine so I smile a little at him and sat beside him. Don't know today his smile felt a little different ,like he wants to say something to me but afraid that he may hurt me so he is hiding his worries behind his smile.

Just at that time mom came from the kitchen set on the other side of chair beside Papa and said....

''my baby is getting thinner lately ...look I made your favorite dish today😊''

''thank you☺..you are the best mom👍''I replied

Papa just smiled looking at me eating with my whole mouth stuffed with food as I was trying to make them laugh.

After a moment there was little silence I was eating with just a blank face that I usually have when I m not talking. I notice my parents are sharing eye contacts and moving their heads as they may be telling each other to say something (in signals).

I didn't mind it much maybe they were just talking about something, just then Papa speak...

''ummm.... Annie (MY NAME)... actually dear, me and your mom wanted to talk with you....''

''sure papa'' I replied with a little nervous smile as I was confused what he wanna talk about.

It became my habit of getting nervous even during the simplest conversations between 3 of us tooo.

''umm...how are you my princess? ''Papa asked with the soft tone

I get confused and replied ''I...I am fine ''

Papa hold my left palm lightly and mom hold my right one and mom said

''my baby we felt that you are not yourself lately ,if there is something bothering you,you could tell us .''

I smile a little and answer her..''I am fine mom''

but as we all know parents can never be fooled.

Papa hold his grip on my hand a little tighter with his both hands and softly asked

''Dear we know that something is bothering you...... my little princess is bothered by something and it's ok that you don't want to tell us your troubles. while trying to grow up we want to handle our burdens ourselves ....but we should understand that while growing and improving , we shouldn't lose ourselves as who we are and what really makes us happy and let us feel that IT'S GOOD TO BE ALIVE .....

so me and your mom just want to ask that.....how are you my dear? 😊"

....to be continued❤

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''How are you my dear?😊''

....that single sentence from Papa and mom made my mind blank and without realizing a tear drop 😢fall from my eyes.

Without a sec wait Papa immediately taken me into his warm embrace.... full of love and care.

Within a moment mom also joined that hug.

That night no one talked about anything. That moment...

, after a very long time I felt that 'yes ,They are the reason I am living for, I want them to be happy for me and I also wanna be happy with them and make them feel proud that they give birth to me and raised me.'

While thinking about these things , feeling the warmth of their embrace and continuous crying I don't know when I fall asleep. All I remember was my parents telling me that....

''It's ok,.... you are doing great..😌.and you can do anything you want😊'' while patting my back.

When I open my eyes ,

they were a little swollen from all the crying last night. I don't know how I get into my room ,slept peacefully under the warm blanket that maybe mom covered me with.

I felt like something is feeling lighter in my heart not very much but it was enough to make me realize that somewhere in my heart I wanna go back to my old self.

I felt like.... Annie, the one who loves to smile and love to make new friends ,the one who never get afraid from hard work and always achieves her goals with her own efforts wants to come back.

But sometimes .....it takes a lot of time and patience for a dark rainy night to end..... But I am starting to feel that even though the rain is heavy but there is hope that the dawn will come soon .

Although the conversation between me and my parents helped me to let them know that there are things troubling me

,but the anxiety and insecurities that have taken place in a corner of my heart still stopping to change back.😞

I get freshen myself up and came downstairs as mom had called me 10 min ago for breakfast.

I felt a little nervous as I thought ,that they may gonna ask some questions to me .

....I silently go to the dining table where Papa was reasing a newspaper .....(nervously) I greeted him

''g..Good morning Papa 😅''

Papa closed his newspaper paper and look towards me

....now I was really afraid what would he goona say ,will he be angry😠 that why I didn't tell him about my troubles or sad 😕that why I was only thinking about himself and not about them.

Then.......

( to be continued)😌

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