I used to dream about to become a actress.....

I soon realized how tough life is to be an actress.

...Here is a small story about myself....am sana am 21(current age) when I was 6 my father used to take me to the shooting area where movies shoot....

My father said that he always wanted to become an actor since 9 but he never became an actor because of his family problems but he used to visit this place often and he too wanted to take me to this place.

I always used to asked my father about how an actress life is ...he said that its a nice profession and he too wanted to become an actor..

He always said me about his past goals and he wanted me to fulfill his goals by becoming an actress and I never refused to fulfill his goals.

I used to think that his goals are my goals. And from that day I had an one and only aim to become an actress. My mother also used to support me.

After one day my parents were returning from a party, I was alone at home I got a call from the hospital that my parents met an accident and they died in the spot and the doctors tried to save them but failed ...hearing that i was really shocked i couldn't speak or move for a while and then I got my sense i immediately went to see my parents.

I was all alone for the lifetime i was having a great family and I had lost them forever I couldn't stop my tears at the time, I cried - cried for three days I didn't ate any food nor sleep, I was feeling very lonely after one day..

...My life changed from since I met that person he was a friend of my father and he was really good to me, he take me to his home buy me a new clothes and take care of me just like my father....

Time passed I grew up to an teenager and it was my time to fulfill my father dreams and I went in search of studios but no one selected me they used to said I don't have any background I am just slum... I was very sad, acting was my dream my, my world , my everything I was ready to do anything to become an actress and then my uncle told me that he knew a producer and he can take me to him. I immediately changed my clothes, took my stuffs and went with my uncle...

My uncle take me to the producer house. It was so big and Beautiful, it has a very big garden with swimming pool. We went inside in every corner there was standing a bodyguard and securities. One of the bodyguard stopped us and was asking that who are we , my uncle told that he knew the producer. But the bodyguard was not listening he was pushing us and then my uncle shouted and the producer came out of his room he slapped the bodyguard and told him to bring them to his room and that he knew us. The bodyguard took us to his room, it was a master bedroom with two beds. The producer bring us some soft drinks and snacks. He sat my uncle talk to him personally for a while and then he said me to follow the producer and to do what he tells me. And I not refused and follow him he take to me to his big attic and said " to become an actress we have to do some things which is not very hard but its necessary. I asked him what is it and he came closer to me and whisper the things to me silently..And from hearing those things I was shocked and stood up from the chair. He said that "..............................

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He said " that I have to sleep with him like every week then only he can do something about my career ".

Really I was very shocked I didn't know that an actress should do these all things to become an actress ...it was like hell of my life..The producer said that every actress go through it and I too have to do this.. but really I can't do this type of things.

I ran to my uncle and told him about the producer's condition, he too agreed with the producer and said it simply ,it has no problem to do , it is common.. but really I have to do these dirty things to become an actor..No matter what but I will not do this type of things to become an actress.. I don't want anyone's support, I will stand up on my own.

After saying that I escape from the bungalow, my uncle ran after me, he was shouting to wait but I didn't listen to him and I ran as fast I can.

I was running very fast that I didn't saw the vehicle coming in front of me and I crash, I was unconscious and fell, the driver was drunken and I too did not seen the vehicle coming. The driver was very scared but he did not ran away he helped me, he take me to the hospital and admitted me , pay the cash and all..

Later, I came to my senses, I was conscious and the driver and my uncle were standing beside me, they two were worried. My uncle came closer to me and said that I will be discharge tonight, thanks to God that there was not very serious injuries. And he too thanked the driver.

I said to my uncle that I don't want to do that kind of things to become an actress, it is kind of crime, I will do anything except these kind of things.

My uncle said, that I don't have to worry he will do something.

I said..I have to become an actress by my talent not by doing such a ***** things but I felt that I am not going to give up.

I trusted my uncle and we went to his home, I was too tired and I got a small stitch in my knees, so it was hurting badly. I took a bath and after taking bath, I went to bed.

Next morning, I wake up and went to the bathroom to freshen up, and went downstairs to do breakfast and I see that the producer was in the house holding a cup of tea, talking to my uncle and i shouted at him that " why is he here", my uncle said me to calm down and told me that the producer came up this morning to visit you that you were injured but you were sleeping so I told him to sit and asked him something to eat or drink, he just asked me tea.

My uncle said that, I don't have to worry he will not force me to do that kind of things, he felt very guilty and he wanted to give you a chance a real one without any conditions and I believe him once again and agreed with him.

..."THAT WAS MY BIG MISTAKE THAT I HAVE DONE "...

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So I believed that producer and went to his home for the auditions. I was very excited, my auditons were great and he told me that he will contact a director and if they liked ur auditons then u can make a film and I will produce.

After listening that I was very means very happy and I went to my home and told my uncle everything and he too was very happy..I didn't sleep all night thinking of the results that will come tomorrow by the producer..

Next morning, I wake up early and freshen up, and went to the producer. The producer was waiting for me in the hall room with a gift. I asked what all are this , he said you selected and I jumped with joyness, really this is the day , I was waiting so long and today is the day after a long time it was a happy day in my life, I hugged the producer and he handed me the gift, in that gift there was a contract for a movie and seeing this I was more happy. I called my uncle and said everything, he too was very happy.

The producer said that we have a meeting with the director and i agreed, the meeting was at the afternoon so I went my home freshen up for the meeting and went to the producer house together we went to the studio where the director was waiting, I wish him and he said me to sit down and said the producer to wait outside.

The director gives me the contract and tells me to sign, I asked him " where is the script " he said that the there is no need for the script for me he will direct me, means he will tell me the lines before shoot, so I didn't ask more questions and I agreed, the director said me to wait outside and send the producer inside , so I do what he said, I was waiting outside and thinking what they are whispering then I thought why I care , I should be happy that I have got the movie chance no matter what if the director shows the script or not.

I thought that I could call my uncle and tell him everything so I call him and said everything, he too was thinking that why the director did not show me the script but then I said " leave that all, we should party " and my uncle said " ok u come faster I will be waiting for you and the producer " after saying that I hang up the phone and the producer also came out and we went to our house , on the way the producer said me that the shooting will be starting from Tomorrow so be ready and I agreed.

We party all night and all went to theirs rooms, I was very tired and it was late so I went to bed and next morning I wake up and freshen up and went the studio all were waiting there , they gave me a outfit and send me with a make-up designer , the outfit was very deep and short and the makeup were also like a sexy woman look , we were shooting the film and the scenes were very dirty like adult films, so I asked the director that we are shooting a adult film, he said " no my dear it a romantic thriller movie , it will contain such scenes, don't you see romantic movies " and I said " o yes yes ok no problem " then we continued the film.

In every scenes there were vulgar languages, and all ......it went a year to complete a movie, atlast the poster came and after seeing the poster and name of the film I got shocked......

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