Hey Pristine Eko (that's me),

You know what talking to oneself is the best medicine to ignore loneliness when you have no friends. Some finds its crazy but I tell you it's the best thing . I am not sure if talking to myself like a schizophrenic is the answer I'm looking for. But I have got to try.

My head's dizzy thinking about my awful life.

I'm Pristine the 3rd child in the Eko family but this doesn't deny the fact that I have two more siblings after me . You know what having a lot of siblings are sometimes great fun but there are also certain limitations, I have two elder sisters one younger brother just after me and a little sister. When I was born my mom was not at all happy with me cause she wanted a boy child instead of a girl child , l heard she cried a lot at that time but I guess she had her own reasons.

When I was young my mom used to dress me in boy's clothes,I also had a boy haircut and looked exactly like a boy also the greatest thing was that I had all the hobbies of that of a boy..l liked guns more than dolls, had a no.of boyfriend's than girlfriends blah...blah...

You know what after my baby brother was born things started changing my mom wanted me to dress like girls, act like those feminine girls, things were changing at a very fast rate . One day my mom dressed me in girls clothing I was like "what the heck" l cried a lot and refused to wear those clothes I was afraid that my male friends would make fun of me but my mom scolded me and said,"Do you want to become a boy even after you you grow up?"At last I lose and wore that dress till the end of the day. My mom was like,"that's my girl"

l really don't know why but since my childhood I really didn't liked disappointing my mom l was always taken care by my dad who was the most loving father in the whole universe.

l was full of confidence since my early age because I was good at everything. l was the topper of the class, good at speaking, favourite student of every teacher and also the class monitor but as I was growing I started lacking confidence because I found myself to be an ugly creature. l was fat, dark in appearance, and my teeth needed correction l used to think that l was the most ugliest creature with a big mouth. And the worst thing was that l didn't looked like my other siblings I jst thought that I was adopted and was the black sheep of the family. My mother would always tell me that I'll become her most beautiful daughter but I knew it was a total lie and I didn't even stand a chance with my sisters as they were the goddess of beauty and also my younger brother was the chocolate boy of his school. Nobody would tell us that we were siblings by looking at us unless they did some investigation.

I will turn 16 this month and joining a new school a lot of my old friends were saying that I changed a lot and they couldn't even recognise me properly and I would be like(in my head)"how could they not recognise such an ugly creature".But yeah sometimes I agree that I have changed, I am a new me now.

"Let's start fresh" I would be saying every morning to myself. I am a grown up now and I am not the old me , I have changed a lot i am a normal girl now who wear normal girl dresses and a well behaved shy nature girl.

I wonder why my parents keep insisting me that I should sit in the hostel with my elder sister I really don't get them. First I don't like my second sister second I quarreled all the time with her. We two are like North Pole and South Pole which will never go in same direction but now what a destiny we are both at our new school lifting down luggage from the vehicle to enter the new hostel Oops this is really awkward!. Pristine pass your trolly here I'll carry it for you,dad said." yes!yes! dad here."

I really am very nervous at this moment will I make new friends here? Will everybody like me? this questions are taking over my head.

Pristine!Pristine! dad said, ooh yes Dad! I answered. Pristine you were standing still for few minutes did something happened?

No dad! I was a bit nervous that's all nothing more than that (I just don't want to worry him)

Dad I guess she's day dreaming, Rian said(second sister) with a big laughter. I would be like in my head(Just give me a chance I'll surely kill you) with a cunning smile in my face. Okays girls don't waste any more time dada will be going soon so Just unpacked your things,dad said.

By the way dad where are the other girls?Rian asked. l also wanted to ask the same question dad. Well my sweeties, other girls are all attending their tuition they will be back in a few minutes,dad said.

(After few minutes)

Okay girls both of you know right how much your mom and dad loves you,dad said.

Yes Dad! both of us answered. Okay then I'll be get going now always support each other and love each other, dad said. Bye dad both of us answered with tears in our eyes.(Dad started the engine and went away) Hey pristine I am gonna take a shower will you come with me, Rian asked. No! I answered arrogantly. Rian went to bathroom and I sat on the bed I heard some footsteps which were walking towards the door then suddenly I heard a voice, "hey Pristine why do you walk so fast"? It was a girl's voice. I was astonished for a moment then I saw an angel coming throughout the door. I was shocked to see such an angelic beauty walking towards me. She was as white as snow had rose petals like pink lips oval shaped face and a perfect curved body. Finally she walked towards me and asked hey new girl what's your name? (wow she has such an angelic voice) I was mesmerized by her voice..

she repeated her words and asked again with a smile. Me...Me..(stammering) I am Pristine Eko, I replied. My name is Pristine too(she shouted with excitement) well you know we can be friends, she said(in a shy tone) . I just couldn't believe I thought I was dreaming such a beauty wanted to be friends with me.

Then suddenly other people came running from behind the door they were listening our conversation from the start by hiding behind the door. One girl came forward and asked, In which standard are you? I quickly replied I am in 10th standard. She seemed to be very happy and said," I and Pristine are in Your same standard". I wonder why they look so excited. "Hey Pristine I think I left my clothes here", Rian said. All the people started murmuring,"wow! what a beauty" they look like celebrities. (have I heard correctly? the people are saying "they" are they referring to me as well my cheeks are turning red). Meanwhile Rian got the clothes and started moving towards her bed some seniors were with Rian try their best to get her attention yeah it's not a new thing for Rian I don't know why everybody likes her a lot.

At night:- (I miss momma and Dada I don't know why I can't control my tears. Everyone is asleep and yeah! why this freaking room is so dark i am feeling so scared right now I just want to shout out loud if anybody sees me they'll surely make fun of me so Pristine stop this hell tears right now)

Hey pristine!! Pristine!!

why do I hear someone calling me it's making me more scared...oohh my tears.

"You dumbo it's me", Rian said.

Rian?? what are you doing here?, I asked.

Give way,I am gonna sleep here I don't want to sleep alone tonight, Rian answered.

Okay if you are too much scared to sleep alone I'll let you sleep here but only for tonight, I said.( Thank god,Thank God I won't be sleeping alone tonight).

NEXT MORNING................