I wonder, if i stop pretending to be friends with them,

will i be back to my old self?

Will i able to accept people thoughts once again on how lonely i am?

But, i dislike that feeling...

Its scary

Yes, I would rather forget this feeling and keep on being friends with them, im sure its not that bad even with all those harsh words,

...

I guess,

Hydrangea Highschool,

In the classroom of 4 Astra

At 7:15 am

*by the way im from Malaysia,

In malaysia, 4 in highschool means 16 yrs old and Astra is the name of the class, it can be anything though, also, my school starts at 7:30 am and end at 1 pm* (thanks for reading 。^‿^｡)

While waiting for their teacher to come in,

Kei spends most of his time staring at the trees outside of their classroom

"Hi Kei!" a girl named Rika, with a big smile on her face smiling and waving to him.

*all students in that class looking at them for a moment*

Kei was surprised because they aren't close enough to wave back at each other, also a thought came across inside his head,

"isn't that girl famous?"

"what will be the other people view?"

"arent people going to think im flirting with her?"

He quickly smiled a little back at her and nodded

Rika pouted and a best friend of her named, Yuki approached her,

"why? Don't you think its obvious he clearly ignored you?"

"shhh keep it down, just whispering,will you? *sigh* asked Rika"

"Yuki, its frustrating me already the fact he just smiled back, what's with him though?"

"If i were you, i would felt embarrassed" said Yuki

"ugh Yuki, Im in major frustration right now so I asked you to stop saying anything regarding him again, you are no different" Rika rolling her eyes

"Didn't i told you to ignore him? He is just an arrogant person, seems lonely but its all for attention, what a sad boy",

Yuki laughed and tried hard to make Rika, leave Kei.

"Yuki, i asked you to stop, didn't i?"

"Ah sorry, my mistake," a face of unsatisfied clearly shown by Yuki

...

Meanwhile, Kei listened...

"Haha.. I heard them talking about me again, its always like this, don't they know what whispering is?"

Kei is known as a really quiet person in the class, everyone who knows him from middle school surprised how quiet he turned out to be,

No one ever asked him why and what happened. Even so, he managed to be friends with Taisei and Ryouma.

Ryouma

He always skipped his class so its normal for him to not know what happened to their buddies especially Kei in class and he don't bother to ask him

Taisei

He is actually kinda close to everyone due to his friendly behavior, but also due to that, he often forgot his friends when he meets other people and left them behind.

*Even now, Taisei left Kei alone and talking to his other friends until the teacher arrived.*

"Its not that i hate them but i felt lonelier than before,even though we went home together and eat during recess together... It just- i know that im really quiet, i also hate this", Kei silently whispering to himself.

Without him knowing, Rika stare at him and noticed he began to feel down..

Rika knows he has he own reasons for acting so, and Rika want him to achieve his confidence back like he was in middle school

"Yes i will approach him whatever it is!"

"I want to see that sweet smile of him again!"

*rika smile*

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*The bell rang shows its the time for students to go home*

"Im afraid he will think me as stalker KYAAA, or should i ask bluntly why he looked so down earlier? NO NO, he will think me as a total freak stalker or think i like him OH MY GAWD!!! I also don't know why I want to meet him so bad, but that face...", Rika has been talking to herself for a while.

"wait i don't see Kei"

"Lemme ask students who's passing by"

"ano kyouka-chan, ( also known as top students in school)

"ahhhh Rika, *wait she know my name* yes why? *that famous girl name Rika right?" she replied while fixing her glass

"um, do you happened to meet Hisashi Kei?"

"eh are you guys actually dating? I heard rumors that you two are?"

*Nani?*

" Noooo!!! please dont get any wrong thoughts, we are nothing like that hehe" *omg I swear im gonna strangle the person who spread this rumor*

"oh Is that so? Well, from what i usually noticed, he often went home quickly with his two other friends, so by now, maybe he is already on his way home"

"already? Im so late okay, thanks kyouka-chan!!! Get home safely bye!!"

*she's really know well how to social, she doesn't make me feel nervous at all although she's a popular kid*

After a while she was running,

"There is him!"

"Hisashi Kei!" Rika screamed

"Haaa??? How he couldn't hear me? Maybe im still far from him? Im tired of running *poor my leg*"

Meanwhile-

Taisei: So do you and that girl close while you were in middle school?

Kei: N-no, we rarely talk to each other too

Ryouma: why the heck you don't even smile though? Don't show that face to me, joking HAHAH

*later on, Ryouma walks infront of Taisei and Kei*

Taisei: As a fellow friend, I'm advise you to stay cautious around Rika, she's pretty and rich, there's must be something bad she planning to do to you

Kei: But, I dont th-

*Rika stop infront of them with her hand wide open*

Rika: And how do you know, I really have bad intention or not? How can you labeled me so easily when I don't even remember the last time I talked to you ugh you really makes my blood boiling

Taisei: Ha??

Ryouma: Lets go on ahead Taisei, Kei's girlfriend has come to fetch him HAHAHAH my friend cannot protect himself

"Why are you here Rika?" Kei sighed

"Kei, I have something to ask"

"Make it quick, look, my friends abandoned me because of you"

"Hey! They were treating you bad and you still call them friends?"

"Nothing? then I will go on ahead"

"You were looking sad, and its bothered me"

"I'm sorry, my looks bothering you, I get that a lot from my brother, I can't control my expression"

*walks away*

"What? Wait Kei!" *holds his hand*

"Let go of me Rika"

"Kei, I don't want your apology, actually I- wanna ask why were you sad?"

Rika: Are you okay?

"I'm sorry, I didnt know my action makes you cried, Is everything all right?"

*when was the last time someone asked me if Im alright*

"I heard you and your friends spoke ill about me then you pretended to get close to me?"

"No,you get it all wrong,"

*Does our relationship really can't turn back like before?*

"Fine, I'll bring it up, is it because I left you and fly to New York three years ago without saying anything? Its because I lost my phone that time so I lost all my contact numbers"

"And it was a really quick plan, I told my parents that I want to meet you but they refused"

*he began to cried painfully*

"Do you still love me Kei?"

"I need time"

"Kei, I still love you! you don't know how happy I am when I transferred this year and knowing you and I in the same class!"

*she cried*

"Then you pushed me away, not just today but many times already"

*Kei quickly turned his back, rush to Rika and hug her*

"I hate seeing you crying"

"I can't say I love you just yet, I'm not ready because while you were away, many things had happened, and I needed time, Im sorry"

"His sight becomes fading*

*Rika wiped her tears*

Rika: you look pale, Kei

Rika:Are you tired?

Kei: Maybe, but I'm a bit dizzy

Rika: Lemme help you walk

Kei: *pushed Rika away* I can walk by myself

Suddenly, he fainted

Rika: Kei!!!

.

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*Kei opened his eyes*

"Kei!",Rika shouted

"Where am I?"

*Kei quickly sit and look around*

"Hospital? Rika, why did you bring me here?"

"Kei, you have low sugar level in your body, lie down first, you need to prioritize your health over anything else!"

"Rika, how much I have to pay for these? I can't be here,"

"Huh? How am I supposed to know?tell me, what did you eat these past few days?

*Kei look into Rika's eyes and understand how worry she is*

*Kei hold Rika's hands*

"Listen, Im glad it just low sugar, and I'm thank you for worrying and taking me here, Rika you know, this morning, I know something off with my body, but I think it will get better soon or later, also, I don't have that much money right now to pay these"

*wait did he just said he glad?*

"where are your parents? This isn't something that a child need to pay"

"Well, Rika, it has been two years since I live alone, and as I said, many things has happened,"

*Kei look up at Rika and smile softly*

*I did said I want to see him smile but, this smile seems so hurt and sad"

"You! Kei Baka!"

"How can I say anything when you smile to me like that!"

"And Im sure this doesn't need to pay that much,so I will pay for you"

"Rika, I will pay you back, I promise, I have part time work anyway,sorry for troubling you"

"Fine if you insist to pay me back, I don't mind either way but I will give you until at the end of this month, If you aren't able to pay me back at that time, I will consider it as you didn't indebt me"

"Sounds good"

"Also, sorry for the way I'm treating you before"

"It just doesn't feel right to me"

"*sigh* I have tons of questions to ask but I think I shouldn't be selfish, so tell me when you feel you want to"

*Kei smile*

*Kei began to pinch Rika cheek*

"You should do the same, I also want to know many things about you,it's been three years anyway"

*Rika smiled*

*Since Kei was hospitalized yesterday, he able to go home the day after*

*On their way back*

Kei: Im sure they are many men at New York that caught your eyes

Rika: Well, they are, we even went out for blind dates *smirk*

Kei: So, the thought of thinking about me, I don't think it was a lie, plus you were the one who confessed to me yesterday isn't ? Or am I wrong?

Rika: *blush* you are the one m-make m-!

Kei: The one what? *Kei enjoyed teasing Rika since it's been so long

Rika: nandemonaiyo ( nothing)

Kei : *chuckles* can I pat your head?

Rika: don't ask me that silly question

*Kei pat Rika's head*

Rika: Why are you so quiet in the class? Can I see the same Kei now for the next school day?

*Kei moved his hand away slowly*

Kei: I don't know but maybe if I'm with you, I'll be the same

Rika: why?

Kei: I'm having trouble to socialize, since -

Rika: since when? You weren't like this..Oh I remembered you always be at the front of attention, giving speech and sort, and people acknowledged you oh and and they even thought us as a power couple!

Kei:*laugh* Maybe your presence could change me back, I also miss the good times

Rika:Wait, Kei! you told me you live alone right?" Can I look into your house?*excited*

Kei: Rika, Im your ex, don't you feel embarrassed? *cover his mouth**blush*

Rika: Why would I? We knew each other for so long?

Kei: Next time, I will let you, but not today gomen Rika *worry*

Rika: And why is that? Is your house messy? I thought you really prioritize when it comes to cleanliness

Kei: Ehe

Rika: Hm?

Rika: Hey! I thought your house was that way? Don't follow me KeiKei

Kei: As a gentleman, I must ensure your safety till you reached your home (wink)

Rika: you are really something, people at school sure couldn't recognized you now (chuckle)

...

*Rika finally reached her home*

Kei: Thank you for everything Ri!, Take care!

Rika: you are not in the place to say so,well,welcome Kei!

*Kei waved his hand as goodbye*

*Kei walked away*

Kei: Her presence is really something else..

*look up the sky*

*Even how many times I pushed you away, but you still*

(sigh)

"I love you Rika and no one able to replace you...

you will always and always be the only girl I love"

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