Ai Zhe POV

A reunion between my Dad friends were held. Mr. Sung invited us to catch up with their businesses and personal life.

Upon arriving to their Villa he welcomes our family, greeted us and as usual he treated my Dad so special because they are really good friend and they have been business partner for so many years.

As for me who aloof myself from anybody even my personal maid ignores me, I begun to wonder around outside their Villa to explore and get rid of my boredom, hatred and to escape from the looks of other family. (looks with pre-judgement)

I continue to walk further and hear some water flowing then when I finally reached the side of the river bed, I sat down beside it and begin to asks myself why am I alive? What's the purpose of being alive if nobody notices you? no one acknowledge you? no one cares about you and nobody loves you? Why am I still here? Mom if you're still here I don't care about how they treated me as long as I have you by my side, but what about now Mom? then I begun to cry and suddenly shout out of my chest that if you're still alive Mom I know I wouldn't end up like this!

A non stop cry that continues that hinting myself to just end my life, then suddenly I heard noises from the woods I ask who's there? And because of too much crying my vision were not really clear, but when he finally shows up I notice with a slight vision that it was only a boy around my age I guess? and said that don't cry you're uglier when you cry and respond I don't really care about how I look now I just wanted to die right now he holds my hand and said that don't worry I promise I'll protect you from now on!

[He say those words and hold my hand sincerely]

He didn't ask about anything maybe he heard me shouting? But I just can't stop crying remembering my Mom's face, the only person who can accepts and love me for real, but this hand I'm holding feels warm and I feel comfortable. Then he ask are you done crying? Can we go back to the Villa? I responded I can't stop myself from crying, but if you want to go back, then I won't stop you, he said that I can't go back if you're not with me. Hearing that respond I keep on wondering what he looks like but I still can't see him clearly because my eyes were still swollen from my non stop cry and replied okay let's go back with a swollen eyes and smile on my face.

He quickly go and went to the path were we came from and tigthly grabs my hand and ask are you afraid of the dark? I answered him yes I'm afraid of it and he begun to pull me faster and said it's getting late we must come back as early as possible before the nights come.

Ai Zhe POV

[Alarm from the clock]

Ai: It's 9 AM already? (getting up from my bed and take a shower) while at the bathroom words on her mind begin to ask. Hmmm I was dreaming the same dream again is that really part of my childhood days?! Or it's only part of my dream I don't know anymore if it's real or not, all I can remember is that I'm willing to die back then.

(from 15 years ago) That day, all I can remember and I'm very sure it's real is that I brought humiliation to our family because of what I've done. (remembering what happened) my personal maid scolding me and asking where I have been? tsk you can actually notice that her intensions is kinda off and acting to care even tho she doesn't notice me missing, I frankly answered her tsk.. quit acting I know you didn't care about me, it's written all over your face that you didn't even notice me I'm gone, the reason she got irritated and quickly grab my hand then brought me in front of my Dad.

[Dad flirting with my Step Mom]

(the maid greeted my dad) and begin to continue her malicious plan and told my Dad that Madam Ai is been a brat and doing everything that pleases her, she even told him that I'm the one who's humiliating my personal maid even tho I'm the one who's humiliated by her (a nanny that scolding me like she really cares about me tsk that pisses me off) My Dad yell at me and told me to become a decent woman and since you're part of Zhe family you must know discipline and know how to behave yourself, I whisper you believe my personal maid that easily? You believe her more than me? Then he slaps me in front of everyone! and shouted at me, you brat!! When did you learn to behave like that huh? Tsk then he whisper to a very thin voice that he hope that I've died along with my Mom. Remembering that boy is only part of my delusions and the nightmare who chases me all this time is what my father told me back then. (kneeling, sobbing inside the shower and raise my head up) saying the words if only I died along with you Mom, I can be together with you!

[After bathing myself and look on the calendar]

Oh It's already Sunday so tomorrow will be the opening remarks of our University. I may atleast be thankful that I'm living near my University and away from those toxic people, but those bad memories with them always hunt me like a prey hinting me that I'm nothing in this world, tsk applying me to college is to not bring any shame from their names, if only I can be someone else, wasting my whole year studying diligently and been aced from my elementary days up until now, but nobody praises me those medal and certificates is nothing but a trash, if that someday is today I can literally change my life, but that's nearly impossible to make.

Do I need to prepare for tomorrows opening? Hmm I think there's nothing to worry about I'm just a nobody after all.

Ai Zhe POV

[then tomorrows come]

Ai woke up early and turn off the alarm clock telling myself this is unusual! Is this excitement? How come? Why do I feel this way it's like somethings going to happen and it give me chills.

[open my window and stare outside for a while]

It seems nothing change, I can no longer see the beauty of this scenery no matter how long I look at it, it's still the same, I feel so empty.

[saw the notes from my calendar]

The opening remarks will held at the school theater 11:00 AM. This is my last year at college, am I really gonna go with it? Why do I feel this way? Is this what it feels to be excited? This questions of mine always wanted me to kill myself! Why do I even have to finish studying? if I knew I'll ended up like one of the maids! This really frustrate me.

[after taking a bath]

I do hope that taking a shower and cleaning up yourself make a difference like can I be someone else? Can I be like other person wanting to live and fulfill their dreams? Can I ask God for the impossibles? Can I really make a difference? Because, whatever I do nobody cares, like who would care about me even my Dad don't love me at all, what am I expecting that someone would actually rescue me from this terrible life of mine.

I'd rather kill myself than be a burden to someone else life. And yes I'm actually okay with it if I can choose between life or death I rather die cause I don't want to live like this anymore. It's like I'm living in hell I think it worst than hell.

Living this kind of life, can I hope for a little bit? Can I actually wish that someone can find me? And fall for me? Okay I give up, I know no one will stand up for me, and I know no one could ever fall inlove with me it's impossible

(preparing my suff) did I forget something? Nope I guess I'm ready atleast I can live my life freely as it is, really thankful to have this dorm.

As I open the door I already expected the bullies always gossiping around and laughing about me, those judgemental eyes one of the reason I always look down so nobody will initiate to talk to me, as if someone actually does it.

[Strangers gossiping around]

Stranger 1: She's the daughter of Mr. Zhe right? Why did she have to live in this ordinary dorm if her family were so rich.

Stanger 2: I don't know, but did you hear that maybe she's adopted and she's pretending to be part of the Zhe family.

Stranger 1: Yes, I heard about it a few years ago is that for real?

Stranger 2: Maybe! Haha acting so great in her academics tsk she's nothing but a trash no one even dare to talk to her.

(rebutting on her statement in my mind) I will never deal with this low standards tsk!

Then I ignore them like I didn't hear them smile at them and greet them.

Ai: Hi Good Morning! don't be late to our opening remarks. (with a big smile)

Strangers: Tsk she pisses me off!

And I ran out after saying those words so I can get rid of those stupid strangers.