'CHAOS' BY 'FATES'
Chapter 1
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
Ren Hayashi (林 蓮)
Meaning: “Lotus of the forest.”
Vibe: Soft-spoken, kind, and fragile. like someone who finds quiet beauty even in darkness.
“Ren” (lotus) symbolizes purity born from pain, and “Hayashi” (forest) adds a lonely but peaceful tone.
Akihiko Sera (Ml)
Akihiko Sera (瀬良 明彦)
Meaning: “Bright prince of goodness.”
Vibe: Warm, mature, and dependable. the kind of person who brings light.
明 (Aki) = light, bright, clear, wise
彦 (hiko) = boy, young man, or hero
瀬 (se) = stream, current, flow of water
良 (ra) = good, gentle, beautiful
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Ren Hayashi (Mc)
*typing… then deleting*
He lay in the dark, his phone screen glowing against the bruised quiet of his room. No messages. No missed calls.
"Do you ever wonder what it feels like to vanish?"
"I think I’d be easier to love if I stopped breathing."
Trembling in the chat box like a secret begging to be heard.
He pressed backspace until every letter disappeared.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
*whispering* No one would care anyway.
Outside, rain tapped gently against the window
'The only voice that ever answered him.'
He looked at his reflection. Hollow eyes. Lips that haven’t spoken in years.
He tried once, long ago… but people laughed. After that, he just stopped trying.
In the corner of his room lay a rope. Not tied yet.
Just waiting.
Like him.
A small sound escaped his throat
Something between a sob and a laugh.
He didn’t want revenge. He didn’t want pity.
He just wanted the pain to stop.
Someone broke through the door.
Hands pulling him back into the light.
Unknown
Don’t you dare disappear on me.
The world blurred. Sirens. Tears. And for the first time, Ren Hayashi spoke
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
*trembling* I… just wanted someone… to listen.
Chapter 2
There was a little boy. barefoot, standing in the corner of a small house where no one ever said his name kindly.
Ren mother
Ren, stop staring like that. You’re creepy.
Ren father
Can’t even talk properly. Waste of space.
The words cut deeper than the bruises they left behind.
Ren didn’t understand why his voice made them angry. He only wanted to say “good morning.”
At school, he sat in the back
When teachers asked questions, he looked down. When classmates whispered, he heard everything.
Classmate 1: “He’s weird.”
Classmate 2: “Maybe he’s mute.”
Classmate 3: “Nah, he’s just dumb.”
That sound became his background music.
He learned to smile when it hurt, to nod when he wanted to scream.
One day, a teacher caught him drawing in his notebook.
A picture of a boy standing under a bright sky
Teacher
You should focus on real life, Hayashi. You’ll never get anywhere just dreaming.
That day, he tore the drawing into tiny pieces and threw it out the window.
Each piece drifted away like a part of his heart.
Little Ren Hayashi
*trembling* If I’m quiet… maybe they’ll love me someday.
Until the day his mother forgot his birthday.
Ren father
Why were you even born?
That was the night Ren stopped crying.
He learned that tears don’t bring comfort.
He grew up like a ghost in his own home.
The boy who never spoke. The boy no one saw.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
*trembled* I wasn’t trying to die… I just wanted it to stop.
Chapter 3
Ren sat on the edge of a cold metal chair, hands shaking against his knees.
He hadn’t spoken to anyone in years. Not really. Not like this.
Across from him sat a man in uniform. calm eyes, gentle voice.
A notepad rested on the table, but he hadn’t written a single word.
Officer
Ren Hayashi, right? You don’t have to be afraid.
Officer
Just want to understand why you tried to… *Hesitated.*
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
I wasn’t trying to… die.
The words came out like fragile glass. unsteady, but real.
Officer
Then what were you trying to do?
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
I Wanted… everything to stop.
The officer didn’t interrupt.
That silence.. for once.. didn’t feel cruel.
Ren’s throat tightened. His hands trembled. He looked down, unable to meet the man’s eyes.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
My parents… they never looked at me.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
Not once.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
I Tried to be good. I tried to make them proud.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
But I was always… wrong. *laughed weakly*
The sound of someone who forgot how to.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
When I was little, I used to practice talking to the mirror.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
Just so maybe… maybe I’d sound normal one day. But even then… I couldn’t say a single word out loud.
A tear slipped down his cheek, unnoticed.
Officer
You don’t sound wrong to me.
Those five words. simple, ordinary. shattered something inside him.
He covered his face with his hands, and for the first time in years, he sobbed.
Ren Hayashi (Mc)
*crying* I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being… me.
Officer
Don’t apologize for existing, Ren.
That was the moment his life began to shift
Quietly, almost painfully.
For the first time, someone called him by his name…
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