Please Look At Me
Ash and Shin
Ash
(I was so full of myself, i gaslighted myself by the fact that I was happy being in love with him but the truth is......is.....)
Shin
When will you stop being so lazy? I always come to your house first thing in the morning just to wake you up
Ash
*pout* you know that it's hard for me to get up every morning *feeling sorry*
[their walking down the road to school]
Shin
*stop walking and look at Ash* it's..be..cause..you...are..so..la..zy *finger poking at Ash's forehead*
Ash
owww~~ *hand on the forehead* I'm sorry okay, I'll try to get up in time every morning
Ash
so stop scolding me *puppy eyes*
Shin
*poked Ash's forehead again a little hard* don't try just do it, tomboy. Acting childish in front of me won't do you any good I will still scold you
Ash
Then, you can go to school without me---
Shin
Then you will be late every morning and then crying when tests are coming *calmly shouted*
Shin
*put hands on the pocket of his pants* you need to be a little independent because i'm not always on your side *starts walking again
Ash
*look at Shin's back with a sadness on her eyes*
Ash
(as I look at his back and the distance with us getting wider I can't bring myself to get hurt even more, it's already painful that I can't tell him how I feel. The fact that we're best friends and on top of that we're childhood friends we grew up together, do things together when we were young and now we're teenagers and learned to fall in love I just can't bring myself to feel sad and sorry for him because I am being unfair to him and to our friendship. He sees me as his best girlfriend like a little sister but for me I can't see him without inner intensions anymore I want him all to myself but...but....I can't I....promised him to be his......bestfriend)
Ash
Shin, please look at me *whispered*
Chapter 2
Clair
Cera, why don't you change your hair color?
Cera
Tsk! Why should I? *rolled eyes*
Yumi
It's obvious, so that you won't get kicked out by our teacher and get summoned by the principal at the Principal's office
Ash
Really, are you planning on turning all the complaints about you into a book by the teachers, student council and other students *take a sip on the juice*
Cera
Yeah so that they won't forget me till we graduate *bit the bread*
[while they're eating their lunch and chatting Ash saw Shin walking in the corridor and beside him a cute girl]
[Ash watched them pass by till they disappeared. She know's what is going to happen, she know that Shin won't accept that girl's confession but she can't help but to feel a little bit of pain in her heart]
[Yumi,Cera, and Clair saw it. They saw how sad their friend's eyes are]
[Clair secretly kicked Yumi's feet saying that do something]
Yumi
Oh, I've got to go to the bathroom before the lunch ends *look at Clair*
Clair
Eh..ahh.. Yeah, I'll go with you to reattached my make up *small smile*
Ash
Ah okay, Cera and I will wait you here-----
[Both Cera and Ash looked at them with confused look]
[They all know that Ash is in love with her childhood friend Shin but won't do anything to make they're friendship fall apart]
[Clair is so frustrated about it that is why she'll do anything to make Ash confess to Shin ]
Clair
Let us go together *force a smile*
Yumi
Right, to take a selfie
[Yumi and Clair first to walk out in the classroom]
[Ash and Cera look at each other]
[they both let out a small laugh]
Cera
Let's just go even though we know that both of them loose a screw in here *pointed her temple*
Ash
Yeah *laughing silently*
[and they joined their friends]
[while their walking in the corridor to the bathroom Ash saw Shin walking across them]
[Shin saw Ash looking straight at him, he stopped in front of her]
Ash
What? *raised and eye brow*
Ash
I didn't receive ansshh---
[Shin pinch Ash's cheeck]
Shin
Stop lying I know you received it
Ash
I shaid I didn't recheive any
[Shin let go of Ash's cheeck]
Ash
*hands on her cheeck* owwww *teary eyes*
Shin
You know that i'm not comfortable with people sharing their emotions with *calm voice*
Ash
Shin, it's just a confession. A confession not some kind problem *crossed arms and pout*
Shin
*eyes squinted in suspicion* you did that on purpose, do you?
[their hands clasp together as if competing in strength]
Clair
Look at them so cute *getting excited*
Yumi
*clasp both hands* too sweet
Cera
Nah! They're just arguing
[Clair and Yumi look at Cera in Unison]
[Cera didn't answer instead she stared at Ash and smiled a little]
Cera
Ash..she's enjoying it
[all of them smiled looking at their friend enjoying a moment with her crush]
Ash
Ugh! So tired *tidying up her things*
[Ash is part of the soccer team]
[when she finished, she walked out of the classroom]
Ash
what is Shin doing right now?
Ash
*eyes widened* what are you doing here?
Shin
I just answered that question
Ash
(I thought he is already at home)
Ash
Shin, why did you wait for me?
Ash
You should've texted me earlier that your waiting for me *getting excited*
Shin
what is that stupid look on your face
Ash
Thinking that Shin is waiting for me, it makes me happy
Shin
*Look the other way* That is stupid
[Ash suddenly remember the time when Shin getting confessed to]
Ash
How do you feel when someone confesses their feelings to you?
Ash
why? You don't have girlfriend after all *held the strap of her bag tightly*
Shin
what do mean why? Am I supposed to get excited over turning down all their confessions? *look at Ash*
Ash
It's not that, what I mean is... *getting sad*
Shin
*saw her sad face* I get it
Ash
*look at him with slightly shock* eh?
Shin
i'm not interested in them, that's all *look at her with assurance*
Ash
*brighten face* really?
Ash
(I hope that someday I can convey this feelings of mine to you without hesitation and I am looking forward to it)
Chapter 3: Childhood Memories
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Ash
(Shin and I never know each other before when we were kids even though we were living in the same village and attending the same school)
Ash
(We never talk, never glanced each other, totally stranger to each other)
Ash
(everything changed after that day)
[at the convenience store]
Young Ash
Ring this up for me, please *handing over the ice cream to the cashier desk*
Cashier Lady
I will, cute little lady *smiled brightly*
Cashier Lady
*handed over the ice cream* here you go little lady
Young Ash
Thank you miss cashier *smile sweetly*
[The young lady walks out of the convenience store]
[when she's about to open her newly bought ice cream]
Young Ash
*approached him*
Young Shin
*look at her with tears in his eyes*
Young Shin
What are you looking at *annoyingly ask*
Young Ash
I heard you crying so i approached you
Young Shin
*wipe the tears and look the other way* I'm okay so go away already
Young Ash
*sat beside him* You wouldn't cry if you okay
Young Ash
Someone died in your family, right?
Young Shin
*holding back his tears*
Young Ash
Don't get me wrong, I just happen to pass by Infront of your house and saw you then...i saw you here today and i remember it's you *a little nervous*
Young Shin
My....*hesitating*
Young Ash
*look at him* your...?
Young Shin
*look down* Dad died...because of an accident and....
Young Shin
And.... *eyes squint with tears about to fall*
Young Shin
Fault *low voice*
Young Shin
If I didn't force him to buy me drawing tools he wouldn't die, if I didn't become a stubborn kid dad is alive right now, if i didn't force him to do what i want i...wouldn't lose my one and only bestfriend *crying*
Young Ash
*staring at him in silence*
[minutes passed the young boy Shin stop crying]
Young Ash
You stopped crying
Young Shin
Of course i will
Young Ash
Because your slowly getting better *smile a little*
Young Shin
why didn't you said anything?
Young Ash
Eh? Because, I don't know what to say. Both of my parents are alive so i don't know how to comfort you or how to make you feel better because.. i don't know how painful it is for you *look straight at the boy's eyes*
Young Ash
Oh! but still I'm so sorry
Young Ash
*look at him with serious eyes* but i want you to know that it's not your fault. My mom said that parent's will do anything to make their child happy, so your father did that but unfortunately something bad happen and it made you sad but still it's not your fault because accident is inevitable *sad voice*
Young Shin
*stared at her*
[silence surround them and it made the young Ash uncomfortable]
Young Ash
*remembered something* oh! I bought ice cream, wanna eat?
Young Ash
*showed the ice cream but it was already melted*
Young Ash
*it made her really sad*
Young Shin
*kept staring at her*
Young Shin
*took the ice cream from her hand and ate it even though it was already melted*
Young Ash
don't, it's already melted
Young Shin
*finished eating* I don't like sweet things but this one is fine
Young Ash
*faintly blushed*
Young Shin
*look at her* what?
Young Ash
Nothing *shaking her head vigorously*
Young Shin
You'll break your neck if you shake your head that hard
Young Ash
*look down in embarrassment* why did you..do that?
Young Ash
Ate the ice cream though it was already melted
Young Shin
You wanted to give that to me right? So I took it
[little Ash was interrupted when someone calling her name]
Ash's Mom
Aaashhhh!!! Aaasshhh!!!
[Little Ash saw her mom looking worried]
Young Ash
*suddenly got up and runs to her*
[Young Shin followed her with his gaze as she runs away]
Ash's Mom
*worried* where did you go? you said you'd only buy ice cream but you didn't go back so I got worried
Young Ash
I just..rested for a bit
Young Ash
I'm sorry for worrying you mom
Ash's Mom
No it's fine next time don't do that again, okay?
Young Shin
[staring at them]
Ash's Mom
Let's go home? *smiled brightly*
Young Ash
Okay *hold her mom's hand*
Young Shin
*look down in sadness*
[Young Shin thought that the conversation they shared is fun]
Young Ash
Bye little boy *shouted*
Young Shin
*look at her in surprise*
Young Ash
See you tomorrow and...
[what the little girl said next truly surprised and delighted the little boy]
Young Ash
I will be your best friend forever, I promised *cheerfully said, waving good bye*
Young Shin
*eye lit up*...
Young Shin
Yes *whispered to himself*
Young Ash
*walking on the road to school*
Young Ash
Did the little boy got home yesterday? *worried*
Young Ash
I told him to become his best friend forever but i didn't know his name and even the school his attending only his house i know
Young Ash
I can't just go to his house and said that i'm his friend
Young Ash
*a little depressed*
Young Shin
Stop sighing like that in the morning *calm voice*
[there is the young Shin standing Infront of the school gate waiting for the little girl]
Young Ash
*surprised* what...
Young Ash
what are you doing here? *still surprised*
Young Shin
I'm a student here too
Young Ash
I don't know that
Young Shin
Because we're totally stranger before
Young Shin
what? Don't tell me you forgotten your promised to me yesterday..?
Young Ash
*blushed a little* I didn't
Young Shin
It's that so, then let's go *started to walk*
Young Ash
Ah! Wait up.. *runs to him*
Young Ash
By the way, what is your name?
[and they walk together and become best friend forever until one of them fall in love]
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Author's Note: Thanks for reading my story, supporting it and appreciating my work is a blessing to me. Thanks a bunch and always take care. See you in the next chapter of Please Look at Me☺️
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