Monday 18th March, 2024.

Annoyingly bright rays of sunlight creeped into my room filling it with golden hues, although the morning sun can be beautiful, I despise it. I much prefer the moonlight and the dark blue sky.

I rolled over and grabbed my phone to check the time, 7:24am. Damn, guess I gotta hurry this morning, I took out something to put on and walked to the bathroom to start getting ready.

7:40am, I could've finished faster, however, I needed to change outfits. I didn't want to look like I had just woken up and threw something on, even though that's exactly what I did.

Quickly, I made my way downstairs to see a bowl of cereal with strawberries in it and a note next to it saying "Have a good day at school, I'll be a little late today - Love Mom" she always managed to incorporate my favorite foods into things and I loved her for it. I ate half of my breakfast and put the rest in the fridge for later.

7:47am, okay just you know 13 minutes to run 4 blocks to school aha...no problem you can do this Olivia. I put on my slightly dirty white sneakers, locked the door with the keys behind me and made my way to school.

8:02am, I definitely need to start working out or something because there's no way that I'm still late after how fast I was running. On the bright side at least, the hallways are mostly clear, I can actually see where I'm going for once and this morning, I have...oh looks like it's English nice, I can sleep through that one.

I picked up my textbooks for the rest of the day and headed on my way to my first class. 8:28am, I was rudely awakened by uhh...oh, this guy. A few weeks ago, there was a transfer student his name is Kade Harper, I believe they said he transferred because he was "too smart" for the other classes, ha yeah right too smart my ass.

I glared at him for the rude awakening, looked away, took a deep breath and got up. I calmly said, "Thanks for waking me up...dipshit." The last part much quieter than the rest but he didn't reply, only looked at me as if he had seen his maker or something.

I waved my hand in front of him and asked, "Hey are you good?" He blinked a few times and looked away for a second. At that moment I could have sworn his cheeks had turned red but when he looked back again his face was normal, weird maybe I'm seeing things.

8:33am, damn I'm late for my next class, "Look if you've got nothing to say I have my next class to get to so if you'll excuse me." I walked around him and as I was about to walk off, I felt a hand around my wrist. I looked back at him, "Look could you tutor me in English? I'm not adjusting well to the class and I'd really appreciate it if you could help me."

I looked down at my wrist and his hand was still wrapped around it. He seemed to notice what I was looking at and removed his hand.

I don't know if I'm the right person he should be asking for help from but it was worth a shot I guess, "Okay but let's discuss the meeting place and time later, shall we? We're late for class right now and I would rather not be called into the principal's office today." He nodded his head and quietly followed me out of the room.

8:36am, I sat down and rested my head on my desk and looked out the window. The weather is quite nice today, normally it's raining but thankfully the skies clear today. I turned to face the other side and saw him again.

I never noticed how his face was shaped so symmetrical and how clear his skin was or even how when the sun hits it just right you see the ocean in his eyes. What the hell am I even thinking about, get those weird thoughts out of your head Olivia, he's not even that good looking. I rested my head face down and slowly zoned out.

8:58am, I got up stretched and grabbed my books and headed to my next class. Today was a slow day that's for sure because by the time lunchtime rolled around, I was ready to go home and sleep the day away but my mom wouldn't think too kindly to hearing her daughter leaving half-day for no apparent reason.

I made my way over to a table by the window where people rarely sit, it's my go to seat. Not even 2 seconds into eating when someone sat right next to me.

I glanced to my side to see him again, I swallowed the food I had been chewing and said, "Let me guess you're here to talk about the tutoring." he nodded his head and responded with, "How about Wednesdays and Thursdays?" I guess he's trying to be considerate by not saying Monday or Friday, "Alright that's no problem, would 5 to 7 work for you after school?" I asked while sneaking a few bites of my burger.

He kept staring at me then looked away before answering my question, "Yeah that works but would you be open to changing 7 to 8? I need all the help I can get." I stopped what I was doing and said, "Uhh...that's a bit late but I guess that works, it's not like I have anything important to be doing at that hour."

I finished my meal and looked at the paper with his number he had given me right before he ran off claiming he needed to use the bathroom, definitely TMI. I typed in his number on my phone and saved him under "Tutoring Kid".

As soon as I had finished the bell rang so I made my way to my next class, only 3 more classes then I could go home and be free yesss.

Wednesday 20th March, 2024.

I had just finished taking a shower when the doorbell rang, I wrapped a towel around myself and let out a silent curse when I checked the time, 5:10pm. I didn't even realize how long I was in the shower; all I knew was it felt really relaxing.

Unfortunately, it was time to begin tutoring and without realizing it in a few hours I would regret accepting this dumb request. I made my way downstairs to open the door which revealed Kade in a very casual look, baggy jeans and a white vest under a patterned shirt. He didn't look half bad; my only issue is that he's late and still somehow early at the same time.

I glanced down at myself then back up at him and chuckled while inviting him inside.

Within a few minutes I came back downstairs fully dressed to find him sitting patiently where I left him. "Did you bring all the books I mentioned?" I asked while taking a seat next to him, "Yes ma'am they were a lot to carry, are you sure we need all of these books?" I looked him in his eyes and said, "If you plan on passing English then we do" he smiled weakly and simply unpacked the books onto the coffee table.

Before I had realized it was already 7:55pm, "Well I think we got a good start today, let's call it a day then." I said to him as I got up and stretched.

He looked at me and for a moment there was a hint of sadness in his face almost as if he was hurt, then the look on his face changed to a more neutral one, "Alright I agree time to wrap up and again I really appreciate the help, I guess I'll see you at school tomorrow." he said with a soft tone.

For some reason I felt weird about him leaving right now and without a second thought the next few words came out of my mouth, "You should stay for dinner...I mean if you want to of course." He looked a bit taken aback at the suggestion and rubbed his neck before responding, "As long as you're okay with me staying a little longer, I don't mind joining you."

He finished packing away his stuff before joining me at the dining table, the rest of the night was a blur but all I remember was he left at 9:32pm instead of 8pm like we had originally agreed and that was something I couldn't let happen again.

Thursday 21st March, 2024.

It was another boring day at school; I had to tutor Kade again today and I was dreading it right now. Our first session was good, really good actually and that was a problem. I'm not supposed to be enjoying tutoring him but for some strange reason I did enjoy it.

12:30pm, praise the heavens for lunchtime being somewhat early in the day because I'm starving. I took a seat by the window and started eating.

My lunch today was chicken nuggets and fries and in 3, 2, 1... "Are you going to sit with me every day?" I said without looking around. He answered without hesitation, "If you don't like it, I can leave, I just thought you could use a friend."

I glared at him and brought my face slightly closer to his then I pulled away, "Why do you think I could use a friend exactly?" When my eyes landed on him again his face was slightly red but he didn't look away instead he said, "Well maybe I just want an excuse to be your friend then."

I chuckled at the stupidity he just spouted, I guess having one friend wouldn't hurt and if things get too messy, I could always stop tutoring him. I put out my hand and he looked at it confused, "What have you never shook hands with anyone before?" I said with a slight smile on my face, he shakes my hand and says "I look forward to being friends with you, my name's Kade Harper."

Huh who would've guessed his last name was that? Not me. I introduced myself as well, "Likewise and my name's Olivia Darling." I said while watching his reaction. He smiled and squeezed my hand, "You have a pretty name Olivia." I removed my hand from the awkward handshake and looked away.

I waited a few seconds before saying a quiet "Thank you." to him. I then continued eating my lunch seeing as we only have a few minutes left until next period and I refused to be hungry during class again.

4:45pm, I rushed to put on something quick and why am I rushing you might ask because I need the extra time to prepare for Kade's arrival. After agreeing to be friends with him for some reason it feels as though something will change in how we interact and I need to be mentally prepared for it.

4:55pm, I heard a knock on the front door so I jumped up and sprinted to open the door, "Heyy...Kade...you're...a little early." He looked a bit shocked but answered with, "I figured after yesterday I should start reaching a little earlier."

I opened the door wider so he could come inside. He sat down in the living room and took out his books. I walked over to the kitchen and asked him, "Do you want anything to drink?" he looked up at me and said, "Oh if you have any orange juice then I'll take some of that."

I grabbed the bottle out of the fridge and poured some out, I put some ice in as well and made my way to the living room. I sat down and gave him the cup, he took it and drank some, "Thank you, it tastes great, now shall we get started?" he asked while smiling, I smiled back and responded with, "Yes, let's begin then."

Saturday 23rd March, 2024.

I looked at my outfit, I had on a gorgeous teal sun dress with off the shoulder sleeves and some brown wedges. I tried to dress a little nice seeing as it's my birthday after all.

I was going to spend the day home scrolling through Tik Tok and binge eating but Kade messaged me last night asking to carry me out today. He overheard me telling someone that my birthday is today and that I didn't have any plans.

When he asked me, I felt a little "Pang" in my chest but I simply ignored it and answered him with a simple "Sure, why not." I styled my hair in a cute half up half down style and put on some gold hoops and a chain with my name on it.

I thought it would've been cute to get matching chains with my ex-boyfriend and that's how this chain came into existence. Although we aren't together anymore, I still wear it because it's pretty and the chain didn't hurt me, he did.

"Knock, knock, knock..." damn I guess Kade's here, early as usual. I looked at the time on my phone and it said 5:45pm we had agreed to meet at 6pm.

I grabbed my brown purse and my stuff and headed downstairs. I sprinted to the door because I didn't want to keep him waiting too long and when I opened the door and there he was. This beautiful man staring back at me.

He wore dark blue jeans with a dark blue suit jacket and a white shirt below and the top button was left undone, I have to admit he wore it well. I walked outside and closed the door behind me. In the glass on the door, I could see my reflection, brown curly hair with caramel skin and small doe eyes looking back at me.

I always seemed to stand out in school even as a child because of my race, my mom is black mixed with white and my dad is black mixed with Chinese. The first question people would always ask is "What are you mixed with?"

I noticed something in the corner of my eye, it was Kade in the reflection. He had a slight smile on his face which got me thinking "Why is he even here right now?" As if he had read my mind he decided to say, "Hey I didn't want you home today doing nothing so I thought why not be a good friend and carry you out."

I turned around to face him, that's when I really paid attention to his face. He had the classic jock look to him but a bit more toned down, his eyes were blue, his skin slightly tanned, his hair was blonde, straight and slicked back, it looked nice. Aside from his face his muscles showed through his jacket and jeans, they were definitely eye candy and he knew it.

Men always looking for a quick fling sighh, "You know you don't have to wear clothes 2 sizes too small for you right? I'm sure women can see your muscles through the clothes regardless." He chuckled and responded with, "Oh so that means you can see them too good, that was the plan after all."

"Now shall we get going?" He said slyly, causing me to give him a cut eye and followed him to his car.

He drives to school, home and to my house, now he's driving us to... I'm not sure where he's carrying me. All he told me was that it was going to be a surprise and to not worry about anything today. I decided to trust him with it since I had originally planned to stay home and be a bum. I'm sure whatever he has planned can't be any worse than that.

I glanced over at him driving but instead of looking away I started staring at him, he really was handsome but not overly just enough to get you hooked on him. I tranced the features of his face till I made it to his eyes but wait...why does it look like he's staring at me? Oh, shit because he is. I panicked and quickly looked away, focusing on the road ahead of us instead of the mess of a situation I had just created, "You can look at me all you want Darling, since it's your birthday I'll allow it."

Damn, why is he calling me by my last name? Curiosity got the better of me, making me ask him, "Why Darling? Why not my first name?" I could see him watching me in the corner of my eye. I just kept my focus ahead of me, "Well Olivia is a pretty name but Darling just feels right, of course if you don't like me using it then I'll stop."

I turned to look at him and said, "It's fine, keep using it if you like it so much."

I started fidgeting with my fingers while looking out the window, we were in the town well where the restaurants, malls and shops are. He parked at the side of the road and got out to open my door for me. I shot him a quick smile before we entered a restaurant.

7:05pm, once we had finished eating, I thanked him, "You chose a lovely place to eat, the ambience here is amazing and I just wanted to say thank you for all of this." While waiting for the bill to come I checked my messages on my phone, "I'll be home late tonight, sorry sweetie but Happy Birthday!" This was the first year since my mom had gotten her new job that she couldn't be home to celebrate my birthday.

Of course, I was sad and I guess Kade noticed as well. I looked up at him and smiled weakly, he looked at me worried but I just shook my head as if saying "I'm okay", or at least that I would be.

7:20pm, why is it taking so long just to get one measly bill jeez, by the time I had caught a waiter's attention it was too late, there was a group of waiters on their way to our table with a cake in their hands.

I spun around to look at Kade with a "What the hell is this?" look. I sat there shocked as the waiters rested the cake on the table with candles lit on it and started singing "Happy Birthday" to me. It was kind of embarrassing mainly because I've never had any kind of public birthday but at the same time as I looked at Kade's face while he joined the waiters in singing, I felt a tear drop.

I quickly wiped it and once the song was done, I blew out the candles. I told Kade that we should pack the cake up to go because I was already full from dinner.

We quietly made our way back to my house where he walked me to my door, "I had a really good time today and I'm not just saying that I mean it." He smiled at me and grabbed my free hand and raised it to his mouth before doing anything he looked up at me and asked, "Can I kiss you?" In that moment I felt my heart skip a beat but I just nodded my head.

He kissed my hand and said, winking at the last part, "You're too kind and beautiful to be spending your birthday home doing nothing and I'm not just saying that I meant it."

I could hear my heart in my ear, I cleared my throat and said, "Remember to work on those questions I gave you last session, if you get so much as any wrong, I'll beat you up." He let go of my hand and laughed as if I had just told some amazing joke. I squinted at him and he stopped laughing, "Okay okay, I'll be sure to do them though I don't think I mind the punishment either."

How could he say those kinds of things with a straight face jeez he's unbelievable. I turned my head away as if I was angry with him but not even a second later, he grabbed my chin and made me look at him.

His eyes were all I could see in that moment; he leaned in and kissed me on my cheek. Immediately he pulled away and said, "If only you could see how red your face is right now, you look like a tomato but a cute one."

He quickly ran off to his car and hopped in leaving me standing there like an idiot, he leaned over and said, "Cheer up, I can't kiss you anywhere else without your permission so I'll ask you next time, okay?"

Even though I felt bad I just nodded so he would hurry and leave already.

I took out my keys and opened the front door and locked it behind me. Once I was inside, I put the cake in the fridge and made my way to my room. I tossed my purse on a chair in the corner and plopped down on the bed.

"Does he take me for a fool?" I said out loud to no one, "I mean who does that kiss a girl's hand then her cheek and not kiss on her li..." I trailed off, not being able to say the word.

I mean I'm so dumb for expecting anything to begin with. He's the kid I'm tutoring why would he be interested in me of all people besides we agreed to be friends nothing more. I'm so dumb I let myself get excited again for no reason, I never change, do I, this time I can't get swept up into any kind of drama again.

8:32pm, I got up from moping and washed up for the night and changed into something more comfortable. I went downstairs to cut a piece of the cake. It tasted amazing, one of the best chocolate cakes I've tasted in my 17 years really. I took another piece and made my way to the living room. I decided to put on a Christmas movie for no specific reason.

10:00pm, I heard the front door open so I woke up and stretched. "Sweetie, what are you doing downstairs at this hour?" my mom said almost in a whisper. I smiled at her and grabbed her work bags from her, "I thought maybe I should wait for you down here, It would be easier to hear when you come in."

I could see a glint of sadness in her eyes but only for a moment once I had blinked, she was back to normal. I carried her bags upstairs to her room and dropped them in a corner of the room.

I jumped onto her bed and sat waiting for her to come in, "Olivia whose cake is this in the fridge?" I could hear her ask from the kitchen I just responded with, "It's mine mom, a friend bought it for me today."

She finally came to her room and took off her work clothes. My mom was a really beautiful woman even for being in her late forties. She and my dad had me when they were relatively old but somehow, they both manage to still look young even while nearing 50.

Her hair was in a messy bun and I could see wrinkles and eyebags starting to appear, "Mom, are you sure you don't wanna take a small vacation? I mean I know you only recently started working but maybe you should take a small break."

She let out a sigh and sat next to me on the bed, she grabbed my hands and said, "Sweetie, I would love to. It's just that things are quite hectic at work right now, maybe in a few weeks when everything's settled okay?" I looked at her and just nodded.

She proceeded to ask, "So who's the friend that bought the cake?" I chuckled and answered with, "Remember the kid I'm tutoring, he told me instead of staying home and doing nothing he wanted to carry me out for some food."

She looked at me as if saying "Ooo" with her face I just said, "It's not like that mom were just friends and besides we both need to focus on exams coming up, anyways I'm going to bed and so should you so goodnight mom." She simply said a quick "Goodnight, sweetie" back to me and I made my way to my bed.

I got under the covers and closed my eyes, the moment from when he had kissed my cheek came back to me, I just let it sit for a while as I drifted off and within a few seconds I was sound asleep. 

Wednesday 10th April, 2024.

I finished my lunch early and decided to rest my head on the table, I could feel him staring at me. It's been 3 weeks since I've met Kade and in that time he's done some things that have confused me.

I know I could be reading into things but okay hear me out during one of the sessions he left a stuffed Giraffe at my house and when I told him that he had forgotten it, he simply said, "It's for you I noticed you liked stuffed animals and figured you might like it."

Another weird time was during one of our recent sessions while we were sitting together, he leaned over and smelled my hair then asked me, "Did you switch your shampoo? It smells nice." Like who notices these things, then last week I mentioned in passing that I liked chocolate milk and he started giving me a box of it every lunch time.

It's been so weird even at lunchtime today. While we were eating, I told him that the lunch he had chosen today was my favorite and he offered me some. Did I take it? Yes, yes I did. Who am I to refuse food?

For 3 weeks he's been acting friendly but too friendly. It gives me a weird vibe but I don't wanna outright ask him why he's doing all this. At the end of the day, he's the guy I'm tutoring so I shouldn't be so concerned about why he's doing any of this but it is bothering me for some reason.

Ever since he celebrated my birthday with me, I've been feeling off about us being "Friends" if that's what we are. "Darling? Class is going to start soon. You best wake up soon if you don't wanna be late." he said with a soft voice.

I waited a few seconds after making sure he had left before I got up and made my way to class. I've been avoiding him in school these days. It's easier that way, we can stay "Friends" and I can keep my piece of mind, at least for now.

I keep thinking of when he kissed my cheek that day, I try not to but anytime I close my eyes, the memory resurfaces.

My mom asks about him every time she comes home. It's concerning really because she's never even met him yet but somehow has all these questions. These days things have been so confusing with Kade, I can't tell if he's making it confusing or if I'm the one making it confusing. I don't want to ruin this friendship, it's already rare enough that someone wants to be my friend.

4:00pm, I got up from moping and made my way to the fridge. I took out some ice cream in a cup and sat down on the couch. I feel as though I've been moping more and more these days. Today was the day though I needed to figure out why I'm so bothered by that kiss, one way or another I'm going to find out why.

Without even realizing it was now 4:50pm, I got up and quickly washed out my dishes and without a minute to spare I heard a knock on the front door.

I looked at my outfit, I had on a worn-out sweater and some grey sweat pants definitely not something you'd want to be seen in but luckily it was only Kade seeing me. I opened the door letting him in immediately, on his way in he said, "Oh cute outfit Darling, I had no idea I'd get to see you dressed so casually if I kept coming early. Want me to start coming on time instead?" I shook my head and plopped down on the couch.

He quickly joined me and took out his books, I quietly watched as he moved. He's quite good looking for a jock, the more I look at him the more I want to see different sides of him.

How would the great Kade Harper look with a girl he liked? How would he look and act around someone he's dating? How would he treat her in bed?

My face flushed at the thoughts coming to my head, I slapped my face lightly to clear my mind but I guess Kade noticed. "What's wrong? Is everything okay?" I just smiled weakly and nodded, "Let's get started shall we, for today's session, we're gonna look at the topic that Mrs. Coleman discussed with us in class today." He looked up at me and smiled as if hearing me talk was something nice to hear. I felt my face getting red so I looked away.

"She looks even cuter when she's sleeping..."

I heard someone say, wait who is that? What was I doing before I fell asleep? I was helping Kade and then I ate a small snack and when I came back to the couch I...uh...wait...am I asleep right now?

Shit I should get up.

8:12pm, I got up and stretched, he was still on the couch but why? "Morning sleeping beauty, did you enjoy your sleep?" he asked me with a smirk on his face, I blushed and replied with, "You should've woken me up why did you let me fall asleep, I wasted so much of your time."

He shook his head and grabbed my hand saying, "You could never waste my time Darling, you looked really pretty so I didn't want to disrupt you and besides you seemed like you needed it. Are you getting trouble sleeping?" I nodded and said, "It's fine though, I've just been thinking about a lot of stuff these days."

He squeezed my hand and raised it up to his lips, he kissed it and looked at me with that gorgeous smile of his. Why does my chest feel tight? Why is he looking at me like that? This is so strange, what's stranger is that I don't hate it.

He lets go of my hand and asks, "Hey Darling, can I...uh can I kiss you? You know...here?" he points to his lips, what's even going on right now am I still asleep? It feels like I am and for some reason I nod my head.

Within a few seconds, I feel his lips on mine and one of his hands make its way to the side of my face and neck.

It feels so good that we keep going, his hands slowly make their way down my shoulders, eventually, ending up by my waist and I can feel his tongue in my mouth.

This is the first time I've kissed someone and didn't want it to end. Either, my exes were horrible kissers or this man is just that good. I pulled away to catch my breath, we were both breathing so heavy but I think I did something wrong because he gets up and says, "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to do that, thanks for the session today I'll...um...leave...now."

He's packing up his stuff and without even giving me the chance to say anything, he's already out the door.

I feel my chest and feel my heart beating fast. I start to think for a second and my eyes start to water.

Why? Why? Why? I don't get it why did he leave after saying he didn't mean to?

Thursday 11th April, 2024.

It was another school day, Kade had been interacting with me like normal and it has me questioning if it was all a dream? I can't bring myself to ask him in case it was, instead I just need to tell him how I feel...that I like him, a lot.

That was easier said than done, how could I make it special? "Hey Olivia, why are you just staring at your locker as if it committed some grave sin? What's going on?"

I closed my locker and turned around to meet Stacy. This gorgeous 5'8 red head is one of my only friends. We met in middle school and somehow ended up at the same high school so we decided to keep in touch. We don't see each other often but when we do it's always a pleasant surprise, hey maybe she can help me.

"Stacy, I've got a question. When you like someone, how do you usually confess?" I asked while partially looking at the ground, I instantly heard laughter and looked up to see her laughing her ass off, "Stacy...I'm asking a serious question here."

She wiped her eyes from tears and responded with, "I'm sorry dear, I didn't mean to laugh. I just didn't expect you of all people to ask me about that." I rolled my eyes as she calmed down.

"Usually, I'll throw hints at him and if he doesn't pick up on those then I'll leave a note in his locker asking him to meet me somewhere private."

"That's where I confess my feelings but it all depends on the person involved. Some guys might like that and some might not."

I took in the information she had just said. It's not a bad idea "Ring, ring, ring" ahh...the stupid bell. "Alright thanks Stacy, I've gotta get going I'll message you later." I said while slightly running off, "Be careful and good luck hun."

I could just barely hear her say as I got further away. I should tell him by tomorrow evening that way, regardless of his answer we'll both have the weekend to sleep it off yeah...alright that sounds good.

4:56pm, there he was, Kade Harper, the guy that I like. I felt giddy for some reason but I needed to make an effort today so I stopped thinking about the giddiness and focused on the session for now.

7:32pm, "Kade, do you want anything to drink or are you good?" I asked from the kitchen, "Yea just some water." I could hear him respond so I quickly made my way back with a glass of water and some napkins. I had brought some cookies earlier and thought he might want to wipe his hands after. I placed the napkins down and sat down with his glass as I was handing him it.

I turned to face him and he did the same and his face was so close to mine it startled me, causing me to drop the glass on him. I panicked and quickly grabbed some napkins to try and dry the wet area. By the time I had realized where the water fell it was too late, my hands were already on his crotch.

He grabbed my wrist, "Olivia...what are you doing?"

His voice sounded as though he was restraining himself for some unknown reason. I've never heard him sound like this before, it felt as though one wrong move and he'd devour me whole. I felt a tear roll down my cheek...when did that even get there? He grabbed my cheek with one of his hands and caressed it while saying, "There's no need to cry Darling, it's just a little water it'll dry."

Somehow, hearing him say that I felt my body calm down and I could see straight again. "I'm sorry I wasn't paying attention and ended up spilling it on you, you can use the bathroom upstairs to dry it better. You remember which door, right?" I asked while readjusting myself on the couch, "Yeah, second door on the left. If you don't mind, I'll be back."

I watched him make his way upstairs and once he was out of view I let out a heavy sigh, how could I throw water on him? I'm so dumb, honestly, maybe it's better I don't say anything to him. I mean he doesn't even like me, he kissed me and said he didn't mean to. If that isn't enough proof then I'm not sure what is.

Within a few minutes he came back downstairs with a less obvious wet spot. I felt my face turn red so I just looked the other direction, "So back to the session then uh...we only have a few more topics to touch on." I said awkwardly while avoiding eye contact, he nodded and reclaimed his seat on the couch.

9:01pm, yeah, it's definitely better if I keep it to myself besides telling him would only make things unnecessarily awkward and we don't need that right now. I know earlier I said I'd tell him by tomorrow evening but there's no point to it, I'll just end up ruining a perfectly good friendship for no reason.