Hlo guys

Mm, to be true I am still not sure if I should do this. Then against everything here I am typing at 1.58 am instead of sleeping despite having class to attend today. Maybe I just felt I was so out of it today so I better start dumping everything. As in description this is a random rumbling of a college student facing problems everyone faces wanting to know she isn't alone in this.

Let's call myself Abi. Probably I won't be using the name much and still wanted you guys to know. It isn't my real name cuz can't risk someone knowing me stumble upon this. Just imagine that, it would be a total disaster. Oh god I hope that not a single soul I know come across this. Not like I know anyone using the app still for safety I will be Abi from now on. Even though Abi isn't my legal name it was something my grandfather (my pa's father) used to call me. I have no recollection of it as he died when I was around one year old. It was my mom who told me. I think no other soul than my ma remembers this. She told me my grandpa found it difficult to pronounce my name ( note it my name isn't even hard you can read and spell it easily ) typical old man gave me a nickname I never knew existed until an accidental slip up.

Ok ok. We will continue the past tomorrow let's enter today's entry.

08.09.2025 2.17am

Yesterday it was a lunar eclipse. For the first time in my life i saw it with my real eyes. Felt so happy. Yet I found myself clutching my chest to make the heaviness in my chest go away. As I finished writing my notes and scrolling for a bit I found myself at loss. Of what I don't know as I dragged my body to take bath the uneasy only grew. I messed up washing my hair, as the one packet of shampoo which should be enough felt inadequate. Finishing it I stumbled to change my clothes and i fell on the bathroom floor half dressed still i sat there for a moment cuz my head was finally clearing up. I feel unwell. Why ? Who knows. So that's why I am starting this I had this idea yesterday but never thought I would actually do it. So here I am now typing those words i usually write in my diary hoping for what even I don't know. Maybe the little girl in me wants to be noticed or she is just tired of being the happy sane one.

See you tomorrow if my resolve persists. Good night gotta sleep have class to attend at 8.30am, and it's 2.28am already. Bye bye. Hope I persist.

Have a great sleep and a great day everyone.

Hlo guys. How are you all. Mm about me let's see what happened.

So before going about my day a bit of my past. About my family I have a younger sister let's give her the name Dawn along with my ma and pa. Dawn is 9 years younger than me if we go precisely it will be 8 years and 2 months. When I was born my pa wanted a boy but you know he accepted me pretty well (I guess). I am an apple on eye for my ma's family. My ma had an older brother 2 older sisters and a younger sister. My ma's parents died when I was around one and a half. In my pa's family he had 2 older brothers, 1 older sister, 2 younger brothers, 1 younger sister of which one of the younger brothers died very young. My pa's parents are gone too. His mom had only gone early this year. His father died when I was young. I come from a typical middle class family. My extended family is big but I will surely introduce them in future. Now that's enough with my introduction.

09.09.2025 1.33am

Yesterday I think I woke up around 7.45am for my 8.30am class. Originally I was so hesitant to go to college even though I stay in a hostel which is 15 mins walk from my class room (note that it's how much I will take to reach the class. I will reach my college entrance most probably within five mins walk). I was debating within myself whether to bunk class and sleep or hurry up and get ready. Alas I had a seminar in queue so thought against it and went to college. I have a friend who happens to be a male let's name him Ash. We usually walk to class together even though we are in different departments as his hostel is on my way to class ( He stays in the college hostel while I stay out). As usual I went to class. I have 5 periods in total. I had a psycho mam for the 1st two periods. Thank god it went away the second period. Finally had the next 4 periods as boring and sleepy as always. The rest of the day went well and I had great fun with my friends. Came back to the room around 8.30pm. Had tons of work to do and still sat idly scrolled the phone. My mood was better which I am really happy for. Planned to study but closed after like 10 mins. That's it for the day. I was happy. Glad I chose to go to college despite my initial hesitation. It was really a wonderful day. First the plan was to sleep early as I had little sleep before. Looking at the time now I wonder whether I will ever sleep on time. Good night guys gotta go. Have hours of sleep to catch.

Have a great day everyone.

No matter how difficult or hesitant you feel at the start go for it. It is better than the regret of giving up and doing nothing.

If I had just gone to sleep instead of going to college i would have lost a good day so go for it thrive for it you will reach it .

Bye byee. See you.

Hello everyone

To be true I wasn't planning on writing today as I was too exhausted who knows why. But then again I want to do this I read the comments and thought maybe this isn't only for me anymore. But still a fair warning I may disappear anytime but I will always be back I guess.

I am a college student you must have known from my previous entries. I am doing my 1st year postgraduate. Not in a subject I love but at the same time not in a subject i hate. But I am damn sure most of you will hate the subject. I am studying in a college 14 hours away from home. I did my undergraduate here at the same college. I was just someone who read to escape reality and would get lost in the fictional world. I even have a reading journey. First it started with me watching cdramas then I started watching animes and dounghua in the mean time I have been reading free ebooks from google play books while hating that some end in cliffhanger and having to pay to read next book but not wanting to. Then saw comic videos on YouTube it is a bl comic i still remember but haven't read fully. So to read the comic I came across many apps but stayed with mangatoon for its point system. Saved points like a hamster but finished it in the good books I found. Found the new world of chat stories. Somewhere along the way I understood the difference between manga manhua manhwa. And understood what yuri yaoi uke and seme meant. A whole new whole for someone who was initially starting to read just because reading is a good habit and fell in love with reading. Today here I am writing not a story but still grateful.

10.90.2025 12.51am

Yesterday was about nothing but sleeping. I slept the whole day. After writing the entry before I scrolled on the phone and slept around 3am. Woke in the morning in time but decided against it. Slept the whole day like a baby literally the whole day. Woke in between but still slept. My roommate woke me up for dinner around 7pm. Had dinner scrolled through the phone. Listening to stories on YouTube. My friend Ash called to check in probably worried. I think I might be scaring him out of wits sometimes with my words and doings. Poor fellow got struck with me. Then decided to write cuz why not. Have seminar to do today and I hope I will get some sleep. Ahh thinking about going to class again makes me wanna skip again but god I need that degree cuz the world seems you unfit to live without it. Thought I wouldn't have much to write since I slept all day along but looks like it's okay.

Wrote in the chapter before, go for it anyways but remember when you feel everything gets too heavy it's ok to rest. It's okay to take a break but leaving midway is wrong unless you are on the wrong path.

Still I will say go for it and thrive for it but with pauses. Even the strongest will snap under pressure. Have a great and happy day. Hope the sky will always be clear after its momentary cloudiness.

Bye byee. Have a great day ahead.