John came running towards me , “we have work tonight !” He huffed , while placing his both hands on his knees and catching his breath . “What work ?” I asked , while sipping on my coffee . “ a new car ..we ..gonna .. steal ..it ..tonight !” He answered . “ okay !” Throwing my cup of coffee on the road .

“Remember..tonight ! At midnight ” he informed me again .

I glared at him with annoyance.

I don’t like people talking too much ..

Or preaching me .

“F*ck . Off .!” I gritted my teeth .

The look in his face spoke depths ,that he was scared . He should be .

I called ,“hellooo !” A sugar coated voice ,ringed in my ear .

## I hate sugar .

But I ignored her .

“I’ll be late today !” I answered.

“Going to steal again ?” She asked .

“ f*ck you Jessica! Mind your damn business , or should I teach you ..!” I shouted through the phone .

She remained silent .

“ REPLY ME! or I’ll come and f*ck you ,until you faint !”

“Sorry !” She whispered .

“Next time ! open your mouth when asked !”

I ended the call .

She knew I easily get annoyed ,but she still pisses me off !

I don’t trust her .

I don’t trust anyone .

## The night finally came into existence!

There we stood the Hometown Gang Members .

Me . Damon .john .song

“Are you sure the house is empty?” I confirmed.

“Yes ! Murat I made sure myself !” He answered .

“Hmm..” I looked the empty streets filled with silence , and continued “ and what about the security cameras ?”

“ already taken care off !” Damon smirked .

“O.kayy guys ! Let’s play thefty theft !” I rubbed my hands with excitement.

They laughed in agreement.

“ let’s tell them what mess they got into !” Damon bit his lips .

“ you know , you sound like bad boys !” Song said .

“ but baby worse on bed !” John winked at him .

I laughed , and song blushed .

“ stop that ! I already want the keys in my hand !” Damon whined like a kid .

“ shut up !” John rolled his eyes .

“Let’s move inside !” Song answered while still blushing .

Well John liked him .

But Song don’t want a relationship so soon .

He gets insecure easily !

And is totally a shy baby of the gang , and Damon totally the opposite.

John is mature but yeah very , very little !

Suddenly my heart ached , desperate to go inside .

In years of theft and killing I never felt that .

Not when my parents died .

Not even my foster parents throwed me out on my 15 birthday .

Not when I was hungry at nights . Not even , when I hugged myself to calm my empty stomach.

Well , you know .

Life and lie make you do things .

They don’t give a damn , that you are a kid or a grown up . That you could handle this or not . It just throws you in dungeon, and says -live it baby !

I lived on streets for several years . Robbing people . And snatching there food and running .

I had no choice . Life made me do this .

I wa hungry at nights , and no one was there to feed me .

So I fed myself ! I made myself miserable .

## If fate want this , fate get this !

Reaching Jessica’s door . I banged it loudly . Probably waking up the neighbors .

“ you here ?” She opened the door , with confusion. “ I thought you will come late !” She made a weird face .

“ any problem , with me coming babe ?” I answered .

“ No ! Not at all !”

“ why you look like the other wise !” I asked .

I did not wait her to reply .

And pushed her and entered the home .

Now I get it .

She was doing this behind my back .

“ you really thought , you would hide it for me !” I asked crossing my arms .

She lowered her head . Her long height looked smaller like this . And her long natural brown hair fell on her face . Make it hard to look at her .

“Look at me !” I gritted my teeth .

She did .

I like obedient women .

I smirked at her .

“ come babe ! I don’t want you to watch cartoon all alone , I want to see with ya !” I opened my arms to come and hug me .

Instead she pouted .

“ NOOoooo !!!” She replied in her baby voice .

“You always fall asleep , and then kick me out of the sofa !” She complained.

“ don’t get nasty oky ! Come here and hug me !” I ordered .

She came rushing towards me and hugged me .

I sniffed her . She smelled like flowers .

I pushed her away .

“ well ! That’s enough !”

She reminded me of that blind girl .

But for some reason I felt guilty to steal the car . Well tomorrow Damon and John will sell it off , and vanish for a few days . Until the case get closed and eventually show up like a Christmas present . We have been doing it for years . And never get caught .

And now I was feeling low for that girl .

No boy ! Grow up ! Remember when people kicked you , bullied you , your parents even left you . No one loves you , no one loves me !

Yes !

This is the vibe ,that made me do things .

And build my confidence.

“ Jess !” I called out .

She came , her eyes focused on the wall .

“ Jess ?” I aksed.

“ yes babe !” Her eyes still focused on her stupid cartoons .

“ let me tell you , your mistake !”

Before she could understand my words .

I pulled her closer to me .

And there’s -that face . I love this .

They way she shudders .

“ you should obey !” I whispered in her ear .

And she knew what will happen next .

I opened up my belt and lined her to the wall .

And she tightened her lips . From pain . She knew I don’t like sounds , she make.

That made me more angry.

“Call me by my name !” I said .

Instead her eyes widened .

She mouthed -‘NO’ .

“ yes !” I mouthed back .

And raised her both arms upon the wall . And tied them with the belt .

“ please not today ! Please ! M on periods !” She begged me .

“ you think I give a **** !” I answered . A strong smile of dominance crossed my face .

Of course she knew I would **** her .

No matter what the circumstances.

A tear stood edge of her left eye .

That blind girls face , crossed my eyes .

She said that she was hungry !

“Fuck , shit No !!!” I screamed .

I don’t want to see her . She makes me weak . “ **** no !” I yelled from pain in my heart .

“ Mu- ..baby you okay !!??” She asked.

“ I don’t want love .. I don’t want it .. ” I cried in pain . I hugged her arm . “ I hate that girl . I don’t want to love !” I cried and yelled and kicked like a kid . She hugged me tightly.

“No one loves you, don’t worry .

No one loves you ! Shhhh... close your eyes !” She patted my hair .

“ go to sleep ! Shhh ! No one loves you !”

I slowly drifted to sleep .

( nightmares .!!??? Is it all in your head ! ?

The scary demons ... that don’t sleep at night , and just stare , scare the hell out of you !

Your worse fears turn into realities..

you tremble , YOU HIDE .. NOT INSIDE YOUR CLOSET - BUT INSIDE YOU ...

YOU THINK THE PAIN ISN’T VISIBLE??

TRY SOME MORE - MAYBE ONE DAY ,

ONE FUCKIN DAY .... YOULL BE A MASTER AT HIDING !

BUT WILL YOU BE WRONGED !

PROBABLY!

Will you find yourself ?

- I lost myself , in the dungeons ... YOU SHOULD NOT ! )

........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next morning when I woke up , she layed their , near my bed . Her brown long hair shined through the sunlight . It reminded me of that girl .

**** myself !

Am I going crazy ? Over a teen little girl ???

I mean m a teen too ... but not innocent types ... I mean -

She was the prettiest thing I ever saw .

Her eyes large and beautiful to fall for .

Maybe because she was blind , I was interested in her? .

Yeah , maybe .

“ you awake ? Baby ?” Jessica opened her eyes , and smiled .

“ who untied you yesterday?” I asked rudely .

She made a face that said - really , early morning . You gonna ask me this ..?

But instead she said “ it was loose , so I untied myself ”. She lowered her head .

I stood up from the bed , “ go cook me somethin!” I went towards the bathroom for a bath .

I came up with a towel wrapped around my waist . And the other towel in my hand , I rubbed my head with that one .

“ where is mah food ? ”I asked her .

She placed a plate of cereal bowl on the table , “ here ! ”.

Her eyes caught me then .

She looked at me from tip to toe , and licked her lips .

“ what ?” I asked knowing that look .

“ umm before you have your breakfast , can we umm make out ?” She asked , her small eyes filled with lust .

“ BEFORE !??” I repeated her word .

“ maybe after ?” She smiled , trying not make me angry .

“ I don’t want to **** you now !” I answered .

I can see her face fell .

But I ignored her .

“ okay okay ... have your cereal !” She made an awkward laugh .

When I put last spoon in my mouth of my cereal , she asked ,“umm you liked it ?” She asked .

I nodded .

“ umm ..uhh .. would you mind if I ask you something babe ?” She came towrds me , caressing my neck .

“ stand at a distance !” I was irritated by her touching me like that early morning .

“ uh okay ”Her eyes were filled with tears .

“ speak !” I said .

“ which girl were you talking about yesterday.” She asked me , desperately , wiping her tears off . Quickly.

I looked at her with annoyance and irritation .

“ this is the fuckin nonsense you ask me ? ”

I kicked the table and and the chair next to her , put on my clothes and head out .

I called John then , “ did your job ?” I asked in my harsh tone .

“ uhh ..?? No not yet ... ( blabbling in the back ) shut up ! ”

“ what’s happening in the back ?”

“Nothing !” He was panicked .

“ what. Is .happening .in.the.back ?” I said rudely .

He hang up the call on my face .

What !!??

Did he really just do that !??

Did he forgot who m I ?

That son of a bitch needs a lesson .

Nasty little moron .

I’ll make him remember who the real villain is !

I went up to his home . And smash the door . The hall is empty .

Maybe he is inside .

I went up to his room . And smashed open the door !

“Fuck !” My mouth cursed upon its own seeing the scene .

“ dammit !” He was too shocked to see me .

I went downstairs, ashamed at the scene .

I waited for him to come .

After severely minutes ,

he came down .

“ uhh hii , Murat .. care to tell me , what you are doing here ?”

“ No ! You care to tell me ? What is wrong with you? ...” I lost my mind then .

“ and why the hell , is song tied up in your room ? Like that ! ... don’t tell me ..you tied him here , without his permission..” I walked towards him , with anger boiling .

He stepped back .

“ look murat ..okay calm down . Okay ?

Just breathe .okay”

He stepped back defending himself .