If Only You Knew

Past And Present (Me)

Hi guy's!!

This is just the memories , or u can say the moments of my life through a story!

Past Me~

Yo brooo 😏

Past Me~

Remember that girl? The one I flirted with like my life depended on it? 💋🔥

Past Me~

She was into me. Admit it.

Present Me-

She was into your potential, not your chaos.

Present Me-

You were too busy playing games to see she was serious..

Past Me~

Okay damn, philosopher 😒

Past Me~

I was just vibing, y'know? Life’s short, be bold blah blah

Present Me-

Bold is fine. Breaking someone’s heart while you “vibe” isn’t

Past Me~

Ouch. Okay. Maybe I messed up. But I cared, okay? I just… didn’t know how to show it.

Past Me~

So I joked, I pushed, I tried showing my love for her

Present Me-

She got tired of running in circles.

Present Me-

You wanted love but gave her confusion.

Past Me~

Shit.

Past Me~

I didn’t realize she was my peace until I turned her into my storm. 🌪️ Guess that’s my talent, huh?

Present Me-

No. Your talent was feeling deeply and hiding it behind attitude, immature personality

Present Me-

But now… I’m learning to feel and own it.

Past Me~

I miss her sometimes.

Past Me~

The way she talks , her voice , her charms, her cuteness

Past Me~

The way she loves me a lot

Present Me-

She saw you — the real you.

Present Me-

The one I’m trying to become every day.

Present Me-

You were a mess… but you were honest in your chaos.

Past Me~

If I could go back, I’d hold her differently🥺

Past Me~

Talk less. Listen more. Maybe even… love her a lot and ......just be with her 🫣

Present Me-

You can’t go back.

Present Me-

But you can forgive yourself.

Present Me-

And trust me — that version of love you wanted? You’re becoming worthy of it now

Past Me~

So what now?

Past Me~

Do I fade away?

Present Me-

No, You’re still part of me.

Present Me-

Just not the one driving anymore.

Past Me~

Does my love for will fade away!

Present Me-

The love you felt for her… It wasn’t a mistake. It was a blessing. One you’ll carry, quietly, forever.

Past Me~

Even if it hurt like hell?

Present Me-

Yeah. Even if it broke you

Past Me~

So I’ll never forget her?

Present Me-

She’s not a chapter… she’s a part of the soul that helped shape ours

Present Me-

Her love… Will always be your love — just in a different form now.

Past Me~

Damnn... I didn’t know love could stay even after it’s gone.

Present Me-

It does. It changes. But it never leaves

This isn’t just a conversation — it’s a reflection of the heart we all hide.

Between who we were and who we are… lies the love we never forgot.

Love that shaped us, broke us, and still lingers in quiet corners of our soul. If only they knew… we still feel it.

The Apology I Never Gave

(Unsent chat to her)

Feelings~

Hey... I know I shouldn’t text. But I had to let it out.

Feeling 2~

I’m sorry. For the way I loved you. Or maybe, the way I didn’t.

Feelings~

You deserved someone sure. I was chaos wrapped in charm.

Feeling 2~

You just wanted peace. I gave you confusion.

Feelings~

I pushed you away. But hated when you distanced yourself

Feeling 2~

I held back words. Now they echo at 2 AM.

Feelings~

You weren’t asking for the world. Just honesty. Loyalty. Consistency.

Feeling 2~

And I failed.

Feelings~

I kept saying, “I’ll fix it soon.” But “soon” ran out.

Feeling 2~

Now I type and delete. Because even this won’t reach you

Feelings~

But if you ever wonder… Yes, I still think of you. No, I never stopped.

Feeling 2~

I was never good at loving you. But I never stopped missing you either.

Message not sent

Typing… deleted

Last seen: some months ago

thnx all for reading this!

Present Me-

Note- Not every apology needs a reply. Some are just whispered into the silence where someone used to be!

You Still Up?

A late-night message. A reply you didn’t expect

Present Me-

You still up?

Rhea~

Seriously?

Present Me-

Yeah… Didn’t know if you'd even read this.

Rhea~

Didn’t know if you’d even dare message again

Present Me-

I know .I shouldn’t have waited this long.

Past Me~

Or maybe I shouldn’t be texting at all..

Rhea~

Then why are you?

Present Me-

Because something in me still aches when I think of..

Present Me-

And tonight… it’s loud.

Rhea~

A little late for aching, don’t you think?

Present Me-

Late? Yeah...But not fake.

Rhea~

You ghosted me with half a heart and a full ego. And now you show up with regrets?

Present Me-

I didn’t ghost you…

Past Me~

I ghosted myself.

Present Me-

I wasn’t someone worth staying for back then

Rhea~

You were selfish. You played hot and cold like it was a game.

Present Me-

I know. And I lost you because of it.

Present Me-

I’m not here to justify anything — I just… miss the version of me that existed only around you.

Rhea~

The version who cracked jokes after fights? Or flirted his way out of accountability?

Present Me-

The one who cared deeply but didn’t know how to show it right.

Past Me~

I was immature.

Past Me~

You deserved someone who didn’t make love feel like a guessing game.

Rhea~

You confused love with attention. And apologies with resets.

Present Me-

And you confused silence with moving on?

Rhea~

No...I just got tired of fighting for space in your heart

Present Me-

I cleared it out. There’s still a room with your name on the door.

Rhea~

But some rooms are too dusty to return to.

Present Me-

Maybe. But if you ever feel like opening the window... I’ll be sitting there — older, softer, realer.

Rhea~

Hmm...What changed?

Present Me-

Everything.

Present Me-

Because I finally learned what it means to lose something real.

Present Me-

And how it feels to be haunted by “what ifs.”

Rhea~

So what now?

Present Me-

Nothing...No expectations.

Present Me-

Just… if you’re still up some nights, like me —

Present Me-

Maybe talk to me again...Not as the boy you left.

Feelings~

But the man who never forgot.

If you made it this far… Thank you.

For reading not just a story, but a version of someone’s truth.

Some stories aren’t about getting someone back— just finally saying what was left unsaid. If this reminded you of someone... maybe they were never really gone...

Thnx you all!!

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