Lin ran, lin ran !"

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" lin ran!!"

Lin ran was still standing there in daze thinking why yi yan calling him again and again.

Yi yan foot step were getting more closer and closer. He tilt his head and ask in a confusing tone "what's wrong yi yan?" A force suddenly hit his face making him shake all over.

" hiss"

It was a slap from yi yan. But why he slapped him this time ?

Yi yan was so angry by lin ran, he tightly grab lin ran's collar with one hand and scold angrily

" what is wrong with you, can't you see zinzin was just about to fall from balcony"

" oh "

lin ran's eye fall on zinzin, yi yan was holding her with one of his hand " i...i didn't see her"

Yi yan was about to burst from his anger, he squeeze his temple with his fingers, " lin ran i think we should also go for the treatment of your eyes" With that he step out of balcony in frustration.

Lin ran was still standing there trying hard to understand what happened just now. And what he remember was

Zinzin was playing happily in the balcony with him, suddenly his eyesight began blurred to the the point he can't differentiate between a plant and his 'daughter' and when he heard yi yan voice his blurred eye sight began to clear out slowly'

After thinking about this he slightly touch his eyes *maybe i should start wearing lenses*

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After playing and feeding zinzin. Yi yan handed zinzin to the nany. And it was already time to sleep so went straight to his room, in his room there was a photo of a woman and a little boy about the age of 7 -8 years . Yi yan was so tired today after office and taking care of zin zin, fell asleep as soon as he lay on bed.

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On the other hand lin ran was having trouble sleeping so he opens the box on his wardrobe and took some sleeping pills and gulp few of it. Maybe the pills are not effective anymore so he has to take more in numbers. There was another pills with the sleeping one. lin ran stared at that for long time but didn't take a single one and closed the cabinet.

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It was already 2'o clock in the morning when he fell asleep. In his sleep he dream of a beautiful home in which a couple were celebrating new year with there child. The family was looking so happy a young boy almost 7 years old having a happy time with his family,

" happy new year little ranran " a boy looking like 15 years old also join them " happy new year uncle " lin ran greet him cheerfully " happy new year sister yunrin and brother in law" the couple greet him back

"Uncle i miss you so much" lin ran hug him tightly " oh my it was just 2 days you already miss him. You don't miss us even if we are away from you for months" yunrin complain in unpleasant tone

" isn't it obvious enough that our ran ran love his uncle the most, right ranran" his uncle replied.

" giggles, yes ranran love his uncle the most" lin ran reply

Yunrin complain in envy " lin zheng look at your child, he always play well with his uncle, tell him to come and play with us as well"

Linzheng who was quite satisfied with this uncle nephew bond said " isn't it good enough our child play well with his uncle , so that we can also have fun time together "

Yunrin whisper " now instead of taking my side you a flirting me in front of children "

" thud" something bump into yunrin.

" hiss"

a toy car gift by lin zheng to lin ran scratch yunrin on her arm, making it bleed . "linran what is wrong with you, can't you play properly, you see your mom got hurt because of you"

After getting scold by lin zheng lin, ran start crying uncontrollably " "mom.... sob... sob..... dad..hic...he..he scold me.. he don't like me" " lin ran hug yunrin crying loudly " lin ran you are not child anymore stop throwing tantrum" lin zhneg said in coldly. " mom....sob..sob.."

" Lin zheng don't yell at this child , look how scard he is, baby don't cry ohk dad will not yell at you anymore "

" sister you alright " that boy also got worried after seeing the wound "lin ran you should be careful while playing with toys "

" hic..sob...sob

..i..i will never play with car again "

" ran ran baby uncle is not saying you to stay away from toys he is only worried about me and you, you should play as much as you want but you should also have to be careful, ok " yunrin comfort his baby until he stop crying and coax him to sleep

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Lin ran wake up with cold sweat all over his body, his throat was dry and the sun was already rise....

" mom" " mom,... where are you " he call his mother's name in pain

He touch the corner of his eyes, when he fill something wet on his face and it was actually tears that fell of his eyes

He was actually crying

...

I am sorry mom i am still not careful around myself

His heart was sore and painfull ..he clenched his chest tightly in pain ..it... it hurt so much

he took that other bottle of pills from his wardrobe and gulp few of it.

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linran👇

yiyan 👇

[Author: hi guys this novel is gonna hurt you alot so read if your heart is strong enough and please keep reading until the end, i will upload other chapters soon, please supportmy work and leave your precious comment. Thank you ! ]

Yanyi went to the business trip abroad, lin ran was alone in his house so he thought of visiting his father's house with zinzin

" oh my, you are already here "

lin meng walk downstairs when he saw lin ran car outside from the window.

" how is your health grandpa are you doing well" linran support his grandfather and make him sit on sofa

"Old grandpa" upon seeing his great grandfather zinzin directly jump on lin meng with excitement. " look at this little girl she is already getting 5 years old and this silly child who only know how to make trouble is now taking care of her "

Lin ran smile and said " grandpa please don't embarrassed me infront of my daughter"

When lin meng take a closer look he got stunned, is it the fault of his old eyes or is his grandchild getting thinner and thinner everytime they meet. And said with worries

" ranran is your health ok, you have lost lots of your weight"

" no grandpa i am as fat as before you must have mistaken" lin ran reply

Sure enough this was the answer old meng expected from lin ran as always. Looking at lin ran now the only feeling lin meng have was discomfort . This child was never like this obedient and reserve. Somehow he miss his old lin ran who use to fight with him every time they meet. This granpa and grandchild where never get along so well . Who knew they could peacefully talk and laugh together.

" ranran you should visit us more often we miss you ...you know that"

Linran felt heavy in his heart

At this time lin zheng also walk downstair for dinner " so today mr lin finally have time to accompany his father huh " old meng said coldly.

But lin zheng never expected linran to be present at lin villa. he suppress his anger in his heart and though \* what a wrong timing\*

Although linran greeted him with gentle smile " his father still don't like him even after ....

The four of them enjoyed their meal, lin meng and zinzin were enjoying cheerfully while linran and lin zheng were silent on another side

After dinner zinzin went to sleep and there was someone who knock the door, lin ran stare at man standing on the door " meet me in the library in 10 minutes"

Lin ran went straight to the library after 10 min. Lin zheng was reading some medical books in a dim light

" dad "

Lin zheng put his book aside " come in "

Lin ran sat on the sofa near the library table.

" how is your health, is everything fine "

Linran look at the man in front of him stunned expression on his face, he didn't expect this type of questions from his father

On the other side lin zheng also felt uncomfortable seeing this expression on lin ran " ... i ask you something?"

" ah. i... i am fine, there is no side effects"

Lin zheng ask again "are you taking your pill regularly "

"umm...yeah i am taking it " lin ran was too puzzle why his father suddenly showing concern that he never shown all this years

Even after what linran explain. linzheng never fill at ease he knew something was wrong

" remember to go to the hospital for checkup every once a while, forget it come to me straight to my office if every month, it's been already more than a year after that you never come to check up"

Linran nod his head but only linzheng knew how careless this child is. After a small conversation lin ran standup from the sofa to leave ....

" lin ran "

He continue to walk

Lin zheng call him more loudly this time

" lin ran"

Lin ran look back after hearing his name

" your hearing problem is getting even worst than before come tomorrow for a check up we will check on your ears as well"

" ok i will be there tomorrow, good night dad" with that he finally left

Lin ran spent time with his family till yiyan come back from his business trip....

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During this time he stayed quite in his room, only leaving when necessary. And finally the day come when yiyan will be back. His heartbeats gradually raised high.

He was going through the calendar and notice Today was the birthday of her late mother. He felt sour in his heart.

He decide to clean his mother's room but when he enter that room he remember his childhood, the peaceful and the happiest day of his life. Old memories rushed into his brain. Making him numb. He pick up a tissue to clean the family photo and

" thud" someone enter the room.

The man who just enter looking at him with grevience. " how dare you enter this room "

" uncle"

lin ran got startled by him. His thin figure start trembling when he saw the man in front of him looking straight into his eyes with killing intend.

Yiyan walk close to him. And in fear lin ran step back but there was no way to run away. It was the wall that stopping him.

" Ugh ..." lin ran scream in pain. Yiyan squeeze linran troat so tightly, linran airway got block, he was unable to breath.

Yi yan ruthlessly squeeze more. He was about to strangle linran to death. Linran eyes and face got red due to the blood pressure. At that point yiyan realize how far he was going and let go of linran.

"Cough...cough.....hic...cough"

Linran look at him with tears in his eyes, yiyan see him indifferently yet feeling uncomfortable in his heart. ....

" get out "

Lin ran didn'thear clearly " huh "

" i said get out" yiyan yelled in frustration

Lin ran stand up by supporting the table beside him. Still Shivering in fear. Yiyan notice that Red marks of his fingers got visible on his neck after getting strangle . He slowly walk out of the room.

" wait "

Lin ran got froze in the place, yiyan remove his woolen scarf from his neck and wrapped around linran's neck. Linran also understood why he doing this.

" don't call me uncle again, i am not your uncle "

I" i...i am sorry"

After apologising linran ran upstairs to his room.

Yiyan got puzzled and thoughin his head is it really linran he knew. He thought lin ran will fight back as usual .

Back then when linran just got into his teenage he use to fight violently with yiyan. No matter how much he was weaker than yiyan but he always make sure to give it back every punch and kick coming from that person.

What happened all this years when he was away that lin ran personality change so much.

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" linran why don't you come to the hospital when i call you, its already been a week and you didn't show up even if i call you everyday" lin zheng was quite angry with linran this time.

" sorry father, i didn't get time you know that how hard it is to take care of zinzin and beside i have my full body check up few days ago so you don't have to worry about me "

" sigh, linran why you have to run around to other hospital when your father is a doctor himself. You should have directly come to me" lin zheng is the chairmam of the lin hospital and biggest collage in z city and he is known for his profession. How many life he save with his magical hands. And the money he donated to the orphanage.

" you know that people will make comment if they see you in other hospitals. It will be be bad for our hospital" lin zheng was not in good mood after what he hear from linran .

" sorry dad i will keep that in mind" lin ran reply

" oh really, you can't hear properly and now you can't see things clearly maybe next time it will be your brain that will not work" all this time linzheng notice that linran vision is blurred . " make sure this mistake never happen again" linzheng coldly said this to linran.

Linran felt quite uncomfortable after hearing his father. Lin zheng has a habit of being cruel with his words. Linran knew it very well but some time he crosse his line and forgot that the one he is talking is no one other than his own blood.

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After dinner yiyan took zinzin and linran with him. Zinzin was sleeping peacefully in linran's arm.

" she got pretty close with you " yiyan was the one who start talking

On the other side no one replied " ...."

" Are you trying to use her to get close with me, you should just forgot about it you know that i will never have place for you in my heart "

It is exactly what linran want. He don't want to fall in love with anyone again. The first time he fell he regret. Obviously he will never let that mistake happened again. He was never able to forgot that person who love him dearly. The wound in his heart is still fresh.

Its good enough that he has home and a child. What else he want. Or maybe he don't even deserve what he is getting. He deserve the way everyone treat him. He deserve this pain after what he did.

He kil\*d his mother , he k\*lled his lover and he k\* lled his ....

This guilt can't be separate from him till he die.