If only i was good enough...

If only i was a bit funnier...

If only... i was kind enough...

Will it be like this?

They all look happy

They all look satisfied

They all... They are great.

A smile curved in my lips, as i look at them

It feels like yesterday, i was the one standing beside them

Now, here i am, Moping around here

Wishing someone will ask if im alright...

But, that just never happens.

If a person already has what they want

They wont care about anything around them

They wont even waste a second giving attention

to something or someone.

They're just...just LIKE ME.

Everyone is just the same

No one can deny that,

You know yourself that you are no diffirent

Even if it comes to the worst side of a person

You can try to be kind

You can try to be Selfless

But there will be the time

That you must stop hiding

Hiding from your true self

Hiding from your dark side

Because tyou are too afraid

that they will leave you

When you show them

what you are truly made of.

There is no such thing as "pure"

Everyone is just dark as the others

if you look more carefully

No one can deny that too.

They said i was selfish that's why i was left alone

They said i was boring that's why they left

Well, cant deny that

That was a sure thing, im boring.

EPISODE 1: KAWAI YIRAZUMA

Im a great fan of animes! yeah OTAKU, that's what they call me. But... Not all people likes watching animes so... I DONT HAVE FRIENDS... well, i do have a few but... THEY ALL LEFT, yeah that's just how life is right?

Reading mangas, Watching anime, thise are my hobbies but... for a 20 year old girl like me, others my age really dont understand me like "Duhh...they like flirting with boys more than hanging out with me" So... I decided to be alone.

Well it's not really that lonely, just eating with me by myself when lunvh time and seating with only me in a line of chairs, it's not that lonely. :)

"Ms. Yirazuma"

I woke up from my daydreaming when i heard my name.

"Y-yes?! " I panicked.

"Ms. Yirazuma, do you think my class is a joke? "

the wicked professor asked.

"Uhh... o-of course not! "

my voice was trembling and so is my body.

I got too preoccupied sh*t! i thought.

"*sigh, Class dismissed, Ms. Yirazuma go to my office"

Tsk. That grumpy old man!! ￣へ￣

always calling me when im daydreaming hmp.

"Yes sir ^_^" i replied.

Gosh... what a waste of time.

I walk through the corridor...same as usual

Im their daily topic ~_~

I wish i could graduate as fast as i can

This isn't a university,

It's HELL, a hell for those like me

well even if i dont really care...

Im still human...

Ughh... How i wish im just an anime character

But... of course that's impossible.

When i reached old grumpy's office,

I grabbed the door knob and opened it

The next thing i know, everything went black.

-End of episode 1-

Ughh...I felt like i slipped... why is old grumpy's office so dark?

Σ(⊙▽⊙") eh... WHERE AM I??

I remember entering old grumpy's office but... Did he's taste change or something? Wait... is that?

a l-lake?! What the hell?! where is that old grumpy?

*Splash

The sound of the water echoed in my ear...

Someone... is here.

I tried to find the where is it coming from but i juat couldn't find it.

*Tap

Eeekkkk!!! Eh?! someone patted me in my shoulder!

Please let it not be a monster, not a bear or...

"Are you alright? " The sweet, soft voice rang in my ears.

"Uhh... ⁄(⁄ ⁄•⁄-⁄•⁄ ⁄)/ ...."

"Are you lost? " he asked gently

"N-no, i mean yes! im lost"

Oh no, i got preoccupied again...I've never seen him, Hmm...

He looks really handsome and a bit cute, no A LOT CUTE

He's a lot cuter than my cats neighborhood's cat. I didn't know someone like him still exists....

"If you're lost, uhm... I can tell you the way back" he smiled.

He's smile shows just how sweet he is... He's like a dream boy to every girls... He's like... An ANIME CHARACTER or maybe the main character in a manga... hmmm

"Miss? " He asked again.

"Uh... where am i? " ( ° - °|||)

Eekkk!!! why the hell did i ask that?! That was so embarassing to askk!! gosh

"pfftt"

Huh? ๏_๏

Did he? laugh at me?

"Hey... "

I knew it... no matter how hard you put your disguise, you just cant never hide it... i shouldn't have... been excited too much.

I bowed my head...

"Uh... yes? " he asked.

"I know it might sound crazy but... I really dont know where am i right now"

"The last thing i remember was entering my professor's office, that's all so... if you dont believe me then... "

I looked at him angrily...

"F*ck off"

I left...

*2 Hours Later... *

Im... Im... Im lost! huhuhu (╥﹏╥)

I should have asked him the way out of this stupid forest.

Im hungry... and lonely, well that's not really the case, im used being alone, im just trying to mope around haha.

Im getting crazy every minute i spent in here.

Is there really no one here? *sigh

Im tired. Lemme rest a bit. Just a bit... ^_^

*snore

( 5 hours later...)

*snore

*PIT-PAT *PIT-PAT

ugh... I fall asleep?? im so hungryy, i want food... food

SHHHH---

The rain started...and here i am... like a fool waiting for someone to at least found me... I feel really lonely now... Mom... Dad... Can't i just come with you? I... never felt happy again when you left... not even a second with my so called friends...

"Found yah! " A man's voice?

*Pant *Pant

"Eh?! "

The man from before!...but, why is he here?

"Uhm...Im sorry i laugh at you, i dont really mean it"

He's Apologizing... to me?

"Im really sorry"

*sigh

"Well, you're forgiven"

"Really?! (\=ﾟДﾟ\=)

"yeah"

*Stepping forward

Eh? It's warm... someone is... Hugging me...from the back... His hands are long and warm... i missed this feeling... but...

⁄(⁄ ⁄•⁄_⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄

*Kicks

"You asshole! Why are you hugging me?!! "

"Ahh.... "

*Thud!

He...fainted....Did i kicked him too hard?

-END OF EPISODE 2-

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"Uhmmm.... SORRY 〒_〒"

I bowed my head as i apologized to him. There is nothing more embarassing than what happend earlier. I only kicked him in his private, i didn't know he will really faint... 〒_〒

"Haha... It's fine" He smiled.

What a nice guy... (｡•́︿•̀｡) im so touched.

"Er... im really-"

Eekkkkkk!!!! He! Held my...HAND!!! No one... had ever hild my hand before...

*⁄(⁄ ⁄•⁄o⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄

"Are you sick Miss? "

"Uhh... i-im fine"

Relax Kawai...You cant faint right now, dont think of stupid thingsss!!!! Ughhhh...

"Uhmmm... you sure your fine? Well, you've been shaking your head a lot"

Eh? I did? 〣( ºΔº )〣

"Erm... Sorry ︶︿︶"

"What are you apologizing for? " He smiled gently

"Uh...it's j-just really embarassing"

Finally... i said it already but... i still, my heart is beating really fast now... I feel like... like-

A warm hand pulled me forward and a i felt a familiar warm feeling... it's just like... My parent's hug. I closed my eyes as i recall everything about my parents...

I saw my mom cooking breakfast

My dad was about to go to work

and me... sitting in the table, smiling

"Kawai, where do you want to go for our vacation? "-(dad)

"Our Sweetie loves Beautiful sceneries right? "-(mom)

"Right! How about hiking? Sceneries in high mountains are really great!, our kawai might like it"-(dad)

"What do you say kawai, sweetie? "-(mom)

Everything went black...

Then, i saw my mom and dad

I saw them lying down in the bed, they never bought

Eyes closed but their not asleep

Wearing clothes, they never wore

I saw them...Lifeless

Tears started to drop...

That's when my poor life

Started...

Im such a fool...

I never...told them that i love them...

How can i... be so dumb?

I hate myself...

"Miss? " a sweet voice rang in my ear

"Huh? "

Huh?!!! Ow sh*t i didn't know im hugging him! How long-

Arghh... This is getting more awkward i need to... A reason, a reason... Ughhh brain!! work now! Before i could say anything he spoke...

"It's fine" He smiled

"Uh... "

"You remembered someone? " he asked.

Whut- how did he? Is he a mind reader? or is he not human? A monster?! ⊙_⊙ No, no it's impossible.

"I lost my parents"

Huh?... What... His gentle smile disappeared, all i can see now is a boy who is lost... His eyes shows nothing but sadness. All i can see is despair.

"Uh... Sorry, forget what i said"

He then left without saying anything... Things became a bit more awkward than the last time...Thanks to me 🙃

Silence stayed for an hour not until we reached a huge house with a black gate...

"Woahh" i said as i rolled my eyes everywhere.

"Welcome" He smiled genuinely

"To my house"

Eh? Σ(⊙▽⊙") H-house?! So... HUGE! woahhh this is amazing... wait, he looks like the same age as mine... hmmm, did he perhaps, have a sugar mommy? ⊙_⊙

"What are you waiting for? Let's go" He smiled again.