** **New School****

After leaving my old school and migrating to a new city KATHMANDU, somehow developed as compared to my hometown. subsequently, I got admitted to a new school, where the no. of students is 100 times more than my previous school, where everyone is well dressed and with smart looks, they all make me realize that now I am about to start completely a different academic journey.

I was excited, Nervous, happy all at the same time.

 First Day of school****

when I entered school, I found everyone is searching their names on the notice board for their respective sections. I did the same but I could not find my name in any of the sections and I got worried.so, I went to the staff room for help and I met with my supervisor, she then wrote my name on the notice board. so these all made me think that "oh no, it's just a first day and I encountered an error in my name. However, I entered into my section.

I see a handsome math teacher teaching Number system, when I opened the door, everyone started staring at me, It because I was late, I was in an informal dress and this made me more nervous. one more new guy was seating quietly with a black T-shirt. everyone thought we are brothers as we were in the same T-shirt design, both we were quiet and nervous.

As, Period begins I found I could solve every question written on boards, which grew some confidence in me. I answered each hurriedly and again everyone started staring at me. I felt really awkward.

Then I saw a beautiful girl, with a small eye, rectangular spectacles, round hair, laughing on her friend's joke. I observed her every seconds with my big eyes, as if my eyes gonna jump out of my face But when I turned right, two of the girls laughed at me, seeing my such look for that girl. I felt really shy. and right at the moment I was like a statue and because of that I never turned back to see that girl. I was like "oh, God why my name came in this section, everyone is behaving strange, staring at me and no one is even trying to talk with me".

bell rang...

So, its time for science period(mine best-loved subject)

I found science mam is so humble . she asked some questions about physical quantities. I answered every question, she got impressed and then again the whole class started staring at me for a while, literally from inside I was so angry. But the good thing is that I got to know the name of that girl. Her name was Mini.

And from here the story begins...

****A Small Tragedy****

So, the classes kept running smoothly for nearly a week and in that 7 days, I made friends, impressed teachers with my best performance in class and now my classmates stopped staring at me as how they used to do. I think they always stare at new faces and stupid me, I was being angry with them. It's fourth day or it might be the fifth day when Mini asked physics notebook with me, it was the first day when she talked with me, she was so close to my face, I could even feel the warmth of her cheek, I gave my notebook and she replied me "Thanks Shree "I was so glad to hear that she knew my name. I asked her name though I already knew, I was just trying to have a little more conversation with her. she answered very frankly, her name sounds even more beautiful with her voice. she took that notebook and went to her other friends after giving a cute smile. That smile, that damn smile melted me. It was just 2-3 minutes but I felt each second. But as always in the story when everything seems perfect, you must understand there's a storm waiting for you. In my story, the supervisor was the storm, she shifted me to another section saying, "I belong to another section" and I can't stay here. My name was mistakenly written on another one, I missed almost one week of my attendance though I was present. This was bad, Actually, it was the worst. I tried a lot to convince her but she refused all requests. Rules are rules, Administration never sees your friends neither your bonding with the people and obviously, not your crush. I was a new student completely unknown to the people of this school and when I was almost comfortable with friends, teachers somehow with Mini then the Administration changed my section. This should not have happened.

The things which kept on rolling on my head was "Would be I able to enjoy those 2 minutes again ?"

Yes, I could, up-to some extent, I could. I realized it when I got to know Mini is very popular in social media and in response to that I created my first  Facebook account.

The new section was completely different than the previous one,

Nobody was staring at

me, They all were busy in their own works. People seem more talkative and

noisier. I was standing right in front of everyone and nobody noticed me as if

I am an invisible one. So selected my seat on the first bench and I started

doing my work.

After a couple of minutes, a small

boy with his bold eyebrow and brown hair came up and told me that the seat

belongs to him but I refused to give him my seat. He was quite polite though, I told him he could seat with me but he was stubborn too so, I felt like I shouldn't argue in small issues and I changed my bench.

Up to now, everything was going

normal but my eyes were still searching Mini, outside the window.

In this section, I found many friends who belonged from my own hometown which made me comfortable.

In the class, I was good at study and I proved it by securing the highest marks in my every weekly test, I got

habitual with friends, Actually, In this section, there was a dispute between boys and girls. There always used to be some conflicts between boys and girls.

It's because some of the girls were there who was completely aggressive, overly dramatic, and to be honest they

were bitches.

They always complain against us and

always made us get punished. I really hated those six girls. But again other students were quite silent, creative, and peaceful.

In this way a month passed

And till now I was unable to talk

with Mini, not even through Social media. I was of shy nature at that time, I

couldn't talk comfortably with my opposite gender. The time continued, the

period was getting over, Days was passing rapidly and my eyes were still stuck

at the window of my section looking for Mini.

So the day came for the submission

of our assignments and I found that my notebook is absent from my bag. I got

worried. I searched for it a lot. I even told this to my subject teacher but he

refused to receive any excuses. At that time the assignments were given high

priority. Later on, I found that a girl named Shikshya who was extremely intelligent and always used to score the best marks among all girls had taken my notebook to copy. I thought why would she do like this as she is completely aware of the submission day and which could get me punished if I fail to submit in time. This made me mad at her, I spoke very rudely and scolded her very badly.

Actually, I took the revenge from the boy's side as the girls were continuously

made us get punished. I was praised by my boys but when I looked at her face, she was being like a red tomato,

Angry expression, with sharp eyes, crushing her teeth, definitely intended to hit me.

For instance,  I was scared by shikshya's look.

After getting home I realized, I said a lot of things to her, I shouldn't have behaved in that way. To be honest, it wasn't me, it was the anger for my missing notebook, actually, in that notebook, there was one small unfolded sheet of paper,  inside which a short poem was written for Mini. I have prepared that poem thinking of those times spent looking outside the window for Mini and my shy nature to speak with her on Facebook. Fortunately, I hadn't mentioned Mini's name. I think she read that poem But for now, I must apologize for my rude behavior. I planned I will say apologetic words to express sorry.

Tomorrow, when I arrived at school I found shikshya is absent. This made me feel really upset and the worst part is that the next day there was a public holiday. so I couldn't talk to shikshya to accept my mistake for two days.

If you have to say anything to anyone and due to some unforeseen circumstances you cannot express your words,really suck. It feels like something is stuck in your neck, and neither you could swallow nor you could throw out of your mouth. Those all feelings which left unexpressed reoccurs every time inside the head. You cannot get out of it until you say it out to someone. This creates a kind of imagination for future events like in my head for two days I kept imagining on how to apologize. I completely agree that it's just a small issue and I could resolve it as soon as I say sorry to her but again doesn't matter how small the words or issues are If it is left unexpressed, The guilt of not expressing will eat you completely inside.

In between these all, a lot of things were going on. I found that my bench partner named Prasu was a good friend of Mini and I came to know that Mini and Prasu are both childhood friends. He told me that Mini is feeling sick and has taken leave for some days. She will continue after the public holiday. So this is the reason why my eye could not find Mini face from that window.

At that point, I was waiting for two girls (Mini and shikshya).

one was shikshya to whom I have to say sorry and with Mini, with whom I have to say anything that could make a long time with her. I just needed any reason to talk with her but I don't know whether I could talk with them or not because I always doubt my confidence while talking to girls.

At the end of the public holiday...

Lying on a bed, me thinking how to face Mini tomorrow? What sorts of things shall I discuss or what to say to impress her?  If tomorrow Mini comes to school, I will definitely talk to her through Prasu. I don't understand this. How could I think of a girl whole day? I have seen her for just one week and I couldn't get out of my imagination and thoughts about her. I continuously keep on stalking her profile on Facebook and I feel really upset seeing other boys flirting with her in the comment section. Does this happen to everyone or it's just me?getting jealous of the boys, waiting long for her, sometimes my mom catches me smiling alone without reason.

well, thinking these all, I  closed my eyes and again started dreaming...

small beep in mobile phone

There's a pop-up notification in messenger and guess what? Mini accepted my friend request.

I was like wow, I was just been thinking of her and she showed up through a notification.

nervously, I texted her "hello Mini"

she replied...

"hey shree"

me: I'm glad to hear that you still know me.

mini: of course I know you, my memory power isn't that weak. So, what are you doing till late night?

me: well I'm breathing here.

mini: breathing? hahaaa... you have got great humor. #Mr.Talented

me: Talented? seriously, huh, come on I have got a perfect name please don't ruin it by adding such title.

mini: yes, you are Mr.Talented, I mean prasu told me how you score the highest marks on every weekly exam and even I saw your performance in class.

me: Mini, how could you be such wrong about me?

mini: no, I'm right. hah, let's leave change the topic. you didn't tell me, why you still awake? it's already 1:45 am.

me: here I could ask the same question. why are you still awake mini?

mini: I didn't fell asleep. and you?

me: oh, I was waiting for you to respond to my friend request.

mini: hah, Oh my god, that's a too cheesy line, Shree.

me: sorry, but no sorry, actually whenever I talk to beautiful and attractive girls, I don't know, automatically my way of talking and tone changes.

mini: Hey, are you trying to flirt with me?

me; No, I'm not trying....., I'm straightly flirting.

mini: Hmmm...

me: just kidding, trying to pull your legs.

mini: yeah, I got that.

me: so, how are you, I mean how's is your health condition?

mini: yeah, it's fine, I guess prasu might have told you about my health condition.

me: yeah, he talks a lot about you. so, are you gonna continue classes from tomorrow?

mini: yeah, I think I could continue from tomorrow.

me: Are you alright? I mean to ask if are you still having your fever?

mini: yeah I'm good.Thanks. so how is your new section? Prasu said to me, you had a fight in class.

me: No, it's not a fight it was just a small discussion with Shikshya. Actually, she took my notebook on the day of submission without informing me and I got angry But tomorrow if possible I gonna apologize for my rude behavior.

mini: oh, well settle it.  By the way, she is a quite hardworking student.

me: yeah let's see, how its gonna be.

mini: didn't felt sleepy yet?

me: Nope,

(Actually, I'm feeling sleepy a lot. my eyes are like red but no, I can't say that. I enjoy conversation with her and I wish this conversation to go  this whole night and every night)

me: Hey, mini I know you will be surprised but yesterday I completed my mathematics textbook. all the numerical.

mini: seriously? Woah, you are really amazing person. but still, how could you just solve all those numerical. the book is too thick and got lots of exercises there in every chapter.

me: yeah, it's too thick and too many numerical. but I studied and studied all day and night but unfortunately something happened and I'm afraid of closing my eyes.it hurts a lot.

Mini: what happened to your eyes? is it serious?

me: yeah it's serious. very very serious. I don't know how to explain it.

mini: but what is that. say me.

me: yesterday, when I was reading my book and suddenly my eyes.....

mini: your eyes what? did you get pain in your eyes?

me: No..., my eyes😢😢 just...

mini: what really happened Shree?

me:😭😭😭😭😭

mini: is it really serious?

me: I was reading my book, I kept studying and studying...

mini: and then?

me: Then suddenly my eyes opened.

mini: ??????????

me: Actually I was dreaming and then suddenly my eyes got opened.😁😁😂😂😂

mini: oh my god, you really made me scared for instance.

me: hahaha haha... I am sorry mini, but no sorry.😂

mini: you got great humor.#funny shree. Okay, it's already very late so I'm gonna take a small nap.

bye bye shree, take care.

me: ok Mini have a sweet dream, take care, and good night.

Finally, got to sleep, my eyes were really burning but I enjoyed it. I really enjoyed the conversation with Mini.

wow, I can't believe I talked with Mini. it feels like a kind of achievement and yes definitely created lots of expectations in the future. But for the present, I just need to close my eye otherwise I'm really gonna be in the same situation as I explained in my text messages.

Eyes closed and again started dreaming about Mini...