"This has been the reason for my sickness lately "

I said to myself as I was walking out of the hospital holding my report in my hand I read out loud the words written in the paper " pregnant : Positive " I chuckled to myself and got inside my car in the parking lot and drove to my house

It's about to be 8 pm and there is still no sight of my husband. we are married for around 3 years and to be honest I have never once was unhappy with HAN , I know he is a CEO of his company and has many works to do but he never failed to treat me good and he saw through me for who I was .

As soon as the door bell rang I rushed to receive my husband, I once took a look at the mirror and smiled to myself before opening the door for him . There he was the guy who I thought loved me standing in front of me with a crushed shirt and a crooked tie , hair a little messy and the suit coat to be found no were he was reeking of alcohol the stench made me take a step back , I asked "Are you ok , did you went out with any of your clients?" that was the last thing I said before he pushed me and went straight to the bed.

I was sitting in the living room couch confused to what had happened just now , I checked at Han to see him lay in the bed without even changing his clothes he probably feel asleep as fast as he layed down . but what I'm confused about is that even though he was reeking from alcohol I could smell the scent of a female's perfume from his body I don't know why I'm thinking like this but this exact smell reminds me of him , the guy I badly wanted to forget who showed me what it takes to live in a hell.

I quickly shook that thought off and went to sleep next to Han , he is my husband and I'm safe with him now .

"Zia why do you hate me now ?? after using me for all you want now you can think you can throw me away , NEVER " he screamed in front of my face making my body shiver I was already to weak to move my hands were cuffed and the fact that he was there made me tremble . He came more closer and sniffed my hair , I really felt disgusted as he slowly took a strand of my hair and said " Maybe we were meant to be together forever " and smirked . I jolted from my sleep as I was panting and sweating it was the nightmare of him the memories which I badly wanted to forget are starting to haunt me , I subconsciously held my stomach in a way of protecting the child .

I turned to my side to check for Han but he was not there but then the bathroom door creaked open revealing him with a white towel covering his bottom but his top being exposed open it's a sight that I daily see so I smiled proudly to myself , he said "Why are you smiling like that?" I then looked up at his eyes and blushed shaking my head as a sign of nothing , he then went past me straight to the wardrobe as I headed out to prepare breakfast for him

I settled the dishes on to the table as I saw him dig in the plate right after he sat , I guess he had his drink last night with empty stomach , about him getting drunk last night I wanted to ask him what had happened that he came home drunk like that but I was stopped when I heard the door bell , I asked the maid who was washing the dishes to go check on the door .

within minutes the maid came in with flowers in her hands I looked confused and saw Han he took a look at it and asked the maid for any mention of name in it, as the maid was looking for it I saw a peace of paper in between the flowers which I probably think are lavenders, I pointed to the direction to which she noticed immediately and gave it to me .

the touch of the paper gave me nostalgia once I opened it I didn't expect to see what was written in it .I started to shake at the sight of the handwriting. I knew who gave this but how , when did he know that I'm here. Han saw me acting weird and took out the note calmly from my hand and read out the words

"Maybe we were meant to be together forever "

Today morning I received a note which I guess is probably from him I'm still in the shock from what had happened that I forgot Han was there the whole time.

He didn't ask me anything instead he got up from his seat and went out without saying any word first I didn't mind it but now that I thinking about it lately Han is behaving strange these days, he is ignoring my calls , whenever he's home he is not looking for me as he used to do either he is heading to his study or he'll get freshen up and watches tv .

the love I see in his eyes are now fading away making me once again weak in love.

***HAN'S POV***

I Was going through my files when I saw my secretary enter

The sight of her just standing in front of me made me sweat, I saw her smiling at me seductively as I smirked at her laying back in my chair unbuttoning my shirt without taking my eyes of her .

"Hey honey miss me " she said coming near to me and sitting in my lap I held her waist with my hands as she giggled because of my touch. then suddenly the taught of today's incident in my house striked me as I questioned the girl sitting in front of me "Do you happened to send me any flowers today?" . she gave me a confused look and said "we'll not today but I happened to send you one before and I forgot to ask you , did you get it ?, maybe its the one I sent I guess , the delivery might have lagged ". I just nodded maybe it's just the gift that she sent me, I hope Zia will not find about it but why did she have such an expression though.

"Honey were are you looking at look at me I have been waiting for you " she smiled making me flustered then she said "forget about your wife, now that I'm here I can full fill all your desires " and smirked . Yes I should stop thinking about Zia after all she is just a weak women who I thought it would be fun to play with since she has no one as a family to call for nor does I have love for her , I just deceived her making her think that I loved her but I was just using her for my desires and who doesn't like a girl with a killer body . And just like that me and my secretary were living our movement in my office without anyone noticing.

***ZIA POV***

It was evening already and I started to have cravings for some hot dumplings, the fact that I'm pregnant made me be conscious of my own health since I have never cared about my self I took safety precautions for my baby since I'm heading out in this cold weather .

This was my outfit . I wore this and started to head out

it's been already 10 min but there is not a single place that is selling dumplings right now , as I was searching I side by side went through my phone to check for ideas to surprise Han with my pregnancy news , ya Han still has no idea that I'm pregnant and I want to give him a surprise with this news .

Finally I was able to get my dumplings I was swinging the bag of dumplings with joy as I was hopping around to my destination , I saw Han's car pullover at the corner of the street . I was so happy that I saw him here so I started to run towards the car but I stopped within few steps when I saw Han kissing the girl who just got out of the car she looked familiar but I could not say who she is since it was quite far .

I wasn't able to make out what was happening my mind was a mess and my heart started to pound the disappointment I felt then was so greater than the love I have ever received from him . The man I trusted the most now broke my heart to the depth where I can't revive it.

my sight started to get blurry I didn't know what was happening but one thing that was striking my mind was that I'M PREGNANT AND I NEED TO PROTECT THE CHILD NO MATTER WHAT

***HAN POV***

I came home after dropping of my secretary it was eerily unusual the house was dim the lights were turned off my wife who warmly welcomes me didn't come to receive me .

I went straight to my room to see whether Zia was there , still no sight I went to fresh up thinking that she would have gone some where near .

its already been two hours and the night came quicker than expected where would have she gone , it's not like any of my business but..... nah I don't care where she went .

ok now something really is wrong the girl who is afraid to go alone outdoors Is missing for about 6 hours and its already past midnight there is no sign of her returning nor is her phone reachable. Zia this girl where the hell did she go ???.

***ZIA POV***

where should I go now I don't know where to go anymore , the place I used to call home now feels like a place where I should not go , but I can't be careless the child didn't do any wrong to suffer like this I will not do the same mistake twice.

I was walking thoughtless near the bridge when someone placed a hand in my shoulder , I turned to see who it was and the sight of the person made me gasp as I widened my eyes with surprise

***HAN POV***

It's been 3 days since I filed a complaint stating Zia went missing there where no further information about her no one is able to reach her I even did underground checking to find out nothing, I can't believe myself for doing this , I'm searching for the pawn who I thought was useless but now it feels like she is the missing peace of my puzzle .

I MISS HER the girl who always took care of me eventhough I only faked it for her has gone leaving me in a state where I can't keep my own sanity.

I need her , but not because I love her but the affection she showed should only belong to me and I can be her only husband until the end of her life . I'm going to do whatever it takes to bring my girl , my Zia back .

***ZIA POV***

I was sitting in the couch watching tv while they were preparing breakfast I asked if I can help them but they said they can handle it .

"Zia breakfast is ready " I got up and headed towards the table where they greeted me with big smiles . "Thank you guys for taking me in" I said as I saw them nodding there head as a sign of no problem. "Zia sorry for bringing this up again but is there any problem with your life , like you became more composed , are you living well , and where were you all this years?" as Serui asked this I wasn't able to respond him I just sat there very hesitantly whether to tell them or not Yaku saw me getting uncomfortable and hit Serui saying "Stop asking she is not comfortable " then Serui apologised immediately as I shook my hand in the motion of no problem .

I'm living with Serui and his boyfriend Yatsu , they both work for him the guy I'm trying to forget Serui is his bodyguard whereas Yatsu is his financial advisor they both met at work place and have fallen in love I always felt happy whenever I saw them together they where a beautiful couple, they use to help me at the time when I was with him I usually hang out with Yatsu when I'm free because he is a good listener whereas Serui helps me with whatever favour I ask for him .

but after I left that place I didn't get to meet them since I was hiding from him . They don't know the fact that I was married to Han and I'm now pregnant . I don't know whether I have to tell them or not because they are still working for him and I can't trust anyone due to the state I'm in right now.

soon they both left to work giving me a promise that they won't say a word to anyone that I'm here with them. once again I was left alone with my own thoughts, even though I was like this I thought about Han I already started to miss him maybe I should just go and ask him because I don't want to break of our relationship that easily . I still have hope I should not give up that easily.