"Sewano-san."

 I stopped what I was writing on today's report. My words echoed around the office, which only occupied me, Sewano, and a table between us.

"Yes, Haru-kun?~" She uttered the words nonchalantly as she continued sketching.

"Would you mind letting go of my hand." As if my voice wasn't deep enough, I said it as a demand and not a question to her.

"Ehh?, doesn't this bring you good memories like those times in high school?"

 I swear her playful, gyaru-like voice can pop a nerve in me. I'll die of aneurysm one day if she keeps this up.

"If my memory serves me right, you were the asshole ruining my good memories."

"I always thought you loved these kinds of things. I'm doing you a favor here, pervert." Her mischevous grin got wider, and narrowed eyes locked on as if it spotted her new toy.

 I pulled away my hand from her nail-polished grasp.

"I'm not that virgin that gets turned on by a woman's touch anymore."

"Anymore?!...Which one, the virgin part or the touch?" Intrigued with what I said, she leans in forward with crossed arms resting on the table like a dotting auntie.

".... N-no comment." I better be careful with my choice of words next time.

"Come on!~ After all the flirty shit you did before, I'm pretty sure you did it with her already. Uh... what was her name again?.. Kanashi?... Hakiri?..."

 Please stop.

"Oh! I remember! HIDARI-CHAN!"

"...." A damning silence took over the room, as Sewano's smug dissappeared.

 I sat there in distraught as the familiar name was mentioned, and a bittersweet memory jogged in my mind.

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"Haru, I hope you get to live the romance life you wanted," Even behind this screen, I can feel her remorse from the other side. "It's just sad that it can't be me."

"Don't worry, Hida! I'll wait for centuries til you come back from America!" I mask my bargaining with the tone of optimism, hoping our 2 year-long relationship doesn't end on this text.

"I made you wait long enough, but I don't know when this pandemic would be lifted. You're not to be blamed for this, though I'm sorry for wasting your youth on waiting."

"Please.. I lov youHida, to moon nd bcak." Tearful eyes blurred my vision, and trembling hands can't keep up with what I wanted to type.

"I love you too, forever and always...

Thank you for everything."

 It hurts too much to continue the conversation. Even if I were to send a million 'goodmorning' messages, nothing would change the fact that the distance between us won't be closing in anytime soon. I lay there in my dark bedroom, defeated, hands clenching on my thighs, hoping the pain would wake me up from this nightmare.

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"Oii~..Haruka?"

 I was brought back to the current hell of reality.

"Sigh... Yeah..." I muttered my words, letting her know how pissed I am right now.

 Sewano had always been there ever since I got into a relationship with Hidari, being the intrusive bitch that would make a scene of us when I'm hanging out with Hidari on school grounds. On hindsight, being the naive couple we were, I guess our public display of affection is ring targets for bullies like Sewano. I, too, would be disgusted on old me, burying my face on someone else's while at the cafeteria.

"Sorry, Haru-kun. I didn't mean to open old wounds like that..." Her head tilts to the side as her dejected eyes point to the floor.

"Sewa-san?..." To my surprise, this has been the first time I've seen her solace towards another human being! I guess she can be sympathetic after all.

"It must've been hard to masturbate alone, huh?"

"I'd like to retract my kind thought about you." I almost forgot that I was speaking to the real Sewano for a second there.

"Though I couldn't imagine a Haru-kun without someone grabbing your balls 24-7"

"As cringe as it sounds, I don't want to do anything as I did before. If I were to find another one here in university, I'd still like to uphold my duty here and not cause anyone discomfort." I said that, but a part of me was hoping that I'd be a bit more sexually active after 4 years in isolation.

"Your dick said otherwise..." Can she read my thoughts? "Seriously, you had no game since after she left your ass."

"I like my ass to be preserved at the time."

"Hmph... more like pervesed ass. Ksksks~" An impulse came by me as my middle finger curled behind my thumb and reached an inch away from Sewano's forehead. *flick*

"Ouw~ You really are serious about this, Haru-kun."

"Yeah, but maybe you're right about my game. I only met Hidari 'cause we just so happened to be in the same class everyday. College life is an inconvenient place for a casanova."

 True. Only a month has passed by since I first enrolled here, but I have yet to adjust myself with the contrasting schedules, unrecognisable faces, and sleepless workload.

"Hey, we're here to learn so we can get a job, not a mixer party, remember?" Her stern look and virtues-verbal jab made me lose the moral high ground in the conversation.

"Y-yes, ma'am." I stuttered in defeat.

 I was reminded that we were working together as the school's Service Of Undergraduates: Development Affairs, to put it simply, Student Affairs handled by students. It's the best I could do to lessen the tuition my parents have to cough up every year. I'm well aware of my academic skills to help tutor people; That's why I took on the job interview and got accepted immediately.

"Geeez... I can't stop you from wet dreaming. If you can spend your college life without gooning in your seat, some pussy would cum naturally and stop your edging."

 Never in my 19 years of life have I heard such advice so vulgar yet laudable. I am really not sure how to feel about it right now.

"Thanks... I guess?. Sometimes, I get a bit ahead of myself. As if a girl would barge into my life so early, right?"

"Would you do it with any girl?"

"Sewano, don't mistake me for a whore. I'd take my precious time to get to know the person before all the skinship."

".... You know me, right?" Her eyes rolled towards my direction and eyebrows raised in sync. I know well enough where this conversation leads to, but didn't expect from her.

"W-wait a minute... You know I have so many icks about you, r-right?" It felt as if the room suddenly got warmer. I tried my best to diffuse the situation.

"If it's for Haru-kun, I'd like to change to be your woman." A 2-hit combo of compromise and consent is enough to make a man weak on his knees.

 What should I even do in this situation? I never once thought about having a relationship with her as a sensual partner after all the unpleasant memories I had of her. I haven't even cared about her before, but for once, I don't want you to use your body so rashly, Sewano. Somehow, it's like it doesn't even matter anymore and I stood before an ultimatum.

*Bzzzt* *Bzzzt*. Sewano's phone broke the tension as it is now resting at her palms.

"Ah! It's my boyfriend calling me~."

 YOU WHORE, is what I wanted to scream outloud if not for the phone call. I stood there for another minute, reflecting on what just happened. For all I know, it's just Sewano being a dick to me like she did always, but to go as far as offering her body is unlike her at all. It then hit me that she had a boyfriend all along, so maybe she learned how to be slutty because of him. I could say the same for me where I got my perverted knowledge.

"Eh?... No way... Got it... Thanks, bibi~" She could be a great actress by how she can make 4 different expressions in quick succession. It's too bad she's using it for manipulation.

"What was that all about?"

"Pack your shit, loser. We're going shopping."