Thoughts wound every part of my mind. Maybe this isn't true from a psychological perspective but that doesn't matter anyway now.

Wonder why the bridge is so empty tonight. Some kind of curfew? I think not. People rarely would like to go out at 2 in the morning just for some leisurely walk anyway..

The river below looks so beautiful as ever, the moon complementing it's glow in the wavering water. Like they were always there..for each other..

The moon is so beautiful isn't it?

This eerie silence is comforting but well it's too late now. Thinking about it, I should have tried harder to get her, talked more openly and understandingly with her, maybe life would have taken a route separate to what it stands now.

This bridge reminds me of something that I can't seem to recall at the moment. Wonder what it is. Something important.?

The railings are cold to touch yet my hands are refusing to let them go. How beautiful it would be to just let go of everything.

Sigh, Man, I miss her.

Well there's no going back after that. I did what I could. No one liked me in the first place anyway. I won't be able to walk up in the morning in time for my morning part-time. Toshi-san will yell at me again..The thought crossed my mind but there was nothing I could do.

I am going to miss this world. But. Would it miss me back? Who knows, Will they even remember me? I think not. Do I care? Absolutely Not.

Being so carefree and someone by side is so good..right..?

I leapt forward with a groan huff  and closed my eyes. The air was beating fast against my face. If I ever wondered how high the bridge is, now I knew..prettttyyyy high.

*spplassh*

Oh? I hit the water..My legs are twisted in ways they should but they are not hurting at all. The water is cold but comforting, numbing but reliving.

Yeah, I miss her too much. Can't even forget the last four years, damn life sucks. When was it again? The first time I met her......?

Can you blame me anyway? Not that I wanted this to happen anyway. The currents feel blissful to the skin, didn't knew cold water feels so great after some time. Not a worry of thought passes my head. My mind was at complete peace.

Did she know till the end how much I loved her?

Heh..Probably no way...like why do I care about a liar so much? The chuckle was all but in my head..Slowly but surely the blue see-through water was turning red..

Damn..death from blood loss? My nape did felt a bit hot before but it was dissipating now..turning cold...my heart rate the dangerously low..I could feel it.

"•••%#••ka•"

What? I heard what sounded like a voice, but it was too faint to make it out..Oh! There goes my vision..As I closed my eyes..and accepted myself to fate that ends here...

But..

"Are you okay?"

"uhh...Oriyami-san..There is something I would like to tell you..". I said as sheepishly as I could while pouring every ounce of the non-existent courage I had in me. "It's something I wanted to say for a long time.. It's ju-just that I never got the chance"I steeled my heart, ready to give it all, "I-I really-"

"You have feelings for me, don't you, Toriyuki-Senpai?" she blurred as coldly as if the glaciers themselves speaking for her."I have known it for quite some time, since you told my sister about it..I just pretended not to know. I am sorry but it's not possible for me to stay with you. You would find someone better. it's good and a better option to stay as kohaku-senpai (junior-senior). Or friends if you want.

My world shattered..as she said that. I did lose the battle, but it wouldn't be soon for me to know that it was the war that I lost too..

We stopped talking or interacting much with each other after that day, after what I could've done, being in school doesn't mean you're someone of lofty ranks in terms of power. Rather maybe it's close to being to near-total-powerless unless the student is independent or something like that which sure I wasn't.

A year passed then, I did keep tabs on her throughout the entire time, in hopes that maybe she would understand the broken words I was trying to say to her in my cowardly demeanor and understand how much she valued to me.

I kept her protected from a number of things and tried my utmost to maintain her declining reputation in school and among students and teachers from behind-the-scenes. You can call me a sore loser, okay? I didn't contact her again because I wanted to respect her decision of "leave me alone" and there I was trying I could do.

The final blow wasn't dealt to nearly a year later. We got in contact again through discord and talked things out. She knew I did abandon my hopes but a few things did but me a week later or so. There was this guy whose name I would rather not take because sheesh, he was a good guy. The problem you ask? She was indirectly fawning over him while saying things like "No one can take me" and "I hate everybody". Fun Fact! This was later further confirmed by her bestfriend that they were dating, I had a few evidences of my own but hey! You can't blame me! No one would like to believe their most loved person is taken..however this time I thought it was finally enough and blocked her out of nowhere for which she apparently cried. Like hell she did! Anyway, it was better for me and her anyway.

And that takes us finally to where I am standing at right now..or rather drowning.

Why did I do this? Meh, you are better off not knowing. But just before I thought it was finally over..someone came, a..girl.?

I tried to open my mouth but just a bunch of bubbles came out aaaand I was out.

Yea, that's the last thing I thought I would remember before I died but turns out, I didn't die! I lived to tell the tale, as they say (pardon the pun).

"uhh...Mister. Are you okay?"

Huh? I am alive huh, she must have saved me, I am not able to open my eyes, yet I am breathing, My mouth is open, did she perform those CPR things or something?

I tried to move my limbs or speak but couldn't. I can only hear her. Hey! I am okay, no thanks for saving my life, I was trying to die okay?

"Hey! Can you hear me? Please open your eyes!" she shouted at me, out of desperation perhaps. She was trembling hard and was about to burst into tears.

Well, better not make her cry. What felt like a eternity, I focused every ounce of energy in my body to open my eyes or speak or something to ssure her..

"Hughh!" I coughed and sat up in an instant. "Augh, Augh!" continued these violent coughs which stopped shortly but more than anything else she looked relieved.

"Here! Have some water, Are you okay now?"

"Barely" I said as the coughs subsided. I chugged the bottle down to half and finally opened my eyes to look at my savior.

"ah-" my mouth was wide open, it was like I wasn't looking at anything humanly possible. Beautiful wasn't even the base word to start describing her beauty. Her black hair with a purple glow to it straightened so much that no even a single flick of hair sticked out. Her black eyebrows, eyelashes and dichrome blue-red eyes only adding to the beauty. Skin as fair as if I might start seeing through them any moment now. The glossy pink lips were all one could ask for. Clearly the goddess of beauty was grinning so hard, it's almost like I could see her behind this girl when she was creating her.

I snapped back to reality as she shook me, "I am glad I was able to save you, you sank deep despite falling right before my eyes.." she said as she calmed down too..

Yea, no kidding Miss. Sherlock, I was trying to die you know? But I couldn't say that all to her out loud. Heh, another day maybe.

"Yes..uhh..Th-" I paused. Should I say thank you?! I jumped off the bridge to die and she saved me. She was clearly in the right but I was a bit disturbed by it. Yet, I would feel bad yelling at someone so beautiful. I gritted my teeths a bit and held back.

After a while, I tried to get up but slipped and fell. A jolt of pain coursed through my body to my head. Oops, I forgot my legs broke since all the pain was number by the cold water.

Now, a sane person would definitely question 'How can someone forget they broke their legs and just say Oops!?' but You haven't met me!

"You shouldn't do that yet! I have called upon the health services, an ambulance would be coming soon so please stay put by then."

"Yea, I think so too..."

"Let's wait for a bit, I will help you"

She helped me stand up and walk forward towards a bench while I staggered at each step. We sat after a few embarrassing steps of limping and almost falling again once.

"You can support on me, alright? uhh..Mr.."

"It's Toriyuki Mizuki.. You can call me Tori..and..You are..."

"Kiyozami Oriyu. Nice to meet to you, although our first meeting was a rather, strange but it's good meeting you. You can call me Kiyo too.." she smiled. Even her smile was something only describing as the smile of a goddess. "Your legs...they are so badly injured....I-I have an instant ice pack in my bag! I can get it for you.." she said as she took off in a light running stance towards road.

Man, such a cute and pure girl..took so much risk to save me..And there I was who was voluntarily trying to take his own life. What a wasted effort..

"Uggh.." I perhaps forgot that my legs were bent in ways they weren't supposed to..And..What? My nape..It's bleeding too..As I noticed my shirt was taking a red shade from the side of my collar and shoulder..

Ahh..shit.I will faint from blood loss..

"I am back! Please hold out a little more!" she shouted from a distance and she was running her way towards me.

Sorry, but I will pass out now..and with a heavy thud I fell from the bench.