17 septembre 2018

      A boring day.... Nothing special... Same routine....

And Like every year..... And  on the same day..... She was alone....

       After an exhausting day at the college, she  went directly to her room, with out talking to any one,' like she has someone to talk to' .... she just rushed their and locked the door.

    When she interred she looked at the big luxurious room yet cold, The place in which she could not sense any warmth, it was as cold as her heart had always been.  Perhaps it made her heart cooler. the only place where she could stay alone and lock her self away from the outside world and comfort herself on her own.

      She released the bag from her hand and threw herself forcefully on the huge bed and felt like her inside was shaking, then she released a deep breath mixed with fatigue and sadness.

    With an angelic beautiful face yet sad, and a well curved body yet thin, she was laying on the bed, her long brown hair mixed with golden stripes was beautifully scattered over her shoulders and over her bed Which increased her charming beauty, she  opened her honey golden eyes with the long eyelishes that accentuated her wonderful eyes shape and  she was staring for so  long at the ornate ceiling, overwhelmed by the whirl of her thoughts. 

    She remembered  how everyone's gifts arrived before the time. they probably never knew the exact date of her birthday.  The first gift she received from her parents ten days ago with the topical apologizing  letter , whom she had not seen for "4 months, no maybe six. I think they are seven months" .

     She no longer remembers when was the last time met them and her heart felt the more bitter

"Am I really their daughter?" she wondered sadly.

         Tow days ago and  like always, Her brother sent her another fancy necklace that was added in the  box of the jewelry wich she never used.

   The time passed, and she did not notice that it was  eight o'clock already , she woke up from her thoughts by the nocks on the dor.

" nock nock.."

" who is it"

" young lady it's me flora, it's time for dinner please come out". the maid was talking in a calm voice.

" I'm not hungry, you can go"

" but miss..." then she got  interrupted by the cold voice " do I have to repeat my words?"

" s.... Sorry... y.... young lady" the maid said and trembled frome fear and went in a hurry, she can't afford to get the young lady angry.

   Yelin looked at the phone,  no received  calls no messages . 

What a miserable birthday!!

    There is really  no difference from the rest of her 20 birthdays. Being alone was really scary... Sad.... And cold, But she never seemed to care on the surface.

    did dhe got used to it? or she was burying it in her heart and trying to forget it forcefully?

     She always thought that she was destined to stay alone and destiny was not something she could change so easily so she was accepting the life that she was giving.

           But unexpectedly today something disturbed her heart, like a storm growing little by little, as if her insides were filled up and couldn't hold it any longer .......

" humph.... What a loving family .... no one remembered..... ".

     She took the phone and posted on her blog "happy birthday to me "

       All her college friends and so called family start sending their fake wishes and  sweet words that they don't even mean....Maby that was supposed  to satisfy her! she thought.... but it makes her feel the more sad and bitter.

"There are no trivial reasons for crying, and not all crying means sadness, you may suffer from stress and find yourself crying against your will for no occasion or a clear reason at the time, but you are just crying, sometimes crying to remember someone who suddenly left you or a fleeting coincidence that made you cry from the excessive long for someone who no longer  You can hug him or at least tell him that you miss him, you may cry from running after your simple dreams because you are tired of running and need to stop for a bit, or you cry from your strength and steadfastness because you want to collapse and you do not have the luxury to do so, cry of your strength in the quick overtaking, oblivion and forgetfulness as if you cannot stop at a certain point to regain your soul that has been consumed by transgression, crying from the responsibilities that besiege you everywhere, because you cannot hide from the world, or from excessive despair and loss of hope and passion ..

Even the most trivial reason is like crying when your cup of coffee is upended, it may be due to the accumulations that have exploded in your heart ... in one go." a random poste that shakes her emotions.

As soon as she finished reading it, she couldn't hold her tears back in a second her eyes were filled with tears  then she threw her phone on the bed and went to the boxes and presents sent by her parents and brother, she starts smashing every thing kicking them with her legs crying Hysterically and shouting like a made woman this wasn't like her usual self, she used to be calm and quiet.

     When the maids heard the noises, all of them went in hurry to check about their young miss it was the first time something like this happens.

" open the door miss are you Okey!!" the head of maids demand respectfully, and thier were no response

" flora it's must be you the one who makes our young miss angry" the maid  lilith whispered in a low voice that makes flora chakes frome fear, then she stared at the head maid trembling " I swear it's not me, she didn't even opened the door"

" all of you shut up" the haid maid glared at them.

      Yelin didn't even  hear the nocks on the door frome all the noise she made. Suddenly, everything quited down, and the voice of the head maid came to Yelin ears " little miss would please open the door"

      She glared at the door with a furious look, the rage in her heart did not fade away and it's demanding for a second round then she turned to the luxurious items decorating the room and "samash"  and another "smash" Vases, art paintings, cosmetics things worth millions were smash in blink of an eye, Yelin was broking every thing was on her sight and crying louder " why... Why.... Why am I not important to anyone"

     The hearts of the maids standing outside the door were broken for her, finally the butler arrived with lilith who was sent to bring him by the order of the haedmaid to brake the door.

      the elegant room turned to ashes in few minutes. When the door was opened every one was shocked it's as if an earthquake struck the entire room. A little thing was Sitting in the center, no one would believe that this girl made all this.

     After her storming tantrum, she fell on the floor from fatigue, her hair messed up, her hand was bleeding from the remains of the glass whil she continued her crying silently.

      As soon as the door was broken, the haed maid aunt Jane and the nanny who raised Yelin rushed in panic when she saw the scene, the angelic cute calme Yelin, like a daughter to her was crying pitiful in the middle of all the mess, No one  believed that she was the one who turned this room into these mess.

        Crying and trembling so hard as if she was gonna break like the rest of the broken things arouned her murmuring " I don't want to be alone", seeing her like that aches the hearts of the maids, aunt Jane rushed quickly and huged her into her chest

" you'r not alone I'm withe you.... I'm with you" she was calming her but she couldn't calm her self and her tears shed her face

" don't cry my missy don't" she was comforting her then she saw her hand bleeding and was terrified.

" come help take her out of the room!! Call the doctor " every one rushed to her in panic, lilith went down and called the doctor in a hurry.

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         When the doctor came, she was trembling in the aunt's arms, the doctor "glanced at her to  put Yelin on the bed so that he could examine her, his eyes filled with questions" what happened here ?" he said to himself while entering the room.

     Doctor Stuart is the family doctor a old and wise man, he was a friend of her father whom he cherished the most. he ignored his curiosity and rushed to Yelin holding  He the first aid kit in his hand. He checked her examine her pulse and then he  cleaned the wound in her hand while he was taking out the shards of glass he raised his eyes ti look at the her face afraid that she might be in pain, but he got shocked from what he saw.

  Her tears were falling down in silence, and she did not show any pain or hurt, on her face was a cold expression , as if her body was here but her soul was in another world.

      "Yelin..... Yelin.... Can you hear my voice" Doctor Stuart's voice sounds very old yet calm, he patted on her forehead gently trying to reach out to her " why are you crying Yelin... Emm ?" he said in a low voice but he got no answer, she didn't even glanced at him.

" Yelin...... Tell me who dares to make our princess cry? “ surprisingly, she opened her eyes and gazed at him then she said" I'm not a princess, I'm rapunzel "

     He was stund by her words for a moment then he found his voice and said " but she was a princess too"

" a lonely princess in a lonely castle" with a grumpy face and enraged eyes, Yelin shouted loud at them   " so all of you out...go to you'r families.... Let me stay allone" she pulled the IV forcefully and some blood dropped.

     She was standing on the edge of the bed glaring at everyone "it must be something happened that irritate her, she didn't do anything n'or show's any signs in the past 5 years what happened now" the doctor wondered, it was something strange because Yelin was quite and an understanding girl all along.

" Mr butler would you please helpe me calm her down" as he demanded, the butler and aunt Jane came and held her in ther hands to fixed her on the bed, while she was struggling to break free the doctor injected her with a sedative and slowly she began to calm down little by little until she falls asleep.

The room was cleared out and everybody sighed of relief thanking god in their hearts that this mess is finally over, only Aunt Jane remained by Yelin side, while the butler was seeing the Doctor out, Doctor Stuart demanded from him to tell him every detail about what happened so Yelin would be in this situation, the butler told him what happened but nothing seems to be useful for him.... "It must be her old problem has come back! I need to call her father"

The butler said in a calm voice " but I don't think master will come home because of that, you know him will after all both of you are old friends"

" she is his daughter and his responsibility is to take care of her, not to mention that he is one of the reasons" Dc Stuart said angrily " I will call him" then he walked firmly and got into his car.

The butler bowed respectfully " then you should try"

The doctor glared at him and started the car, as the car moved away the butler said " good night"

In his heart he knews the best his master and the way he thinks business is the first and the top on his list, that what makes the mistress following him to where he goes all this years because she realized it too, "poor little miss" she was pitiful, growing up with no mother or father by her sides is really painful, and the more painful is that they weren't dead they are alive but they just don't care.