Tsk. Boy Love !!
EPISODE 1
HAKU
I've been anxiously staring at my best friend for the past two minutes...
HAKU
shuffling my feet under the cafeteria table, and fidgeting with my food.
HAKU
he had a specifically grumpy face today.
HAKU
i wanted to ask him why he was so sour since lunch started.
HAKU
but i knew that he'd be too uncomfortable to talk about his feelings in public.
HAKU
he always gets like this in big crowds,
HAKU
but i could feel it was especially bad this afternoon.
HAKU
something must've happened.
HAKU
i started picking at my food again.
HAKU
(what if he's too irked to hang out with me later today?)
HAKU
(i should leave him alone.)
HAKU
(he's probably annoyed with me.)
HAKU
i looked up at him again and he seemed to flinch a bit,
HAKU
but continued eating with that permanent scowl on his face.
HAKU
after a few long seconds, i asked the same question i always do when feeling like a burden.
HAKU
(he looked at me and i felt my chest tighten.)
EPISODE 2
HAKU
we... we're still hanging out after practice right ??
ASUZA
stop being dumb haku !
HAKU
the tone of his voice was harsh and he looked annoyed,
HAKU
yet i sense a small amount of something playful.
HAKU
i could barely even hear him over the tremendous amount of movement and jumbled conversations arrounding us.
HAKU
i picked up a strawberry.
HAKU
i wanted to talk more,
HAKU
i always do, but ASUZA is a man of few words and i've learned to respect that.
HAKU
yet, it isn't good for my mental health.
HAKU
anxiety has been apart of my being since elementary school...
HAKU
i've over think everything and couldn't do basic tasks sometime's.
HAKU
it's as if the ground was torn from under me as a kid and i'm bound to stay in one place forever.
HAKU
ASUZA's seen my anxiety at it's worst and had been surprisingly supportive...
EPISODE 3
HAKU
he tried recommending a song and his favorite music playlist because it always calmed him down.
HAKU
it's hard to explain my uneasiness to him.
HAKU
he isn't great at handling emotions head on, so he tends to resort to studying the psychological effects and how to deal with people who suffer from my disorder.
ASUZA
"its get to the root of the problem."
HAKU
through out the years of tending to my panic attacks, ASUZA eventually figured it out how to calm me down.
HAKU
but, it never goes away.
HAKU
the fear is always lingering on my finger tips and in the pit of my stomach.
HAKU
i've never smoked weed before but ASUZA does all the time.
HAKU
i'm afraid he'll get cought, but he's so good at sneaking it around; and he's been doing it since middle school.
HAKU
it's after the school now and we're headed to the gym.
Download MangaToon APP on App Store and Google Play
