Life sucks, don't you agree?

Love hurts and friends? Well, never place your life in their hands. He gets it on why your problems tend to he theirs but, bars? What made it okay last night?

He was an uptight type, Never one to indulge in drinks and wild parties in particular. The smell of sweets, people being everywhere, vomit and loud noises weren't his go to comfort zone. He was what they called a good boy. A triangle route one; College, Church, Home.

It was that one time and he only needed to drink for his sanity for the pain and humiliation was unbearable. Fuck love! But then again, what does love have to do with it? He just wasn't good enough for her.

He could see just how drinking was such a dumb decision when the morning light was registered to his barely opened eyes. It wasn't that great to drink anyway and the hangover? Way worse. How do people survive that and want a repeat? Day in, day out.

"Damn!" Cursed Aiden before sucking in a breath and closing his eyes once more with a pillow to his face. He's not drinking ever again! God punishes disobedience in mysterious ways indeed.

"Thank God, you are alive! You gave quite a scare there" Aiden heard a relieved voice in his room and some light feet taps on his floor towards him that was all it took to welcome the headache and nausea.

"Who the hell are you?!" Questioned Aiden backing to the corner of the bed where he realized that he too was naked and decided to cover himself with a pillow.

A man was inside his apartment. A man he doesn't know and they were naked. And did he say that the intruder was a big grown ass man?.

What else does the Lord have to do to remind Aiden of his promise to alcohol intake?. He used to call anybody who's sending their baggage to the bar, shallow.

It's shameful enough to stoop that low and to think that it was a one time thing, the big boss can be cruel to make it weird the next day, right? When he could have reasoned with him harder not to go in the first place.

"Uhm, honey? That's my line" Supplied the stranger seemingly confused and concerned looking back at the stacks of papers in his hands seriously before looking back at Aiden,

"You were supposed to smile and say, 'Barely'" Informed the stranger with a nod, helpfully.

"What are you doing in my room?" Asked Aiden visibly alarmed and confused hugging his naked body glaring daggers at the stranger to not make the next step towards him.

"Okay, now you just sound crazy. What will you be having for breakfast? Whiskey? Some shots. Margarita. Cocktails...?" Inquired the stranger walking to the kitchen side, buck naked making Aiden feel like maybe... just maybe, it could be him that was the one tripping there. Was that it? Because, all he could remember was him drinking his sorrows away and after that? Nothing.

Was it the alcohol amnesia thing? But, the night before was the first time he ever sipped on anything alcoholic. Or was he...dare to say, Dreaming at the moment? And all he could need was another nap. Oh, how he wished for that to be true. He even pinched himself to prove the theory. Bad idea.

"Oh, before I forgot...Jake called and I kind of need to be at work before noon. It's the lazy saturdays" He heard the stranger once he reached the kitchen stand looking back at Aiden.

"Who's Jake?" Asked Aiden once again confused. Why did the stranger make it seem like he was crazy? Should he be familiar with the name? Were they friends?

"How many Jakes do you know?" Retorted the stranger with his hands on his hips. He was the nagging type for sure and even though Aiden didn't remember shit about him and the said Jake but, he felt drawn to him. That's his type, right there. Was that gay?

Or maybe it could be that he was hard and crazy horny at that moment, Wait, "\_I'm gay?" Blurted out Aiden startling the stranger who simply played along,"What? Wow! Congratulations, I'm gay too!"

"You think this is a joke? Waking up to a stranger in my bed?" Questioned Aiden with a glare. Now he was angry, attracted, horny, tired, hangover, confused and very much not feeling the AC level inside. Who cranked it up that low? It was cold as Antarctica.

"There's a stranger in our bed?" Peeked the said stranger to the bed alarmed. When did they break in?, wondered.

"NO! Not there... You are the stranger here!" Said Aiden seriously hoping to get his point across. Shit just got too real too fast.

"But, I'm not in bed right now" Replied the stranger simply, looking at Aiden like he was going crazy by the second, "Do you want a second to get the record straight?"

"What's your name?" Questioned Aiden in his no nonsense tone.

"Philip? But, I wasn't complaining when you called me Phi Phi Baby last night" Replied the stranger somewhat bashful with the blushes and everything making Aiden cringe on the inside. What did they do last night? Did he want to know? The head was going to explode.

"Did we...? Are we...? What are we?" Asked Aiden holding his breath, bracing himself for whatever was coming. He hated the unknown the most so, his options was to just go ahead and ask.

Be it a drunken mistake or a repressed sexuality, he decided to be whatever Philip will answer and nothing less. No judgements, just acceptance.

Whether he liked it or not Philip was his responsibility. He was in his house for crying out loud. And not just anybody gets to walk through the door of his apartment unless they are important to him.

Only family, friends and a close to become a wife girlfriend.

How can you define an opportunity? Because, whatever was unfolding to Philip, he termed that as an opportunity.

Yes, he was supposed to get satisfied with the sex last night but, how can someone say goodbye to something that amazing? He got a taste of a honey and now Philip wanted to befriend the bees.

The silence that engulfed after the question was deafening and very much awkward. Unnerving Aiden more and more for it was clear that they weren't 'just' friends and he could lie all he wants but, it was clear as day how much he wanted for Philip to be otherwise. It was a sudden realization that made it all the more weirder.

"This is happening?" Started Philip with a not so happy chuckle. Was he disappointed? Of course not! But, was he excited at least? Not that either. Improvising wasn't his strong suit.

"It's not a prank now is it? Where's the camera, Aiden?" Asked Philip testing the waters. You never know with men these days and their pranks. Was Aiden the type?

"I'm not playing, Philip" Said Aiden in a deadpan tone, he was as serious as they come and guilty too but, there wasn't a single trace of regret in Aiden's features.

"I have no memories of you. Of us. I got nothing here! You could be a killer for all I know!" Explained Aiden as he was lowering his guard down. Gone was the panic in his voice.

"Well, then we need to have a full stomach for this" Said Philip before walking to the closet and wore Aiden's tshirt and boxer shamelessly before throwing a pair at Aiden's direction like that was a natural thing to do between. Who the hell was Philip in his life?

Philip couldn't believe his ears! Well, for two things mainly. One, he was happy to find the guy hanging on to reality by a thread which was a loophole.

He doesn't remember? Great! All the more stage for Philip's storyline he made up the night before.

And two, It was disappointing. He felt a connection with a guy and the night before? Was nothing short of heaven. He was a charming gentleman. Should he just tell him the truth and go with the story he made the night before? Or he could just give his story a background?

"Thanks... So?" Inquired Aiden very much invested but, he couldn't lie that seeing Philip all ten toes down in his kitchen was doing things to him. To hell with Mia and her two timing blow!. There was a Mia, right?

"How long have we been together?" Asked Aiden curiously as he was trying hard to read the calendar on the fridge. He started with together? What happened to the 'What is our relationship?' He was thinking about earlier?.

"Not that long actually" Replied Philip while scrambling the eggs to mask his shaking hands. An wide opening for his story, should he just go for it?.

"You see, we were in a secret relationship for a period of two years" Said Philip holding his breath and waiting.

"Two years? What year is this?" Inquired Aiden shocked before he was stunned and ashamed.

So he was two timing Mia? With a man? Why was he feeling hurt then? He still does though. Was his ego that big?. He felt sick to his stomach.

Suddenly, he didn't wish to listen for anything any longer and just went to hug the shit out of Philip who was seriously startled.

Philip thought that to be too sudden to accept a situation. Was Aiden playing with him?

"I'm sorry, I made you a secret" Whispered Aiden, feeling so hurt and broken for Philip.

"Nobody deserves to be just 'an affair'" Said Aiden meaning every word making it hard for Philip to not melt in his embrace. Was that wise?

"No, you didn't! I decided that on myself, remember?" Coaxed Philip turning to face the guy but, only to meet his broad hard chest first and a very yummy neck along the way to his warm expression on his face. What was they talking about again?. He just wanted to kiss the guy and bring that feral bull of last night.

"Why?" Asked Aiden confused. Who would want to be kept a secret. Was Aiden the one who was a secret? Was being with him that shameful?

"Why what?" Asked Philip with a dry throat making Aiden's eyebrow cock upward instead of answering but later on relenting.

"Why did you decide to make yourself 'an affair'?" Clarified Aiden with a knowing smile dancing on his lips when he saw the look of lost in Philip's face as he was trying on something other than Aiden's lips. Quite an ego booster. No words needed.

"Because, I'm a bl actor and in this country? That context is a death wish. I just didn't want you to get hurt. That's why, I begged you to date that girl" Explained Philip casually but, was freaking out since from the moment they met, Aiden didn't speak of an Ex so, he wasn't sure if he did have one to begin with. He just kept crying 'Why me' 'What did I do so wrong?' When they met. It was a risky game.

"Mia..." Aiden breathed the word and honest to God? Her name still tasted bitter on his tongue. What did he do so wrong?

"Yes, Mia!" Philip repeated the name excitedly before hitting Aiden's chest playfully and biting on his Adam apple. Who knew taking such a risk could pay handsomely like that. He was on a lucky streak!

"Easy there, monkey" Teased Aiden backing off from Philip's hungry hold with a chuckle.

Aiden was very much still confused that was clear as the day and unfamiliar with Philip obviously.

So, touching his body like that didn't feel as natural as he thought it would feel but, he was excited and it felt new and... Let's just say that being with Philip like that gave him a sense of home. Or if he was being honest? He couldn't let himself think of Mia when he's with Philip. That's a bonus.

Don't worry, he gets that it's weird and all but, that doesn't mean it's not true.

"Monkey?! Did you just\_? Are you seriously being a racist now?" Asked Philip seemingly offended by that for he was black.

"Woah, No. Please, I didn't... I couldn't..." Stuttered Aiden making Philip laugh aloud before caging the guy, "This is fun"

"Don't play with me like that! I don't want to hurt you. Not in this life. Not ever" Declared Aiden cupping Philip's face to look up at him. He meant it!.

He didn't know Philip but, he never wishes to see him in pain. He had a feeling that Philip had already been there and already done the healing part. So, he couldn't possibly bring any more trashy past.

"You are a good man, Aiden. Thank you for everything" Said Philip before accepting the kiss from Aiden and it was... Heaven. Where was he all his life?

Philip never knew a kiss can make a person that vulnerable, weak and very much a mess. Such a raw, wild, overwhelming sense of owning a soul.

Was it wise getting tangled up with Aiden like this?. He could even feel his confusion and genuinity in the kiss. Aiden was truly an open book that it scared Philip shitless. You just don't break a person like that? You become a murderer for killing a spirit.

The act was beginning to feel real to Philip. He was being played!. And much so because, they spent twenty minutes to keep the kitchen intact from the fire that erupted from the frying pan.

He was never distracted in the kitchen before. Not even once!

Good thing it was the weekend after final exams or Aiden would have killed Grayson for dragging him to the club.

He even cancelled all his work for the day. He felt that something wasn't adding up but, he just couldn't pinpoint what was or maybe, he just didn't want to find out. He liked Philip and the easy sense of life he carries about him. Or maybe because, he makes him want to have sex which is a new occurrence to him.

It was weird how Philip was more at home than Mia ever was in that apartment. He was everywhere and on top of everything in the apartment which was a breath of fresh air from the constant 'You should do this', 'You could have done that' comments.

But, it was no secret that Philip was more than a stranger to Aiden which was quite mind numbing when he realized that nobody he knows knew about him, not even as a friend!. And to make matters worse, his phone number was saved just the night before which was another terrifying clue. And how on earth can a person erase a past of only one person. He heard about a period in one's life but a person? What was he playing at?

Was keeping him a secret that important to the point of isolating him to his daily life? Not even bragging to his bl fan sister, Tina?. What was happening to him?

What if it's a selective amnesia and soon could be anybody else and in no time, he'd be a stranger even to himself? Blame the notebook the movie.

"And so? How do I look?" Came Philip's question, interrupting him from his head, he was standing like a diva from the corner of Aiden's eye and the jaw drop from Aiden explained everything to Philip.

"That's how you look everytime we go out?" Asked Aiden absent minded eyeing Philip up and down before swallowing his greed.

"I had THIS and I still agreed to date Mia?" Asked Aiden cementing his doubts. He could never date two people at once, that was engraved in him. He had this feeling that he was being lied too and facing the fact wasn't in the cards so, he decided to play along at the moment. Living life on the edge.

That is exactly what baffles Philip. The guy was straight and he took it pretty well to find out that he had a boyfriend for two years and even though it was over the top? He had to cross dress to get his reaction to that and so far? He couldn't tell if he was the greenest flag or a dripping red one. Was he colour blind?

"What. are. you. Trying to tell me, Mister?" Inquired Philip as he went up to straddle Aiden on his lap, who groaned at the contact to his groin. Aiden makes it so easy for a man to feel special.

"That you look breathtaking" Replied Aiden not really knowing what to do to help his case. He was hard and so not in tune with his brain. He was his own demise.

He honestly wanted to question Philip more about them and understand but, then also to make himself cum which was an argument in itself for he wanted to make the guy beg for mercy and leave him a hot mess but, by the way he was dolled up expensively? Looked like it took him a lot of work to get ready but damn, those lips\_!

"Enough to make you hard apparently" Said Philip grinning devilishly like he knew exactly what Aiden was thinking. But, if he did? He would be screaming for the hills at that moment. Wait, can a person change his anatomy as changing clothes?

"Where's your cock?!" Asked Aiden, shocked when he felt Philip's front, flat. And the guy was packing a seven inch bafore so...

"Somewhere down there" Whispered Philip with a laugh. He realized that he liked Aiden maybe even more than he has to. As much as he liked his feral side, he couldn't help enjoying his goofy side.

"Doesn't it hurt?" Questioned Aiden cautiously but, with genuine concern.

"I'm an art, Kitty" Explained Philip simply as he stood up from there making Aiden face his stomach and subconsciously, Aiden kissed him there tenderly and holding him by the butt cheeks making Phillip's knees go weak and jelly. How does he do that so effortlessly without making him feel repulsed?

"I have to go, darling" Whined Philip like Aiden had an invisible glue keeping him there.

"Do you really have to go?" Questioned Aiden giving Philip the begging dog eyes.

"Yes, Kitty" Said Philip before kissing Aiden's tip of his nose, "Just because we live together now doesn't make you my keeper"

"How did I survive with you being a stripper?" Asked Aiden before kissing him once more at the navel and rubbing his face there.

"That's for you to tell, honey. See you next time" Philip kissed Aiden before walking to the fridge to show Aiden where every meal was, "Any questions... Shoot me a text"

"You got a key to the apartment?" Asked Aiden reminding the rushing Philip. Don't blame him, he didn't want that to be the last he saw Philip.

"Lost it, remember?" Replied Philip after a stunned minute.

"Right bedside draw" Nodded Aiden towards the direction making Philip scoff when he saw it, "Mia's?"

"Unfortunately yes" Replied Aiden standing from the couch to walk to him. He was too horny to think straight and was too magnetizing to resist.

"You could have forgotten about her instead. Just saying" Said Philip as he was looking at the copy of the key, "It's cute though"

"I'm sorry" Whispered Aiden inches away from Philip making him yelp but, melt afterwards. WTF, right?

"About what?" Asked Philip breathlessly, He always thought he was more than in control with his body than most. He even thought to be an ace before.

"About Mia" Replied Aiden ashamed. He was still hurt by her. That he was using him as her replacement or maybe he was making fool out of him just because, he could.

"It was my idea though" Said Philip letting his head back so, Aiden could devour his neck while he grind on his junk leisurely.

"But, I loved her" Said Aiden in a hurt tone killing the moment like it were an annoying fly.

"You still are, baby" Said Philip seriously while straightening his outfit and hair.

"Why did I forget about you?" Questioned Aiden feeling like shit and blaming himself. On the what if Philip was telling the truth and he was just denying for his peace of mind?.

"Something for the plot? So, you could love me all over again? Or you could have a chance to meet my world without prejudice this time? It could be anything!" Explained Philip with a warm smile, "Let's take it step by step, shall we?"

"The one song I could listen to every day" Said Aiden before kissing Philip goodbye who left the apartment in a speed of light.

Aiden was gay and though he didn't know when it happened but, it happened and he had a two year secret relationship with a bl actor/drag striper.

Did he believe that? Had his doubts. Did he want to believe that? Heck yes! Philip was a ten and he can switch it up pretty nicely.